A|N I don't know how it a part of this vanished. Now at least it makes sense. Sorry for everyone who read this and got confused. With this onward with this story.

Warning this chapter mentioning of self harm.

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It was now a few years later. Everything ended up going well but one worry stayed. Percy was aging like everyone else and it pained him. Because he knew that he would never see them again. But he still was happy.

By now he was married to the male and the two couldn't be happier but there was something that he couldn't and hadn't told Percy but was planning to tell him. That he could get pregnant. At some point he entirely forgot about it.

Until 7 years later. (Hikaru 24 and Percy 26 years old)

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Today was weird for him. Not something new but really bloody weird. Not just since today but the entirety of this week had been weird. He just felt sick the entire morning. But the rest of the day he well. The only thing that was making it weirder was that he couldn't handle some scents. It made him nausea and he gagged but nothing really escaped. Percy had been away for a job interview. The male just had lost his job again because of a monster attack. Reminded him that he was searching as well for one.

But not an easy feat when you get occasionally a visit from monsters. A sigh went out as he was feeling drained. Like exhausted the past two weeks he constantly felt tired. A weird craving was felt. Tomatoes with chocolate sauce.

Not something that he would usually eat but he done it either way. Then there was this weird craving of ranch with chocolate cake. So that he had to get to the grocery shop, or he would have burst into tears. This was as well something.

He went back home and starting to eat it happily. Weirdly enough it tasted good.

"I am home honey!" A voice called and he swallowed hard. It was just that he felt like he was doing something illegal.

So that he burst into tears and he had no idea why. It wasn't even something that he should feel guilty about. But here he was right now a crying mess. Percy opened his mouth but closing it again, soon rushing over and pulling into a hug -after putting the plate away.

"Hey, its fine sweetie. There is nothing bad about eating this even when it's a bit of a weird combination." His voice jokingly and yet sweetly said.

But this made him even more emotional and well he cried even harder. Percy was freaking out and well this was how his father in law and his Dad found them. Hikaru crying his eyes out and Percy trying to calm him down.

"Uh, did we come at the wrong moment?" A concerned voice asked. His crying stopped and he started to beam.

Instantly slipping out of the hug and tackling the male into a tight hug. "Hello Dad. I am super happy to see you." His voice was chipper now. The mentioned male chuckled and hugged back for a moment but pausing.

"Yo, Dad so what brings you here?" Percy asked and the hug left soon. He gave a hug to Poseidon as well and beamed now as rushing back. His cravings still weren't finished and so he started to munch again.

"Uh, well we were just thinking about meeting." Poseidon looked at him strangely and he shrunk down feeling guilty again. That guilty and he started to burst into tears.

"I am sorry." He burst out and Percy once more trying to calm him down. Which wasn't working. The two other males let out a sigh and he felt himself into another pair of arms. They were warmer and he knew who it was. Soon he calmed out again.

"Percy can we have a talk?" Poseidon asked and he was left alone with Apollo. The male stared at him still with an odd look.

"So since when did this all start?" Apollo asked with curious tone. He started to eat again and swallowed.

"A week it really started but three weeks ago. I stared to get tired and a headache was appearing occasionally." He paused for a moment and continued talking. "I felt strangely sick in the mornings. I usually throw up but the rest of the day I feel fine. Other than when I smell meat or just perfume. I get nausea then." His voice was puzzled, and Apollo looked at him with a massive grin.

"You remember what Merlin explained to you about what a Warlock means?" His brows furrowed at the question and he looked puzzled at Apollo.

"Come on think about it. What can you do, and Percy can't?" His brows furrowed until eyes starting to wide. Both panic yet happiness starting to be felt.

"Wait was this why Hera stared at me with such a happy look?" Hikaru asked. It was just that two weeks ago he visited, and she looked at him with such a happy look, that it unnerved everyone in the room.

"It makes sense now." He nodded and feeling happy. But something told him that the two gods didn't come for just a happy talk. "Don't get me wrong I enjoy that you are here, but why did you two come down here?" His voice held suspicion and from the look that Apollo gave made him feel really anxious.

"A new prophecy appeared and sadly Zeus doesn't let himself talked out who to send." His gut tightens and he knew what this meant. Hand over his stomach.

"It's not you, but Percy I am worried about." His eyes dropped and a sigh wen out. Of course, they couldn't have always a happy ending.

"He won't survive this will he?" His voice soft and Apollo gave him a sadden look.

