[Warning. Sexual and suicidal content below. I'm being serious guys, if you can't read anything like this, please step away. Maybe jump to the next chapter.]

I was standing in a clearing. I look around to see the never ending lines of trees surround me but no one else. 

"Boo!" Someone whispers in my ear and I turn around quickly, as I see Alec standing there. His eyes were black. Chase. 

"You scared me." I take a step back. 

"No no no baby don't be scared of me." He puts his hands up quickly and takes a few steps away from me. "I would never hurt you." He smiles at me. 

"Chase?" I question and he grins widely. 

"That's right," he winks at me. 

"What am I doing here?" I ask, looking around as he moves closer to me slowly, very slowly. 

"You're dreaming about me," he chuckles and I frown as I look up at him. 

"I am?" 

Chase moves closer to me as he reaches his hand out. I don't move as he pushes a strand of my hair behind my ear. "I wanted to distract you. You seemed sad, Ava said." He smiles as he rests his hand against my cheek. "Don't ever be sad, Emily. I am always in here," he points to his heart. 

When a wolf had a soulmate and the moment they met, it was not only an instant attraction to the human side of us, but the wolf or vampire side of us as well. They could talk through our minds and we would not even know about it. Maybe Ava had fallen in love with Chase because he was the sweetest. 

"I'm not sad,"I say to him and he frowns. 

"Well I am here to cheer you up. You and I will be spending time together until you wake up. So what do you want to do?" He asks with a raised eyebrow. 

"I-" I had no idea what to do. 

"How about you talk to me? Tell me how you feel about the other prick," he sits down on the ground and pats the side next to him. 

I smile as I sit next to him and let out a deep sigh. "I'm disappointed in how he could do that to me again. I thought yesterday was a good day for us but he wants to break the mate bond." I say to him honestly. 

Chase sighs. "Alec has had it tough and it's no excuse but he needs to learn to trust you. He doesn't trust you yet and I think you have to work on it." He shrugs his shoulders. 

But that is the problem. Why do I have to work on it? He doesn't want me, and why am I holding onto a crush? Why do I think he would be my prince? My knight in shining armour? My soulmate that would help me heal when he doesn't want that.

"Oh no I can feel you waking up," Chase says suddenly.

I turn to look at him.

"Love you rosey," he blows me a kiss just as he disappears. 

I open my eyes to see I am laying in my own bed. I smile thinking about how sweet Chase was but the memories of yesterday float back in my mind. I had fainted in the library no matter how hard I tried to push through the pain. 

How did I get back home? 

I sit up in bed and look towards the clock. It read Friday and it was morning. 

Friday. 

I did not need the pain today. Not today. 

I climb out of bed and quickly get dressed in a pair of jeans since it was a little windy outside and a black long sleeved top. Today was going to be different.

I walk out of the room once I tie my hair up in a ponytail and head straight downstairs. 

Thank you Ava. I say to her and she smiles at me. 

He's really nice. She replies to me and I nod as I walk to the living room to see Liam and Nat sitting inside. 

"You're awake! How are you feeling?" Nat asks as she stands up, looking at me. 

"I feel fine. Do you know where Stella and Noah are?" I ask. I haven't seen them for days. 

"Oh." She looks confused. "They've gone home. Alec gave them a month off." She says and I nod. 

Home. 

I was leaving today. 

"Where is Alec?" I ask and Liam stands up looking at me confused. 

"In his office.." he says slowly and I thank him as I turn around and walk out of the room. 

I head towards his office and knock on the door. I can do this. 

"Come in," he calls and I open the door. Closing the door behind me, I turn to look at him. 

"Is something wrong?" He asks me as he places the papers on the desk. 

"I would like to go home today." I say to him. 

I didn't know the way home. 

"No." He answers me immediately. 

I frown. "Why not? I will come back," I lie to him. 

"No." Alec leans back on his chair. 

"No? Alec do you even realise how badly you are breaking me apart? Did it not cross your mind that I would feel the pain yesterday?" I question, feeling my magic raging against me. I hated that he would say no. 

