What I knew, what I heard.. No

What hurts the most... Too much Rascal Flatts

Sticks and stones may... Ugh too quoted

Why is writing a song so hard?

I chuck my songbook at the wall, creating a light thud. Why now?

It's like writer's block, but soooo much worse.

"Cassy, breakfast is ready." I hear Scott call from the kitchen.

"Not hungry!" I yell back. 

It's been three months since I started this song, right after that interview when Jeremy proposed to Kirst. Three months of one sentence written, not a lot of food, interaction with society, no YouTube. I might as well have died without my Brendon Urie and queens.

"Cas, we need to talk." Scott walks into my room and I shove my songbook into my sweatshirt and jump on my bed so my chest is facing down. Smooth, Cassaddee.

"Whacha need?"

"What was that?" 

"What was what?"

"The thing."

"HE DID A THING!"

"No, not that thing!"

"Then what thing?"

"The thing you put down your sweatshirt."

"Who said I wasn't pulling up my bra?"

"Are you serious? Kirstie's told me how small of a chest you have. You have the smallest bra size there is."

"Why do you know this?"

"Because I'm your father."

"I'll be honest, I'd rather have Mitch know that than you."

"So what did you put in your sweatshirt?"

"I was pulling up my bra."

"You don't wear bras on weekends."

"Sports bras, my friend."

"Stop talking to me about bras! Answer my question truthfully."

"I had an itch."

"Where?"

"My rib."

"Lies."

"Truth."

"I will sit here until you tell me what you put down your sweatshirt."

"Then you're gonna be waiting quite a while."

"Tell me!"

"Tell me a secret and I'll tell you."

"Promise?"

"Promise."

I cross my fingers under my body. Too easy.

"I once tripped and fell down a flight of stairs because I was fantasizing over Mitch."

"I had an itch on my rib."

"Are you shitting me!!?"

"Nope. Now go please."

"Why haven't you been eating?"

"Haven't been hungry."

"Haven't been hungry in three months my ass."

"Been busy."

"Doing what?"

"Designing clothes."

"Since when?"

"Three months ago.

"I don't believe you."

I take out my designing notebook and flipped through some designs.

"I was trying to keep it a surprise, but I'm designing clothes for your guy's concerts on tour." Not a total lie.

"Oh wow these are good."

"Thanks."

"I still wanna know what you stuffed down your sweatshirt."

"Mitch is calling you."

If I had known that would have gotten him out before, I would have done it a lot sooner. 

I get up and shut my bedroom door, locking it afterwards. Taking my song notebook out from my sweatshirt, I grab my pencil and scribble out a couple words.

"Why is this so hard!?" 

"Cas, open up."

I hear Scott bang on the door and I quickly and quietly hide my songbook in the tiny compartment of my closet.

"Whaaaat?"

I groan as I open my bedroom door.

"You lied."

"Coulda sworn he called you."

"Whatever. What's in your sweatshirt?"

"Nothing."

I jump up and down to show I have nothing inside.

"You hid it."

Yeah I hid it just like I'm hiding from you oh look at that byyye."

I swing the door closed and lock it, pressing my back against the door.

"Dear God what is this, bug me day?"

My phone buzzes with a text from Gabi.

💙NoEyebrowsHoying💙: Look out your window

Ooookaaaay?

I do as the text tells me to and see a crying Gabi looking up at my window.

"Climb up from the ladder!" 

My best friend does as told and I pull her in before setting her on the bed.

"What's going on Gabi? You never cry. Never. That's saying something."

"My dad got a new job that pays a lot of money."

"Gabi, that's great. Why are you crying?"

"It's in Lithuania." (Did I spell it right?)

I shake my head rapidly, tears now streaming down my own face.

"Please tell me you're kidding right now because this isn't funny."

She shakes her head while covering her mouth with her hand, trying to mask the sobs.

"No no no no no. That's a ten hour time difference from LA!"

"I know."

Sobs rack my body, and I can't take it any longer. I hold onto Gabi for dear life, asking mentally in every language there could possibly be that this is a dream.

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"Cassy, can I come in?"

I throw the book at my wall, creating a louder thud than the song book.

"Honey, what happened?"

"Leave me alone."

"Cas, you can't hide in there forever."

"Can and will."

"I'm busting down this door."

I get up and lock the other thirteen locks on my door. I like to be prepared, okay?

