gotta remind you that it's not roasting chapter yet, we gotta go through serious chapters too before daein gets annihilated

it's an adventure ;) and even if I know that filler chapters are lifeless asf, I have to keep the story flowing

forgive me if my wonwooness is showing sometimes, i'm 50% wonwooist and 50% roast wizard. can't help it

sincerely joking,
jiwooooo (It's like, wooji lmao)
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Joshua fell asleep once more and Wonwoo volunteered to watch over him, since he has nothing to do but daydream about mingyu and then read books.

and eat cheejiburgers

"Are you sure it's okay with you?" I asked him one more time before leaving the room

"I'm fine," he responded. Before I was able to completely step out of the room, he spoke to me

"Hey,"

"yeah?" I shifted my gaze at the boy next to Soonyoung's bed.

"Can I tell you something?"

"Sure, Wonwoo"

"I'm scared," he stared straight at me, not wanting to look away "I'm scared for Joshua hyung,"

"Why?"

"Because people leave, you know? They change like ocean currents, they leave you with bruises in your calves,"

I am starting to question my grades in english literature class because of this boy

"I'm pretty sure that Joshua isn't like those peeps you're talking about," I replied "He'll be back soon,"

Joshua started to whimper while he was asleep, making Wonwoo and I check up on him. Poor boy, he's having bad dreams.

Wonwoo woke him up. The boy opened his eyes, catching his breath as if he just ran a hundred miles. Waterfalls fell down from his sparkling eyes as he started double breathing.

"Joshua, it's just a dream," I sighed

The boy slowly looked at me and spoke,

"I lost seventeen,"

"No. No, hyung. You didn't," Wonwoo replied "We're still here. Dreams only last for a short time. It's not real,"

"Seventeen won't leave you," I told the boy "Wonwoo, go get him a glass of water please,"

The boy nodded and walked out of the bedroom, leaving me to stay with Joshua. He reached for my hand and held it tight, basking in the warmth.

"Are you scared of me?" he asked.

The first shiver of cold certainty rippled across my skin once he spoke. Like the cold perfumed breeze wrapped around me, as my mind flashes all the horror i've been through when I last saw him.

he, who slit my relationship with my own mother, yet still I carried the pain.

how will I be able to forgive him?

"Minseul, answer me,"

for long moments, I chose to be tight lipped, buttoning up the air between us. his voice sounds like beauty itself yet it begs to be forgiven

is it possible to tell him that I don't mind going through all the pain as long as it'll make him stop worrying about what I truly feel for him?

whenever I go through the happenings that unfold in my mind; remembering that there was something sinister in his laughter when he chased me down the halls of the school at night, it makes me feel my heart inside my mouth. scared stiff, scared witless.

"No, i'm not scared,"

I watched his eyes lit up with joy. He looked different somehow, but I was sure that he was filled with delight.

Wonwoo came back with a glass of water, handing it to the older boy. I wonder why it took him so long to get back, or maybe it's just me, who feels like it was a long time.

Joshua gulped it down until the last drop left and I watched him as he did.

Wonwoo placed the glass on top of the dresser, before plunking back down on his seat, wanting to rest.

"Hey guys we got food!" Boo announced "Soonyoung hyung's treat!"

Wonwoo assisted Joshua off the bed. I wasn't in the mood to eat anything once the flash of memories came crashing into my mind. It felt like it took all my energy away.

"Nah i'm okay, you guys can eat," I shrugged

"SOONYOUNG HYUNG, MINSEUL DOESN'T WANT TO EAT!"

istg.

Hoshi came running inside the room with a first aid kit. It looked ridiculous. The boy cupped my face and checked up on me

"Is something wrong with you!?"

what the hell is happening?

"Hoshi, i'm fine. Nothing's wrong," I faked a smile at him, who looked convinced

"But why don't you want to eat?" he whined

"Not in the mood,"

"What can I do to make you eat?"

"Please just go out there and start feasting up on the food, the boys are waiting for you,"

"Jagi," The boy frowned "You look sad,"

"I believe that you're the one who's sad, because you're frowning like that,"

"Can you tell me the reason why you're like this?" He held my hands "I want you to stay open to me, to keep this relationship goi-"

"Soonyoung," I chuckled "What the hell are you talking about? I only don't want to eat, that's it, Hosh,"

"I'm thinking of being an actor, jagi!" he jumped "Am I up for it!?"