"I ended it with Anna," he sighs. "I apologise about yesterday." Alec stands up.

"Say sorry." I tell him and he looks at me confused. 

"I apologise but I broke up with her yesterday," he says to me and I shake my head. 

"I do not care. Right now I need to go home so let me go. Do you want me to beg you because I will. All I feel here is dread and it's not helping me. I want to go home to my family, to people who would not hurt me further." I say to him as he walks towards me. 

I put my hand out, stopping him. "Send me home now or I will burn this house to the ground," I threaten him. 

Alec's eyes widen for a second before he smirks at me. "I see Natalie has been helping you with your backbone." 

I don't reply back to him as he sighs. "Okay. I will send you back but come back in a few days." He looks me in the eyes. "Please." He mumbles the word. 

"I want to go now." I say to him and he frowns but nods his head. 

"Your parents don't know and I have to get Jay to start the jet up," Alec starts mumbling to himself. 

"I want to surprise my parents and I don't need to take anything with me." I say to him and he nods his head. 

"Surprise it is then. I'll make sure Jay gets you straight to a car that will take you straight to your parents house. I want a phone call to say you've arrived, alright?" He says and I smile, nodding my head. 

"Thank you!" I say excitedly as I walk out of the office and upstairs. 

Miles. I call out to him in our mindlink. It would be a surprise for my parents but I would not go without anyone knowing. Miles needed to know. 

Yes? He asks me as I walk into my room. 

I'm coming home! I reply back excitedly. I needed to take a small bag with me. 

What?! Really? I'll tell your dad and we can get some food today and we can watch a lot of movies. I've been watching so many movies here with Oli. He replies back to me. 

No no no don't tell anyone. It's going to be a surprise. My first surprise ever? It's a good one, right? I say to him and he chuckles in my mind. 

Perfect one. I'll still get some food. You have to try Chinese food. It's so good, Em, it will make you feel so happy and full on the inside. He groans about food and I laugh at myself. 

I'll see you soon. I say to him as I look at myself in the mirror. 

It was the first genuine smile in a very long time on this day. 

I was going home. 

****

The conversation Alec and I had on the ride to the plan was different but somehow it had made me smile. 

"You look happy today. Why is that?" He asked. 

"Can I not be happy?" I raised an eyebrow at him. 

Alec chuckled. "You can, but when you're really happy, your cheeks turn red. It reminds me of something rosey," he shrugged his shoulders. 

"Rosey? Chase called me that." I smile to myself.

"What?" He slams the breaks on the car as we near the airport. "That was my name for you. Not his, that fucker." He curses and I smile. 

"I like Chase. He is really sweet." I shrug my shoulders as he drives ahead, slowing down near a plane. 

"I can be sweeter than Chase." He answers defensively. 

"I believe you." I smile at him as I open the car door once he stops. 

"No you don't!" He calls behind me. 

"Goodbye Alec." I smile at him as I walk away from him. 

"Will you come back in two days? Please?" He calls behind me as I notice a man hold his hand out for the bag I was holding. 

"I will." I answer him and follow the man inside the plane. 

It was a long journey but I was excited when the plane had landed. 

"Can you see that car there?" Jay points to the  black car as we walk out of the opened gates. I nod my head as he hands me my bag. "It has strict instructions to take you to your dad's pack. I must go." He says to me and I smile at him. 

"Thank you." I say and watch him walk away. I smile as I head towards the car. A man gets out and smiles at me. "Emily Gray?" He asks and I nod. 

"I'll take your bag." He holds his hand out to it. I hand him my bag as I open the door and climb into the tall car. It was huge. 

He slams the door behind me. 

"It's been a very long time, love." 

The world stops moving around me. I don't hear a sound other than his breathing as I feel his hand on my neck from behind. 

The excitement that I felt disappeared in an instant as Cameron trailed his finger around my neck. "I missed you," he whispers to me, his hand tightening around my neck. 

"I'm sorry," I whisper as I reach out my hand to the door handle. 

