Dear Michael,

I need help.

I don't feel like I really fit in with anyone anymore. At first I thought that I did because I have so many friends, a couple of close ones aswell, and then it all just broke. Now they feel farther away no matter how close we are.

It's like I'm caught up trying to be more like them than myself, even though I'm not trying to be.

I have two sets of friends I guess you can say, the 'emo's and the 'popular' kids. I listen to the music to fit in with both, I act a certain way to fit in with both, but the way I dress (which is obviously everything in school) is somewhere caught between so neither crowds want to be seen around me.

My 'emo' friends make fun of me listening to 5 Seconds of Summer and Halsey and One Direction but my 'popular' friends talk trash about Bring Me The Horizon and Green Day and Sleeping With Sirens. It hurts, though I know it shouldn't, and I can't tell which group to be with, or if I should drop them all together.

I feel like they make me someone I'm not but I'm scared to be alone again. I was alone for so long and now that I actually have friends, I don't want to let go no matter how much they're messing with me.

I know it's wrong to want to fit in, I should be myself, but it's hard. My friends make me feel like someone I'm not, like I'm playing a part in a movie around them. I'm not exactly confused, I just feel too influenced by them. I know that who I am around them isn't me, but I can't find it in me to drop them and figure myself out.

What should I do Mikey?

Lots of love,
Aleigha x