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"SHUT UP PLEASE!"

"NO, YOU SHUT UP!"

"YOU CALL YOURSELF A LEADER AND YOU'RE NOT EVEN DOING ANYTHING!"

"YOU ACT LIKE YOU'RE DOING REAL GOOD HUH!?"

"IF IT WASN'T FOR ME, WE WOULDN'T HAVE SOMETHING TO SING!"

"LIKE I CARE ABOUT YOUR STUPID SONG!"

"EXCUSE ME? DID YOU JUST CALL THAT THING STUPID!?"

I hurriedly covered my ears and tried to run away. I don't understand why Seungcheol and Jihoon are shouting at each other. But I'm one hundred percent sure that I don't want to hear about it.

I found them inside the empty gymnasium. All of them are there. All thirteen of them. Maybe they're helping each other to win over Up10tion.

I stopped running and I sat down under a huge tree, trying to catch my breath. I haven't heard them fight like that before, and I know that I don't want to hear more of that.

"Maybe they're just a little pressured," I thought to myself.

I grabbed my phone and tried to call Soonyoung.

"Hey Minseul, what's up?"

He's in there with them too, but I couldn't hear any arguments anymore. I'm quite relieved that they stopped

"Is everything alright? why aren't you answering?" he asked.

Is there something happening that they're not letting me know?

"Minseul?"

I couldn't help but think about it. Like, I can't get it off of my head.

"Minseul??"

Maybe something's wrong. And they're not telling me....because It's about the competition? How are they supposed to win over Up10tion if they keep arguing like that?

"Are you still there?"

it makes me curious. plus, the fact that joshua dislikes hoshi might add up to that "problem" they are trying to deal with. Is this my fault?

"Minseul!!"

I was taken aback, making me come to my senses.

"Minseul, are you listening?"

"Huh?" I responded, "Ah, yeah umm I just want to say hi," I told him

"Hi?"

"Yeah," I looked around. I heard him take a deep breath

"Okay,"

"And uhh, good luck!" I cheered, "Take care of the sofa, by the way,"

"Are you sure you called me for that?"

"Yeah, why?" I asked, feeling a bit nervous

"Ah, I was just wondering," he spoke.

"Soonyoung ah..."

"hmm?"

I bit my lip as I looked around. I'm getting really curious of their performance. Maybe I should go check it out

"Where are you?" I asked. There was complete silence on the other line. I was getting impatient while I waited for him to talk

"In your heart!" he cheered

"I'm serious,"

complete silence covered the line again.

"We're in Dino's house," he answered

"And you are with who?"

"My members, of course!" he confidently replied

"Okay. Take care," I muttered. He said the same thing and I ended the call.

he lied to me. he lied.

why the hell are they all lying? they can just go ahead and tell me straight that they don't want me to start butting in instead of keeping it a secret!

I felt so damn mad. What is there to lie about? they probably do know that i'm very sensitive.

that's it, i'm going to spy on them, now that I know their secret meeting place. I can't stand all the curiosity anymore. I have to make a move!

while walking my way to the gym, someone grabbed my arm, dragging me to the opposite direction

"Wooshin, let go!" I tried to escape

"But I have to show you something cool!" he smiled at me.

"Well, next time don't just drag me like that! it's so sudden, you're going to make me have heart attacks,"

he took me to Up10tion's practice room. yes, the group has their own room, since they're new and they received lot of love already. Up10tion is something that almost every student in the campus loves to death.

the boys greeted me when Wooshin pulled me inside the room. and of course, I greeted back with a bow

they were practicing their choreography altogether.

with uh...nametags. wtf

how I wish hoshi is doing well with his own choreo

"You just sit down there," Wooshin took me to the area where there is a chair. I sat, facing the boys. they were all in white

"Wait, why are you guys showing me this?" I asked

"because you're special!" Xiao winked, And we want your undivided attention!"

"But, shouldn't it be a surprise?" I asked

"We want you to be the first one to see!" Gyujin replied

with that, the music started to play, they all sat, leaving Bitto standing up

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[A/N: lowkey promoting xD if you don't know Up10tion, you're missing a lot of good things in life]

My eyes were glued to their sharp movements, especially the footwork! It looks like their legs will break, i'm worried!

But they have nicer legs than girls, to be honest.

I was cheering for them the whole time! the notes are no jooooke! and that jinhoo x kogyeol moment tho ;) ;) ;)

every move is sharp asf and very well done! I know Wei's rap is supposed to be badass but idk why it looks so cute and funny xD

one thing that makes me sad, is that they remind me so much of the boys. like, I don't even see them as Up10tion because I keep remembering the dorks i've been with.

I was feeling lonely, watching Up10tion.

but I do feel like they're going to win. they impressed me a lot! don't get me wrong, I do want them to win. I really do, but I don't want the three other groups to lose.

I also told Soonyoung that they'll have my attention. But this group is also awesome!

I feel so torn.

and sorry.

Xiao ran to me after their performance

"Are we good!?" he excitedly asked. ugh man I remember Chan.