"We aren't sure yet, but Percy is in it and Annabeth. All I know that one of them won't survive and Zeus sadly couldn't be reasoned with." Of course not. Why was he even surprised? Another sigh escaped and he just now seen Percy walk inside. The male had a frown and now he wasn't sure that he should tell the male.

"Should I?" He whispered and Apollo gave him a glance. "Not sure, because it could distract him, but it could as well give him a stronger strength."

His gaze went over to Poseidon and he decided it was better to tell Percy then not to tell him.

"I am pregnant." He blurted out and Apollo mused at this, Percy froze, and Poseidon blinked and soon beamed now. Not even a minute later he was tackled by his husband and a deep kiss was given. When pulling away his expression soften, and he guessed why.

"I know." His voice soft and Percy frown deepen now.

"Apollo told you then. And are you sure that your pregnant?" Percy asked and he nodded as breathing out and explaining about Hera and her vague things she said.

"Well, I have a reason to get back then. I will call Will and ask him to look after you in my absence." Percy sounded still not pleased and he wasn't either. Why had it always been Percy? Why always him? Couldn't the fates have for once mercy on him and have his husband have a break?

"I don't like this." His voice soft and fragile. An arm was around him and he hugged him back tightly. It was not fair, and he hated this. Soon the hug was left, and he breathed out.

"When will you have to go?" He had to know and had to be sure that they still have time to tell his family. Because saying this alone was not an option.

"I have a day to get everything ready and then I have to go." His heart sank and he nodded at this. And they ended telling first Percy's family and by now his family as well. They were euphoric and Estelle in particular. Because she always wanted to have a baby cousin.

Then they went to his family.

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First Arthur gave him a hair ruffle and grinned brightly. Then he was pulled into a hug by Merlin. The male paused, let out a gasp and pulled away with a surprised expression.

"You have a chibiself in your gut." His voice sounded surprised yet euphoric. Percy blinked and then chuckled. Arthur snorted and he couldn't help but giggle at this.

"Well yes. Hera had said vague things and she knew that I was pregnant before I even realized it." A chirper voice was coming out but soon his expression fell.

"Hey, it will be fine." Merlin said and he could shake his head and starting to burst into tears again. Which ended to Percy freak out again, Arthur freaking out but Merlin not. The male was pulling into a hug and calming him down.

Soon they explained and the male let out a sigh. There was a pause and he could see him have reassuring eyes.

"I will join then. The risk of survival would be higher, and Zeus can't do jack shit about this." Merlin puffed his cheeks out and he was planning to argue but, in the end, he couldn't change it. Not even Arthur.

They ended up staying over and both went to the Camp. He stayed there and waiting for them to arrive. Day in and day out. But his worries stayed, and none really could help him. But Will stayed with him most of the times and making sure that he would eat.

By now two weeks went by.

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"Come on let's go for some archery practice." Will suggested and he nodded. It was better then stayed inside. He could just nod and breathing out. Both starting to walk to the archery place. Campers gave them a reassuring glance, but it wasn't helping his worries.

Two weeks and they haven't heard anything yet. It was making his eyes narrowed. Something must have happened, and he had a really bad feeling. All he could hope that they would come back healthy.

So, he was starting to pick up bow and arrow and starting to aim and shoot. For once his focus was entirely on the target disc. Each time it hit, and he got more frustrated. So that he let go of the bow and a tsk sound went out.

"I don't care about what Zeus wants but I am going out there and search for them." His voice held authority right now and anger, as well frustration heard. Right now, he was too worried sickly. His steps went over to Chiron, even after Will trying to stop him. His eye glared at the male and he heard him let out a sigh.

"Chiron, I am going. No one can stop me." His voice was tense, and it was clear that he will get out with or without Chiron's agreement.

"No, you are pregnant." Will butted in and he turned around and giving a heated glare towards his brother.

"I know! But this is my husband, my Gramps and Annabeth who is missing for Hades sake! No one can stop me, either you get your ass with me or I will go alone!" He yelled this time and it was clear that he wouldn't let himself said otherwise.

So, Will breathed out and Nico starting to run to them. His eyes held sorrow and as well pain. It was overwhelming him. There was as well someone else who let out a gasp. Grover swayed and he rushed over now. Something told him that Percy had been deathly injured or worse.

"P-Percy he..." The male looked more pained and he muttered a spell. Even with healing nothing worked. Grover stopped responding and he knew now that Percy was most likely dead. He felt too calm and it was weird. Maybe just maybe he was alive and just death injured.

