I am so gonna roast some people in my class. I'm so damn done dealing with all the btchiness they got all over their poor souls.

i'm going to start hitting people with grand pianos soon before kicking them back to their mothers' womb.

this doesn't make my condition any better.
it's like, 3am and my head is burning and aching at the same time.

fck it.

-jiro
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[Saturday]

I visited Chan the next day, since it was a Saturday. I figured out that I have to check up on him since he's all alone

"Chan?" I knocked on his pretty mahogany door and waited for it to open. I spent five minutes standing outside before knocking a little louder

"Lee Chan, it's Minseul!"

I laid my eyes on the shiny handleset as my hand met it, slowly opening the door. To my surprise, it was left unlocked

"Geez why doesn't he lock his own house?" I thought to myself "He might get robbed because of this," I stepped inside and placed my shoes near the door as it made a faint squeaky sound before completely closing

"Dino?" I called out. The house looked dead. The frames on the wall were a bit dusty. Dishes were stacked up in the kitchen, waiting to be washed. The books placed on the shelf at the right side of the television looked like they haven't been touched for a million years.

I explored the boy's home, and he doesn't seem to be on the first floor. I made my way to the stairs, sliding my hand on the taupe colored railings complementing the fair bianca stairs itself.

Dino's house is pretty

My feet started to run its way to the boy's room, taking me, as soon as I heard the loud sound of glass being shattered to pieces, and then long shuddering sobs were heard, cries, and deep sighs.

"Dino! Dino!" I shrieked as I hastened. I stopped once I saw him curled up at the corner of his room, bawling his eyes out.

I didn't hesitate to run my way to the poor boy, throwing my arms around him as he cried out loud.

"WHAT DID I DO WRONG!?!?"'he screamed. I tried to make him stop but he was pushing me away "WHY DO I GET ALL THE HATE!? HAHAHAHAHA" he ridiculously laughed like a maniac as tears fell from his eyes

this is getting worse. I think he needs to start taking medicines or something. i'm getting scared

"sshhhh i'm here," I tightened the hug, thinking that it would make him feel secured and safe even for a moment. There were a few cuts on his wrist and I couldn't even look at them.

I shifted my gaze to the broken mirror facing his bed. It was broken into pieces, scattered on the ground along with Dino's smashed phone

"What happened to you?" I cupped his face with my hands

"I don't know!" he laughed and broke down

"Minseul they just won't stop!" he cried "They send me death threats and it just kept coming!"

I tried to wipe his tears away with my thumb before hugging him again

"They won't come for you. If they do, your hyungs will probably beat them all up,"

"But I'm scared!!"

"What's with you that the hate so much about?" i asked

"I don't know why they never wanted me as a classmate. I miss my previous school, I want to go back, I want to leave,"

"I may be selfish for saying this but if you leave, it would greatly affect me. Not just me, the boys too," I cupped his face once more "If you leave, you'll make us miss you so much we'd kill ourselves just to feel your presence again,"

"But I don't want to live like this!" he shouted "I don't want to, Minseul!"

"You have to be strong. Get rest and receive enough energy from the people that makes you feel alive," I told him "Hurting yourself means hurting us too,"

"Why do you always do this?" he laughed and cried at the same time

"Do what?"

"You always make my heart flutter, Minseul. You make me feel like I'm loved, like I'm never alone. The thought of you alone makes me happy already," he struggled to say "I'm scared that you'll leave one day,"

oh my, why?

"Please don't do this anymore. You can't bottle up your feelings by yourself. You should learn to let it out sometimes,"

the boy started double breathing as he wiped his tears away.

"Come on, I'll help you up," I served as a support for him to be able to stand up

I carefully help him lay down his bed. His eyes were red and puffy and it feels like i'm never going to get used to seeing them like that.

I grabbed a chair and sat down beside his bed. His visible wounds caused me to fix my eyes on his arm

"Don't do this again, okay?" I uttered

"Why?"

"Your wrist is not a canvas," I sighed

"Okay Minseul," he whimpered and stared blankly at the ceiling. A few minutes passed before he was able to fall asleep.

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[Sunday]

Hoshi wanted me to go out with him since it's a sunday, and the weather is nice.

I wanted to, but I had to reject the offer since I had to visit Dino, to give him some of my notes and reviewers so he'd be able to take his exams well.

Chan started smiling again, it makes me feel a bit relieved and happy that I managed to help him find his way out of being an emotional wreck.

Sunday ended and of course it'll be a long day tomorrow. I sure hope Dino would be able to focus on his examinations. I also prepared myself to report his classmates about the multiple death threats they keep sending. I can't just keep going to school without taking action. I have to solve at least one problem seventeen has.

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[Monday]

I was surprised to see Soonyoung when I opened my front door. I figured out that he was waiting for me the whole time so we could go to school together.

"Good morning yeobo!" he was smiling as he greeted once I swung the door open, making me close it again

"YEOBO! OPEN UUUP!" he kept knocking the door. I waited for him to stop but it seems like he won't give up so I opened it again.

As soon as I did, he was able to knock that he ended up hitting my face instead of the door

"OUCH!" I shouted and stepped back. It was like he punched me already. The boy hurriedly apologized, dropping the flowers he was holding to run towards me.

"I'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm so dumb i'm so dumb i'm so dumb i'm so dumb!" he whined "I didn't mean to hurt my yeobo like that,"

"I'm not even your girlfriend and yet you're calling me wife already," I hissed and pushed him away "Thanks for ruining my morning, I appreciate it,"

"What can I do for you to forgive me?"

"Stop existing,"

"Noooooo," he trapped me into a hug and squeezed me to death

"Soonyoung stop!" I shouted. Good thing he did. He looked at me, grinning

"What do you want now?" I asked

"You,"

"Damn it, please kill yourself," I pushed him away and made my way out the house, making him frown. He walked out as well, picking up the flowers he dropped, giving them to me

"What are those?" I coldly asked

"Red tulips," he smiled sweetly "I only got three, but that's enough to tell you that I love you!"

"Cheesy, Soonyoung,"

"I'm serious!" he pouted "It doesn't matter if it's not as big and as pretty as a bouquet. It's the meaning that counts. Didn't you know that red tulips mean declaration of love?"

I stopped for a moment and stared straight at him. For some reason, looking at Soonyoung gives me a feeling that I never want to forget. It's something that I want to feel over and over again and still not get used to.

it's refreshing, the way I never get used to seeing the way his eyes change colour depending on light. It's still fascinating as ever and I'll never get tired of it.

Daein probably likes him because of his cute looks, plus his talents. But I like him for his charming personality

"I've always wanted to give you flowers but I couldn't find the right kind to give," he shrugged "But even if it doesn't look as sweet as what other boys do, please accept it,"

Soonyoung doesn't know that i'm quite allergic to flowers. But since he seems sincere about it, I'll take care of them

"They're pretty. Sorry for being so cold at a time like this. But thank you for making me feel warm," I smiled

Soonyoung, I hope I'd be able to tell you someday

that I value you so much that I think your impact on my life is massive

that I appreciate the uplifting feeling I have after we talk and the sound of your laughter,

which, now that I think about it, is still the most soothing sound I know.

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phew

kbyeilu

-cheero