(y/n) POV:

I leaned in, closer and closer. Anakin didn't make any move to indicate that I should stop.

Why is he not stopping me? Doesn't he think this is weird?

I tried resisting my movements but the temptations just kept growing as I got closer. My nose touched his, and I looked down at his lips. They were slightly chapped, but also looked smooth, if that even was possible.

This is your best friend. Don't do this. He'll never want to talk to you again.

His thumb gently caressed my chin, and he was looking down at my lips absentmindedly, as if lost in thought. I whimpered inaudibly at his touches and how they made me melt into him. Even with how close we were, I was still wanting more of the physical contact I was craving from the alcohol. I finally ignored the protesting voice in my head, and did what I needed to do.

The moment our lips touched, Anakin hesitated, and didn't move. His lips were so soft despite being chapped and I relished the feeling of them on mine. I've never kissed anyone before, but now I see why people talk about it in such a positive way. My current need for physical contact was becoming satiated by his lips, and that plus the alcohol sent a high straight to my brain. I pulled away and looked into his blue eyes; they were wide with shock and confusion. I could tell I had caught him completely off guard, but his then expression changed into something unreadable. I paused and considered my next move carefully. I probably should've apologized, told him that it was a mistake and won't happen again, but I didn't.

I couldn't stop myself as I grabbed his face in my hands and kissed him again, with as much confidence as I could muster. This time he kissed back and ran his fingers through my hair, then moved them down all the way from my neck to my hips.

Anakin broke the kiss to push me onto my back and climb over me. I gasped in surprise at his sudden dominance and felt a wave of pleasure snake through my stomach. I wrapped my arms around his neck and brought his lips back to mine, embracing every desire I had to touch him. Then he growled and aggressively bit my lip which caused me to gasp again, giving him the chance to slide his tongue in.

I felt thousands of butterflies erupt in my stomach, spreading immense euphoria throughout my entire body, and it was unlike anything I had ever felt before. My heart was pounding, and I thought it would burst out of my chest at any second. In this moment, I didn't even think about how this was my best friend who I've known since we were younglings, and how this is going to change our friendship. I didn't think about how we were in the Jedi temple, breaking the most important rule of the code. I didn't think about anything.

But then, the moment ended as Anakin abruptly pulled away and took a few steps back from me. I sat up and looked at him, confused. He touched his lips with his fingers and looked at me with the most horrified expression I've ever seen. "Why.....why did you do that?"

How do I answer that?

"I-I um.....I didn't—"

He didn't give me time to respond and slammed his fist on one of my desks. I sharply inhaled and watched as he brought his fist to his forehead and groaned, turning his back to me.

Then everything was silent. The only sounds were our breathing and the faint ambiance of of the outside world of Coruscant. I concentrated on the force, and felt that he was afraid, angry, and conflicted.

"I'm sorry." I whispered just audible enough for him to hear. Why was he so upset? He decided to kiss me back. He slowly spun back to look at me and sighed, crossing his arms as if he was about to scold a child for stealing candy. "Look, you're drunk and probably really out of it. Let's just pretend that this never happened, okay?"

His words pierced me and I internally winced. But I didn't want him to know how much they affected me so I put walls up in my mind, blocking him out of our force bond. How could he expect me to just pretend this didn't happen? Especially after I was vulnerable with him. I know Anakin is being realistic by saying that we should forget about this and just move on, since we crossed a very big line tonight. But it still hurts, and I really wish it didn't.

I nodded with a fake smile even though I wasn't going to be forgetting this anytime soon. He stared back at me for a moment, emotionless, and then turned and left my quarters without a goodbye. I stared the now empty spot where he stood, feeling a hollow pit in my stomach after everything that just happened.

Damn it, why did I do that? That was so stupid. I'm not attracted to him or anything.... right?

I threw myself back on my bed and groaned out loud, feeling confused and lost with my emotions. Anakin basically said that I kissed him because I was drunk, and that's what I told myself too. Maybe he was right. Hopefully we'll both forget about this eventually and then in the morning I can tell him that it was all a big misunderstanding. Just a mistake.

Time skip~

I opened my eyes slowly and squinted as the harsh light of day filtered through my window. "Ugh no...." I groaned and pulled my covers over my head. I had the worst hangover from last night.