"Open the door and I will kill Oli." He threatens behind me. I freeze, not being able to breath in the suffocating air. 

He found me he found me he found me 

"Take this," he holds his other hand out and I notice a blue pill. "If you use your magic, I will kill Eliza." He murmurs against my neck from behind. 

I don't reach out for it. No no no. This was not supposed to happen. 

Miles! I scream in my mind as Cameron forces my mouth open. He drops the blue pill in it and closes my mouth. 

His hand covers my mouth and I can't breath.  

What's wrong? 

Emily what's wrong? Miles questions,  worried. 

Cameron. I answer him back as I bite into the pill and swallow it. Cameron removes his hand, the silence suffocating me in my mind. 

My magic disappears in an instant. Too strong. Too much. 

"You have spent too much time away from me, baby. We all missed you," Cameron sighs behind me just as I hear him hit something on my head. 

"Welcome home." He chuckles behind me as my mind falls into the darkness. 

****

I feel a hand trailing down my body. 

My eyes open up and I try to lift my body up, but I tug on handcuffs. I was naked and handcuffed to the bed. 

"Oh I missed this," I feel his hand move up my inner thigh. 

"Get off of me!" I scream, trying to tug on my hands. 

The darkness swirls around in the room, as if it would suffocate me further. 

"I missed this," his hand moves further up my body and he swirls his finger on my chest. 

"Cameron please!" I cry, tugging on the handcuffs and the bed shakes as I feel him move his body closer to me. 

"Get off me!" I scream at him, trying to twist my body away from him. 

I feel his hand on my face before I feel the sting of his slap. "Shut the fuck up, you bitch. Do you know how much damage you have cost me?" His hands tighten around my neck and he squeezes. 

"I will do whatever I want with your body. You are mine and this-" he squeezes my hip," all of this is mine," I feel him move closer to me. 

"Get off me!" I scream at him in the darkness. 

No no no 

"I won't let you!" I cry louder. 

"Bitch!" He growls at me as he slaps me across the face again. I choke on air as he tightens his hands on me again. 

"Be a silent little bitch and let me enjoy you." He chuckles above me as he pushes his fingers into my mouth. I choke on them, too late to realise as he breaks apart a pill in my mouth. 

In seconds, my body is numb, my mind numb as he pulls away from me. 

Silence. I don't hear him as he pulls away his belt. I don't see him as he smirks above my numb body. Not a single sound is made as I feel his fingers circling my body. 

"Look at you," he chuckles above me as I stare at the dark wall, a breathing doll. "So quiet." I feel his hands on me as they enter me slowly. 

The world did not sing to me, it did not cry as I lay there silently as Cameron entered me fast. I did not move as he whispered to me how he missed my body and how I felt tight. 

"No one will be able to save you from me." He whispers to me as I feel him from inside of me, harder and faster. His hands wrap around my neck and tilts my face up so I could stare at him through the darkness. 

"Your eyes, they are lifeless," he leans down closer to me, as I choke on the air he was stealing from me. "I love it." I feel his lips on mine and the world disappears from around me. 

***

"How dare you fucking run away!" A whip to my back as men laugh around me. 

"You think your mate will save you?" Someone laughs as I feel Cameron tilt my chin up as I stare at him. 

Hours had gone by. They had come inside and taken advantage of me. One after another until I had breathed softly to stop. I couldn't take any more. Cameron had laughed at me, saying I had turned weak and he had dragged my body out of the dark room. The lights had blinded me as he pulled me to the hallway where everyone stared at me. He tied up my body to the special wall he had made me. 

Every whip, every kick, every punch, it all hurt. I scream as I feel the whip on my back again. 

"My love, I will make you stronger just as you will make me strong. We will meet again," Cameron whispers into my ear as I feel him inject something into me. 

Darkness ushes me to itself. 

***

The sun blinds me as I open my eyes. It is cold, the wind swirls in my hair. 