"Sadly, you need more practice," I pinched his nose "You have to maintain high quality skills to impress me because I have high standards,"

"But I do meet your standards, don't I?"

"Seriously?"

"Seriously!"

"Well yes, you do meet my standards,"

"Yiiiiieeeeeee yeobo you're making me blush!" he covered his face

"Soonyoung, that's so gay. Please stop," I laughed at his actions

"When will you marry me?"

"Shut up, I want freedom,"

"I define freedom!" he boasted and spread his arms wide, making me crack up still.

"HYUUUUUNG I'M HUNGRY!" Seungkwan shouted from the dining room. Hoshi caught my hand and he excitedly dragged me out the room.

Joshua was glaring at Soonyoung and I's linked hands. It was giving me an uncomfortable feeling to know that i'm being watched by someone

I wish I could say that....
it's just Jisoo, isn't it? what's there to be scared about?

but no, he's still not back to his old self, although I can see how hard he is trying to find his way back, the road is quite tangled. And it'll take time for him to find himself.

"Since you don't want to touch the meal in front of you, i'll just feed you," Soonyoung happily told me

"Do you really have to flirt with her in front of Jihoon?" Boo flashed a smirk, making Woozi react

"Hey shut up!"

"Guys, manners," Joshua muttered, causing the boys to fall silent.

"Are you becoming holy again!?" Seungkwan gasped "Guys we're close to getting him back! hallelujah!"

"Seungkwan do you really have to act like that in front of Hansol?" Woozi spat back at Boo

the younger one closed his mouth and remained mute.

Joshua silently prayed first before proceeding to eat his own meal. I was quite surprised when the boys started to recite something before eating.

"we love our bread we love our butter, but most of all we love each other,"

"Is that.....from Madeline? the cartoon?" I asked

Everyone was still hushed as they munched their food.

nice talking, boys. lmao

As for Soonyoung, he did feed me, treating me like a kid

"Say aaaah!"

"Hoshi hyung she's not a child," Wonwoo muttered "Stop treating her like one. She can handle herself,"

go, wonu!!!

Hoshi let out a sigh, "Not all boyfriends do this,"

"What's your point? and heol, you're not even together yet," Seungkwan responded

"You see this?" Hoshi pointed at his sweater "You know what this is made of?"

"What? Cotton?" Jihoon asked

"Boyfriend material," Soonyoung bragged "Take that!"

"You know what my sweater is made of?" Boo asked

"What?"

"Cashmere," he smirked, feeling a bit proud

"What the hell is cashmere?" Jihoon questioned

"A type of wool. For your information, cashmere is the epitome of luxury. Extremely soft, lightweight, warm and delicate!" the diva bragged "You guys don't know anything about dressing up, do you?"

"We dress up well, we're not just as picky as you," Hansol kept eating "My mother's mother's husband's daughter knitted my sweaters for me so they're one hundred percent made of love,"

"Mother's mother's husband's daughter? you should've just said it was your mom," Wonwoo told him

"Exactly," Vernon chuckled

how cute, hansol

"I don't care about fabric," Jihoon simply replied "I don't even think I know anything about it," he ended up chuckling

"Same, Jihoon, same," I muttered and we did a high five

"But striped sweaters are pretty," Jihoon continued "The best time to wear a striped sweater, is all the time. One with a collar, turtleneck~ that's the kind~~~" he sang

"You're not supposed to sing while you eat" Joshua told the boy

"Sorry, hyung"

"I don't care about how expensive or high class your clothes are. As long as I have clothes to wear, to keep me warm, to make me feel protected, I can totally live with that," Wonu told us.

"As expected from the wise emowoo and his wonwooness," Jihoon continued to eat

"All hail wonwoo," the boys said in chorus, except for Joshua

"What about you, hyung? Do you have any interest in sweaters and other clothes?" Hansol seemed interested to know his hyung's answer

"Anything simple would do," Jisoo replied. Hansol's reaction was like 'that's it?'

"I told you, simplicity is beauty," Wonwoo spoke

"Guys just finish your meals before you start talking," Jisoo muttered

"Yes hyung," they said in chorus.

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another chapter before the roasting, I think? but it's near so don't worry

sorry for the wonwooness again. that's actually how I write, but....eh?

kbyeilu

-j