jaemin woke up because of jisung the next day.

"sorry, hyung." the maknae told when he noticed jaemin's eyes opened.

"it's okay. i needed to wake up not too late anyway."

jaemin headed to the kitchen in his pyjamas, not expecting to see his manager.

"oh, jaemin! hello."

"hello." jaemin bowed.

"is jeno up?" the manager asked.

"i don't think so..." jaemin shrugged, switching the coffee machine on.

"can you please wake him up? the shooting of 'misfit' starts today. i'll prepare your coffee."

jaemin nodded, bowing his head again before walking towards jeno and donghyuck's room.

he opened the door, and as he was about to call jeno's name, the words got stuck in his throat at the sight in front of him.

jeno wasn't alone in his bed.

he was hugging a male figure.

jaemin approached the bed to have a clearer view of the two boys.

it was renjun.

both boys were sleeping completely entangled, with smiles on their faces, as if they just spent the best night ever.

a lump formed into jamein's throat as his heart stopped beating for a while.

he walked out of the room as silent as possible, closing the door behind his back.

the feeling that had just blossomed into his body was horrible and uncomfortable.

he didn't even understand why...

jeno and him used to be the best of friends.

they used to be glued to the hip, never leaving each other's side.

and then, renjun arrived.

jaemin didn't mind at first.

not until renjun started to catch jeno's attention.

jaemin was slowly left aside, alone with his feelings for jeno, while the other boy was mesmerized by the chinese male.

jaemin knew that there were in a country where homosexuality wasn't something truly appreciated by the society. so, he had kept his feelings for jeno on the low side.

also, they were idols, and any little problem that could occur inside the group could easily become a nationwide scandal that would tarnish the whole group's image.

so... yeah. jaemin had stayed silent.

his feelings had never really died down.

jeno still had a special place in his heart.

and this hadn't changed with them growing up and with jaemin going on hiatus.

but when he had come back after months of being home, the sight of renjun and jeno being much closer had worried him.

had jeno forgotten about their past relationship?

had jaemin been replaced by renjun?

all these questions kept turning around in his mind.

he didn't hold a grudge against renjun though.

the chinese male seemed to be quite caring towards jaemin. a bit like jeno.

he was always asking jaemin if he was alright and helping him in their everyday life.

he was sweet, he was cute, and he was caring.

but he was stealing jeno.

this morning, the sight of jeno and renjun sleeping together broke jaemin's heart.

could he be even luckier?

not only had he learned that his heart was sick; now, he saw the boy he had feelings for sharing his single bed with another boy.

jaemin swallowed the lump that had formed in his lump, grabbing jisung's arm as the maknae was about to head to the bathroom.

"can you wake jeno up please. he needs to film the 'misfit' music video."

just after, jaemin headed back to the kitchen, where his manager was drinking some coffee.

"so?"

"he's waking up." jaemin told, sitting where his manager had placed his cup of coffee.

"thanks, jaemin."

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"i did some researches." renjun told, entering jeno's room later that night. "i know what jaemin has."

jeno patted the space next to him on the bed, inviting renjun to seat next to him.

"tell me everything."

"coronary artery disease or coronary heart disease." renjun read the article on his phone. "this disease appears when the blood vessels conveying blood to the heart are damaged. it can cause chest pain, also known as angina, shortness of breath, and if it becomes really severe, heart attacks."

jeno gasped.

"heart attacks?!"

"yeah. this shit is scary..."

"how can jaemin have such a thing?" jeno asked.

"well... it says that it can develop for people who have familial heart diseases, those who don't exercise enough, those who smoke or drink and those victims of obesity or diabetes. and stop me if i'm wrong, but i'm sure jaemin meets none of those criteria."

jeno though for a few seconds, trying to recall if jaemin had ever mentioned some kind of genetic disease in his family, but he couldn't recall anything.

"yeah, you're right." jeno nodded.

"they also talk about high blood pressure, so this could be a factor..."

"perhaps."

"anyway, this is horrible. i feel so bad for jaemin."

"i do too..."

jeno and renjun shared a pained look, both feeling hurt.

jaemin was in danger.

and jaemin was alone in this.

"we should tell someone about it." jeno told.

"we can't. jaemin will get mad."

"but he's sick."

"i know. let's help him. the two of us. the others don't need to know. i'm sure jaemin doesn't even want us to know about it."

jeno responded after a few seconds and a logn sigh.

"okay, but if anything severe happens, i'm telling taeyong."

"deal."