I was outside, resting against a tree completely and utterly naked. The wind dances around me as I rest my head against the tree, my eyes closed as I pull myself in. I feel weak, and all I could think of- was Cameron, and how he had taken my blood again. Nearly drained me of it. 

I hear the paws somewhere far away and I close my eyes tightly as the sound gets closer. I pull myself in, covering my shivering body. 

No no no no 

I want to be alone. 

"Emily!" I hear dad's voice as I try to turn away from the wolves. "Leave!" Dad suddenly shouts and the wolves disappear. 

"Hey princess," dad's voice breaks a little as I cover my ears with my hands and shut my eyes tightly. 

"Leave me alone," I whisper softly. 

Go away go away go away 

"Emily," I hear mom's voice as I feel something wrap around me. I flinch as I feel the coat as mom kneels down in front of me. 

"Leave me alone," my voice breaks as I try to shut their faces out. 

Don't look at me don't look at me 

"Emily, I'm here," mom places her hand on my knee and I flinch away from her. 

"Don't touch me." I whisper. " I just want to be alone." I look up at her. Her eyes are filled with tears as she nods her head slowly. 

"We're here to take you home." She says to me. 

"I want to be alone." 

They were not understanding. I hate myself. I was disgusting and weak and did not deserve their tears. I wanted to be alone. 

I watch dad walk away, cursing loudly and mom turns to look at him. 

"Please." I whisper to her and she nods her head.

"Two minutes. We will be close by." She says to me and I nke my head as she stands up and runs after dad again. 

I push my hands through the coat as I lift my body up. I felt weak, he had taken too much blood this time but it did not matter. 

Nothing mattered. 

I close my eyes as I rest against the tree and pull the coat around my body tightly. I feel sore, the scars opening back up with new ones on my back. I felt the blood dripping down on the beautiful grass. I was tainting the grass, making it disgusting like myself. 

I take a step forward slowly and again as I hear the water somewhere close by. I walk towards it with one thought in my mind. I was going to end it today. Not any longer. 

I silently walk towards the cliff as I hear the waves down below hitting the rocks hard. 

"Emily.."  I hear my parents voice behind me as I take a step towards the edge. I ignore them calling my name as I look below. 

I could fall on the rocks and I would know peace for minutes, maybe hours. 

"Miles is coming," dad calls out as I hear them get closer. 

Miles. He did not deserve to see me like this. I was weak and he had finally gotten better. 

"Sweetie, step away from there. Tell us what happened." Mom says to me. 

My head spins as I see spots of darkness in my vision. 

"They did it again." I whisper, staring at the sun setting slowly. 

Sunsets. They were no longer peaceful. 

"Do you know where they are?" Dad asks me. 

"They hurt me." I whisper, taking a step forward. "All I can feel is their hands on me and I want it to end, even if it's just for minutes. I don't want to be here." I feel the tears slowly sliding down my face. 

"Emily." I hear Miles's voice behind me. "Turn around and look at me." He orders me. 

"I'm weak. I'm disgusting. They will not be able to hurt me if I am gone." I whisper as I take a step forward. 

"Emily!" Miles shouts my name as I feel a hand wrap itself around my arm and pull me back. I turn around to look to see dad staring down at me. 

"You are not weak. We will get through this."he says to me as he wipes my tears away. 

"I am so tired," my voice breaks as I whisper the words. 

Just minutes of peace. That was all I needed. To shut out the words and moans in my mind. To get rid of the feeling of their hands all over my body. 

"Come home." Dad tightens his hold on me and I try not to flinch at the pain it causes my body. "You can rest at home and I will sort this all out." He promises me as I see Miles and Mom walking towards me. 

"Emily," Miles says my name but I don't look up at him. It felt hard to breathe as dad walked away with me slowly from the cliff. 

The darkness flickered in front of my eyes as mom walked beside me. 

Talk to me. Miles mindlink me. Please. He begs. 

I am so tired, Miles. I whisper to him as I feel the tears falling down my face. 

My monster. He had ripped my heart out and I was his lifeless doll once again. He would come for me again. 

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I have no words...