"Will, get here. We need you!" He yelled and the male was rushing over but taking Nico with him. By now he helped him picked up and Nico looked still dazed. Paler than before.

"Will I will take over. You take care of Nico." He was too calm but right now there was someone who needed him more. The male opened his mouth and looking down at Grover. By now someone else picked Grover away, Chiron.

"I got you." With this he saw him rush away with a speed that could just be one of a centaur. Will looked more concerned and starting

"Hey." Will's voice soft and the male was tackling Will into a tight hug. Arms wrapped around Will soon afterward. He stood there not sure what to do. Sobs went over the male who sounded painful. Never had he heard Nico like this or seen Nico have this kind of reaction. Someone died and he wondered who had. Someone Nico had been close, and this made him realize that it must have been Percy.

His heart felt heavy, but no tears were coming. Just nothing. All that he felt was calmness and he seen Will still try to calm Nico down. It worked to some extend but his look. His look was making him now start to feel a strong pain.

"Percy he...died. Just now I..." His heart stung painfully, and he bit his lips. Because he knew that Nico could feel when someone would die. This was making him breath out but still no tears, no yelling just calmness. Still he couldn't cry. But this made him worried sickly now for both Nico, Grover and his other family.

"I guessed that much. Will Grover be alright?" His voice was calm, and concern bloomed for his friend. This person was close to him as well.

"He is alive, but I don't think that he will ever wake up." Nico sorrowful answered and this made his heart grow even more heavy.

"I see." It was all that he could muster. His hand went over his stomach subconsciously and even more sorrow was felt. The only good thing was that he had still something that would bring him joy. But would he managed to do this alone? It would be harsh, and he couldn't help but feel unsure now.

Soon two people appeared. They looked roughed up and Merlin looked the most roughed up.

Their eyes met, and he knew that something had happened. His steps rushed over, and he muttered a healing spell. Both starting to get healed but he started to feel exhausted.

"I am sorry Hikaru..." His voice was soft, and this was all that was needed to know. He sat there and being silent, no crying, no yelling nothing.

"You did everything you could do." His voice was reassuring, and he wondered why he was not crying. Why he couldn't yell or be mad. Anything but nothing. Just calmness. He walked away and going to Poseidon's Cabin. His steps continued until he was at the pear and sitting there, gazing at the water.

//Percy I really wished that you would have at least seen our child...// It was something that he knew that would never be possible. So, he gazed out and hoped that at least Percy would get a chance for happiness.

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By now he grieved, and a baby son was born, Bentley. The boy had his ginger hair, but the sea green eyes were from Percy. His skin was more on Percy and the freckles came from him. The boy was like Percy. Yet the kindness and the want to protect and help others was coming from him.

Another thing was that it seemed that he had ended up getting the godly part of Percy. Another part was that he had magic as well. So that he let things float before he even could walk. All in all, it had been stressful the past few years. And he missed his husband.

What got told was that the male choose reincarnation, and this meant that it would be possible that he would meet him again. But the chance was grim.

Sally took it not well but didn't fault him or Annabeth. But she mourned for her son and promised to help him out with their child. It brought them even closer.

Will and Nico ended up as Uncles and they promised as well to help out, because without their help he was sure that he could not do this. Everyone else of Percy's friend helped and he was grateful for their help.

2 Months after the death of Percy

Hikaru stared blankly outside. Two months. Two months since the death of Percy and he still couldn't really believe it too much. It was just hard and to make this worse was that Grover was in a coma. Why had it been these two? Why was fate that cruel?

Throat tightens as he touched the bum. By now there was a small bump and he was living at the Camp. Not his decision but Chiron's and everyone else. They want to protect him, and it made sense. Monsters could attack him at their home, but it wasn't making it easier.

Everything in reminded him of his husband and it pained him. Annabeth was constantly apologizing. Feeling guilty for what happened to his husband and it pained him even more. Because they did everything they could do.

Then there was Merlin who was the same way. But enough was enough. So that he gave both a heated glare. Maybe it was his hormones or maybe it was just that he had enough of people feeling guilty, but either way he was so done with this.

"Can you two stops apologize already?! Two months and you two are still doing this! I get it that your guilty, but I told you that it wasn't your fault! Just stop it because I am done with you two apologizing each damn time!" His voice loud and frustration heard. Hands up in a 'I am done,' as he muttered a spell.