Last night....

All the memories came flooding back and I immediately sat upright. My heart was pounding with anxiety and I put my head in my hands, "No no no no no. God, I'm so stupid." I threw the covers off of my bed and grabbed my crutches. I put my hair up in a ponytail and brushed my teeth, but didn't bother trying to change out of my clothes from yesterday since I knew I wouldn't be needed for any missions or formal gatherings. I needed to find Anakin and apologize.

I used the force to open my door and then exited my quarters. As I hobbled through the galant hallways of the Jedi temple, I asked myself the same question over and over: Why did I kiss him? Was it just because of my intoxicated state? Or was it actually more than that? Anakin and I had been friends for the longest time, and that's all I ever saw him as. But thinking about his smile, his protectiveness, and how he never gives up on those he cares about, made me reconsider what my true feelings were.

I turned a corner and almost ran into someone. I looked down to see Yoda, giving me a friendly smile. I smiled back nervously, "Hey Master Yoda, have you seen Anakin anywhere? I need to talk to him."

"On a mission on Geonosis, Master Skywalker is." He replied.

I mentally slapped myself because I actually knew that's where he would be today, since we talked about it in the cafeteria last night. I gave an awkward laugh, "Oh yeah, of course he is. Okay, I'll talk to him later then." Yoda tilted his head thoughtfully for a moment and then motioned with his cane for me to walk with him down the next hallway.

"Anxiety in you, I sense." I stiffened and started to internally panic. Did he know about Anakin and I? I was about to ask what he meant, but he continued, "Concerned for Master Skywalker's safety, are you?"

I smiled and stopped myself from letting out a relieved sigh, "Yes, I heard the mission was going to be very dangerous." Yoda nodded and didn't say anything else for a while.

We continued forwards and I couldn't help but admire the architecture of this particular hallway. I had never noticed before, but the white pillars on either side were patterned with flowers and leaves on them. And the high ceiling was a glittering marble white that held our reflections in it. I looked down and also noticed that the rugs we walked on were royal purple, which stood out in the mostly white temple. The designs made me feel a bit calmer, and I was grateful for that.

Eventually we both stopped outside of Yoda's meditation room. I stood and waited for his next words. He turned to look at me and gave me a serious expression, "Let the force guide you, you must."

I didn't know what to say back to that, so I gave him a quick nod and hobbled towards the cafeteria to get breakfast. His words were probably meant to encourage me, but they didn't; all I could think about was what I planned to do when Anakin returns from his mission.

Time skip~

It's been three days since Anakin left for his mission, and his ship was finally on its way back from Geonosis. I was restless over those three days, trying to distract myself with anything around me. Thankfully though, my leg was healing quickly so I didn't need crutches anymore. The doctors put fresh bandages around the wound and told me to keep them there until I needed new ones.

I walked outside of the temple and saw a ship land on the ground. The ramp opened and Anakin, Obi-Wan, and Rex all walked out together. My eyes met Anakin's and I felt my stomach do a backflip. His gaze lingered on mine for a few seconds, then he smiled and waved. I hesitated and then waved back. Was he not upset with me anymore?

I was going to ask to talk with him privately, but Mace Windu came over to me first. "(y/n), how are you feeling?" I shook my leg out to him, "Good, my leg is healing very quickly."

He nodded and turned to fully look at me. "That's good to hear, because I'm assigning you and Master Skywalker to go on a mission to Corellia, specifically Coronet City. We received word from the Corellian people that the Separatists have invaded the city. Your jobs are to report back with as much information as you can find, and attempt to bring back any Separatists, alive. You'll both leave in the morning."

I nodded my head at him, "Yes Master Windu." He gave a quick nod back, and turned to walk into the temple. My head started to spin. I was going to be alone with Anakin, and for who knows how long. Despite how I might seem on the outside, I wasn't really keeping it together on the inside. I still wanted to talk to him, because it felt weird to have what happened between us just floating in the air, being completely ignored.

Maybe things will go back to normal when after we talk about it?

That was my hope, at least.

(a/n) Wooooo second chapter done! This one is a bit shorter, but they will continue to get longer as the story progresses💕