You groaned as you tried to read the notes over and over again, trying to understand what you read but your brain doesn't feel like working at all and eventually you slumped and buried you face in both hands and sighs. You phone alarmed to inform about your once every two weeks date with Taehyung.

You live in a dorm pretty close to their dorm. But with their work schedule and your studies, you meet less and less so he eventually placed a rule that the two of you meet every 2 weeks and you agreed.

You miss him. So much. With their practices and recordings, you haven't seen each other since your last date with him. But with the exams next week and tons of projects and quizzes to be done this week, you felt more burdened to meet with anyone. Which made you feel so guilty for thinking that you don't want to meet with him.
You sighed once again and placed you things neatly at one corner of the table and stood up to take a shower, prepare and go out.

*

"Aka-chan!" He waved excitedly, calling out his endearment for you. And you smiled as you watch him jump and smile widely. His smile took all of your worries and replaced it with giddiness and feelings to which you normally didn't experience with anything, or anyone for that matter. "I missed you so much, I felt like dying!"

He pouted. "Did you missed me?" He asked.
It was one of the things you envy about him, he not shy to express his feelings. He could blurt out every cringy thing when he wants to. While you could barely reply, "I miss you too." Without burning.

"Aww my aka-chan is shy. Where do you wanna go?" He asked. You just answered anywhere so he just nodded and you both went to the nearest park while buying takeout chicken and beer.

The both of you talked, or rather, he talked while you listened and goes over class lessons and things needed to be done. He notices you spacing out.

"Are you alright?" He asked, moving closer to you. You looked at him with slight surprise from the closeness. "Yes, don't worry." You assured him but he was still skeptical since you looked tired and worn out from everything, which is probably true.

You feel like shit and you're head felt like breaking from lack of sleep.

"Really?" He asked once again and you feel yourself getting more and more irritated.
"Yes Tae. I told you I'm fine! Can't you understand? " You answered, voice raising. He looked shocked and hurt by by your cold words and your eyes widened as you become swallowed up by regret, disappointed and anger towards yourself. He just forced a smile and continued eating silently.

After eating, he stood up and held your hand. "Come on, it's getting late. I'll take you home." He said and you looked at your watch to see that it was just 7:00 pm. You regretted your actions once again, he was probably looking forward to it more than you do, and you hurt him. Why can you control your temper?

"Hey, let's go." He tugged your hand once again so you nodded and also stood up.

Even thought you're both close and also holding hands, you felt far from him. His once easily read expressions became neutral, almost like he's angry, but you know it just happens all the time when he's not smiling. You looked down on the ground, trying not to cry.

When you both reached your dorm, you looked at him as he cupped your face, kissed your forehead, and smiled sincerely. "Whatever happens, I love you. I want to help you if you want and I understand if you don't want to tell me. I'm taking the beers with me because you have to sleep well tonight okay? aigoo, my aka-chan looks so tired. It makes me sad." He said as he looks at you fondly the whole time. You were suddenly washed over with intense longing and sadness and regret that you bursted out in tears.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry for taking it out on you. I love you, I'm really sorry." You repeated over and over again as he pulled you closer and patted you hair and kissing your temple. When you calmed down. He pulled you inside the dorm and sat you down as you told him all your problems and worries and everything. When you finished, you saw him still looking at you with fondness that you automatically blushed and played with his fingers.

"I'm sorry for burdening you with my story. You probably are more stressed than me and I'm already having a breakdown." You murmured. He suddenly hugged you, pushing you both to lay down in the couch, with him on top.

"Y-yah, Tae! I can't breath!" You groaned against his chest but he didn't hear you.

"What are you saying? My problems cannot be compared to seeing you cry so I want it when you always tell me everything okay?" Then he suddenly sat up. "Come on, I'll help you study!" You looked at him skeptically. And he frowned.
"You think I can't help you? Ha! Unbelievable. You'll thank me soon, you'll see." He said, offended and you laughed, making him smile at you.

As it turns out, he really helped you. He helped by asking questions and listening as you explained everything one by one to him, thus making you understand it also. As well as the fact that you both made up, and now being on a study date, made your head clearer.

At 11 o clock, he saw you yawn, so he also sighed and blinked at you. "Come on, lets sleep aka-chan." He said. And you're about to suggest that he sleeps first but he cutted you off by saying, "No buts, lets go." And for the nth time, he stood up and pulled you to the bedroom. He was doing something in his phone for a few minutes before placing it next to the bed and jumped under the covers, bringing you with him. The moment the blanket covers you, he immediately wrapped his arms around your waist and he kissed your nose while mumbling.

"Goodnight aka-chan. Love you."

"Goodnight. Love you too." You saw him smile before you closed your eyes and drifted off to sleep.