It was a teleportation spell and ending up at Apollo's room. This time on the massive goldish yet sun colored couch. His breath slowly calmed down and he rolled himself together. Right now, he wasn't wanting to deal with anyone other than maybe the gods. Because they have apologized once, and all was well. Or as well as it was.

The only god which he was still salty about was Zeus. The male pretty much had sent both his friend and husband in their doom. Even with Merlin his husband died.

"Let me guess they apologized again?" His gaze went over to his father who was now walking up to him. Plopping himself down and seeing him then shrunk into human seize.

"Yes, and I am done with them apologizing. These two are not at fault and they have after all done their very best." His voice held frustration.

He got it. He really does but it wasn't making it easier for him. By now hid Dad had an arm around his shoulder and he leaned into the touch. It was exhausting and he had fallen asleep on the male. It was always like this. Whenever it got too much, since the death of Percy he ended up here.

But what none really knew was that everything would be too much.

Two months after the birth of Bentley

Gods was he exhausted. Bentley constantly was crying in the night and stuff floats around. His son was well looking both like him and like his father. The boy had his ginger hair, but the sea green eyes were from Percy. His skin was more on the father's side and the freckles came from him.

It was not easy, and it was too much. Maybe this was why he decided to self-harm himself. Don't get him wrong, he loved Bentley, but it was just too much. How the boy had the smile of Percy. It reminded him too much.

Yes, it sounds messed up, but he couldn't anymore. Which was not a good thing and he knowing this but he couldn't and wasn't wanting to tell anyone. So, he continued on like always.

No one seemed to realize how much he was slowly dying more on the inside. Other than Nico, who seemed to get suspicious. Maybe Will as well but none really said anything. His Dad was busy and so he hadn't seen him after the birth of Bentley, and he was as well busy too.

The same was said with Poseidon. Both were really euphoric but as a good they had responsibilities. It was something that he knew. Even with the help of others, it wasn't getting better. He tried to stay positive but couldn't

A year after Bentley's birth.

It went well or almost. By now the toddler was blabbering and could walk. It had been stressful and now he was even more stressed out. The boy felt like Percy. And he meant it with this. He swears he could smell sea. Not that it was new, but he feared that he got the powers from his father.

The chances are there. Who was he kidding? He could feel when someone was a demigod. It was just that he knew since the first time holding him that the boy would have Percy's power. From the scent of sea to the fact that he felt like a demigod. Which caused more stress.

Bentley seemed to notice this and was trying to make silly faces. It was just something that he realized. As soon as just a moment his mask fell, a silly face, blabbering and a bright smile was given.

"Mommy." He heard a child's voice try to say something. His gaze went down and giving the boy a small smile.

"Mommy is pain." His eyes widen at this and he could hear the sorrow from the child. How does he know? The boy is just one year old?

"Mommy don't pain." The boy by now had some words and his first word was Mommy. It was making him feel happy, but he couldn't help but feel as well pained. Because Percy would never see their child grow up.

"Mommy is alright." His voice was strained, and he knows that he lies but the child pouted and glomps him into a hug.

"Nuh, Mommy is pain." The boy sniffed and soon broke down in tears. A sigh was all he could give and wondering how the child knew this. So, he picked him up and rocked him softly up and down.

"I can know Mommy is pain." He heard the child say this and his heart sank. Throat felt dry and he was almost breaking down. But wasn't because as an only parent he needed to be strong.

"Your Mommy will be alright, my seahorsie." He butterflies kissed the boy and heard soon giggles slipping out of the boy.

A month afterward...

Nico narrowed his eyes and he looked everywhere else. Well Bentley had been with Merlin and he was just stressed out. Way too stressed out ending up with self-harm. To his luck, Nico walked in on him. His gaze was now piercing through him.

"So why did you do it?" His voice stern yet soft.

All he could do was letting out a sigh and starting to play with his sleeves. "I just miss him and seeing Bentley be like hi-him I-I couldn't handle it." His gaze down and he starting to feel the tears roll down now. A sigh was coming from the person in front of him. Then a pair of arms pulling him into his arms.

"I know, but you should have told anyone that it got too much." He cried even harder. This was not fair. To make this entire thing worse, Percy's soul was reincarnated before he could even say goodbye.

"Next time talk to me, please." A pleading tone was what Nico had and he nodded. It was since then that their bond grew. And let's just say that Will yelled at him and scolding him soon for what had happened. Not even once had he done it afterward. But the pain stayed, and none knew how to make it better.