"I need to think about stuff. Please leave me alone."

"What stuff could you possibly need to-"

"MY BEST FRIEND IS LEAVING FOR LITHUANIA AND I CAN'T DO SHIT ABOUT IT!!! LEAVE ME ALONE, SCOTT!"

I stuff my head in the pillows, sobs muffled by the soft mini cushions.

"Cassaddee..."

"Go away."

I hear my window slide open and click shut before arms wrap around me.

"You got the news too?"

I nod into Jordyn's chest as she just hugs me tighter.

"Maddie doesn't think it's gonna work out with the time difference. She might either break up with Gabi or move with her."

"Why us? Everything was going so well."

"I don't know Candy. I don't know. These words exchanged between some of us are the real pain, not the actions. Nothing anybody says will make it go away."

"Pain, actions, words, JORDYN YOU'RE A GENIUS!!" 

I race to my open songbook and start scribbling words down like mad. After about five minutes, it's complete.

"I'm a genius? For what, speaking metaphors I just came up with?"

"No, ya big silly. For helping me finish this song. Grab my electric guitar, we got some chords to figure out."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"Hey guys."

I look at the camera in my room, the red light blinking.

"So today I finished writing a new song. Jordyn here helped me out. We're going to show you guys the song right now. This is called 'Words.' Hope you guys enjoy and don't forget to comment ideas for new covers."

ACTUAL SONG - WORDS BY LAURA MARANO, THIS SONG IS OLD

Cassaddee
What I heard
What you say
Doesn't matter anymore

Jordyn
What you knew
What I knew
Doesn't matter now therefore

Jordyn (Cassaddee)
'Cause words (words)
Just hurt (oh woah)
And your actions real pain

Cassaddee
Nothing you say will make it
Just go away
So leave before you drive me
Completely insane

Jordyn + Cassaddee
Let's start all over
So we don't have to know
Each other's name, each other's story
It's the only thing you can do for me
Let's start it new where
You don't know what I do
Hurry up and let's be through
Don't want a thjng from you
Don't even have to say a word, no
Don't even wanna hear a word

Jordyn
What you hide
I found out
Plenty of things to say

Cassaddee
What I heard
When you talk
Silence in everyway

Cassaddee (Jordyn)
'Cause words (woah oh)
Just hurt (just hurt)
And your actions are the real pain

Jordyn
Nothing you say will make it
Just go away
So leave before you drive me
Completely insane

Jordyn + Cassaddee
Let's start all over
So we don't have to know
Each other's name, each other's story
It's the only thing you can do for me
Let's start it new where
You don't know what I do
Hurry up and let's be through
Don't want a thing from you
Oh, don't even have to say a word, no
Don't even wanna hear a word

Jordyn
I hope you're feeling proud

Cassaddee
My world's under a cloud

Jordyn
Can't breathe inside this croud

Cassaddee
But you know I don't wanna
See you around

Jordyn
I don't wanna see you around

Jordyn + Cassaddee
Let's start all over
So we don't have to know
Each other's name, each other's story
It's the only thing you can do for me
Let's start it clear where
You just get to disappear
Without you I've nothing to fear
I just don't want you here
Oh, hurry up and let's be through
Just don't want a thing from you

"That was a lot of fun."

Jordyn says as we pack up the guitars and sheet music.

"Yeah it was."

"CASSY!!!"

Kirstie runs into the room with a huge smile in her face.

"What's up?"

Maddie and Gabi come barreling in and fall on the floor, but immediately scramble up to their feet.

"Uhhh what's going on?"

"Candy..."

I look at my window to see Santina and Logan climbing in.

"Santina oh my god!" The blonde tackles me in a hug and cries into my shoulder.

"Guess who's staying here for a while?"

"And guess where we're taking you for your birthday?"

My boyfriend chimes in.

Wait... My birthday's soon? Well okay then

"Guess who's going to be sitting backstage with their best friends?"

I look to the five and they're all jumping around.

"Yay! Our first birthday as official twin sisters!!"

Santina tackles me, again, and soon enough I'm at the bottom of a dogpile consisting of like eleven people.

"First birthday as twins."

Yup! Santina and Cassaddee are twin sisters! A picture of Cassaddee and Santina are down below. Keep in mind that Santina does not dye her hair as often as Cassaddee, but Cassaddee just recently dyed her hair back to blonde

Damm the things I can find on Pinterest 😂😂