Bret: *reviews timeline of his wattpad existence* How long?

Was I able to fool myself that this thing would work? How long was I able to brainwash myself that MHB is the best on wattpad. The best group there is...an unstoppable juggernaut. Turns out that MHB doesn't create a crack on the surface. Months and Months of looking through ALL MHB accounts and I find mostly MHB members voting on the books and commenting. Lovely "Fans" we have...I've been told "I find it cool what you guys at MHB do." My first expression is this...😄 and then 😌 and finally 😕. As they don't even vote for one chapter from any of the books. The Reads barely rise, votes barely rise and account doesn't get any attention.

How long was I able to foolishly tell myself "Patience will bring result". Failed after failed campaign bring in Zero results. A failure is what I am. Nothing more and nothing less. Fei you're taking MHB too seriously, is what many of you is thinking. You don't understand how I feel about this entire thing. You can't do things along Zhoa, it's impossible. Yeah that's true....I can not build something alone but I can surely tear it down alone. MHB was meant to be a place where people share ideas and support each other. Helping each other get more noticeable and out there. A well organized group with tremendous talent. United and Never divided. We have our differences, we bump heads but in tragedy we stand together. But, things are changing very fast. Those uneasy thoughts I had in Early MHB are returning really quickly. MHB will fall...The Unstoppable Juggernaut will be rudely interrupted. Its my fault....
.... I am simply to weak and simply not talented. Ever noticed that I am Blank Flank.

I am untalented. How can a untalented "leader" lead a super talented team? The answer is simple....I can't. Talent leads talent and my friend lack a little special that is called talent. I call my self "The Hero of Chaos" but The chaos is actually my fault. I am the only one to blame. It is the fault of the commander if the team fails. If the group accounts fail. Every idea that I thought was Good was pure garbage. None work...My simplicity never works. The only reason MHB got to where it is now is because of the talent around me. What do you bring to the table?

If I have ever interviewed you for the group I have asked you that. I've been thinking about it and I realized that I have nothing to bring to the table. My writing is never acknowledged, my art are all Bases and I just can't support these guys who tower over me when it comes to talent. I don't have a fraction of what they got.

I will never have what they got...I'm just not good enough to match my friends. Tbh I don't even know how you guys can even be around me. I'm a snore and I can't really relate with you guys. Its nice seeing you guys get together and become real close friends and stuff. Makes me smile for a second but it shines a light to how pathetic I am, I should just hang it up and give up. I can't do any of this. I can't survive on here, any time now this account would be

I'm sorry but I'm just too lonely and very useless. I think it's time that I retire for a while from messaging people first. I might be Skype, you might catch me here and there also I'm tired of trying to approach new people and talk to others. I understand personal lives and stuff like but like all the time, The only time I engage in a conversation with someone is when I message them and say "Hi" or "Hello" and we talk, their responses seem like I'm boring or bothering them. Without me messaging someone, the conversation can spread to over ridiculously long periods. 2 weeks to 2 months....where People stop responding. I am really that boring to you guys? That You don't talk to me....

I'm just gonna go plot another unsuccessful plot for MHB. And go attempt to make the accounts look active. My usual. Night