"Way better than good!" I grinned at him

"You're going to cheer for us, right?" Their leader smiled, expecting "yes" for an answer

oh no oh no

"Uhh...umm..y-yeah of c-course!" I stuttered. I hate myself for saying that.

"If we win, we'll treat you out for lunch!" Kogyeol told me, "Just the eleven of us!"

"Why me? Really?"

"Because we're all friends here! And you're special,"

"Yay!" I cheered. I remember that time when Seungkwan promised that he'll also treat me to lunch when they win

I feel so horrible.

"So, one more?" Wooshin asked

"Another oooone!" I shouted "Up10tion, fighting!"

they happily walked to their positions and started to perform again. I kept clapping and smiling at them

even though deep inside, I worry about the three units.

Up10tion will definitely win. I just have to accept it. Even if it hurts

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I didn't even bother spying on the boys. it'll only make me feel bad about myself. I took the bus home and I sat there, looking out the window.

it's been a long day. whenever I take the bus home, I always remember Joshua and Hoshi.

And I really have to talk to Joshua this time. I need to clear things out. I don't want him feeling the same way for me when i'm not even sure about my own feelings.

and he still doesn't know that kwon freaking soonyoung stole my first kiss, which sucks because I have to keep it a secret for the rest of my life.

I opened the lights and slammed the door shut as soon as I reached home. I threw my bag on the couch. The living room doesn't look cool because the other couch is missing, but whatever.

I lazily walked like a lurker towards my bedroom. I turned the knob and the door flew open

"SEUNGKWAN!?" I shouted. the moment I turned the lights on, I saw the boy lying on my bed, eating a burger, "What are you doing here!?"

he calmy sat up to finish the burger he was eating. while he did, we were having a staring contest. plus, awkward silence

he finished the food and cleared his throat

"MINSEUUUUL!" he shouted and ran

"SEUNGKWAAAAAN!" I shouted back and ran as well. He hugged me so tight and he kept jumping

"MINSEUL!"

"SEUNGKWAN!!"

"I MISSED YOU!"

"I MISSED YOU TOO!" I hugged him tighter

"I'M SORRY!" he yelled, "I'M SORRY, TOO!"

"I REALLY MISSED YOU!"

"I REALLY MISSED YOU TOO!"

"STOP REPEATING EVERYTHING I SAY!"

"STOP REPEATING EVERYTHING YOU SAY? GOT IT!" I pulled away from the hug and I saw him teary eyed. I took my handkerchief to wipe his tears off

"Boo, don't cry!"

"I'm sorry, I just feel like I haven't talked to you for years!" he whined, "Miiiinseuuul, you grew up so fast!"

"I didn't mean to hurt you when I compared you to Up10tion!" I explained, "I was just carried away by my emotions!" I started to tear up too

#drama

"We're not going to win!" he cried

"Don't say that!" I told him, "Whatever you guys will do, I will always cheer for all of you, please remember that,".

after 24883 years of the drama session I had with Seungkwan, we talked about a lot of stuff while having dinner at the living room, watching television.

"I sure hope we'll be able to perform well tomorrow," he sighed

"hey boo," I called

"Yeah?" he asked while his eyes were glued to the television. I drank water first before looking back at him.

"You were with the other twelve inside the gym earlier," I started, "what's up with that? why didn't you guys tell me?"

he choked on the food and handed him the glass of water. when he was done, he spoke

"Who told you?"

"No one, I just saw it myself,"

"We're just talking things out,"

"But I heard an argument," I told him

"Our leader was just helping the others. We have to make sure one of us beats Up10tion, you know?" he replied

"......I see," I muttered, "I wasn't expecting you to help each other,"

"We all want to work hard and win," he sighed, "But winning isn't that important to me," he shrugged

"Why?"

"I just want to perform, and leave a good impression. It doesn't really matter, as long a we're having fun," he smiled

he's right, it's just a friendly competition after all. it doesn't matter who'll win.

"How's your relationship with the saint?" he asked. I was frozen for a bit.

"What relationship?" I chuckled

"I told you to date him, right?" he said, "Did you already forget? I still ship you with him,"

"Oh by the way, Jihoon's hair isn't pink anymore!" I squealed

"Hey lady, don't change the subject!"

"Fine," I shrugged, "We're not in a relationship,"

"But the two of you are perfect for each other, don't you know?" he replied

"uuuuh i'm not sure," I answered

"Don't tell me you've been hanging out with the sushi boy,"

my eyes widened

"Nah, it's not like I like Soonyoung anyway,"

"Ooh you call him Soonyoung," he grinned at me. Look, I know that Seungkwan is the coolest diva friend I've got but I think I can't tell him about Hoshi!

"What if I tell you that I like someone else?" I asked

"Do you?"

"I'm just asking,"

"My reaction will depend on your answer," he shrugged, "are you hiding something from me?"

"Me? Hiding something from you?" I chuckled, "Nah,"

"You're not a good liar," he crossed his arms, "i'll tell you one secret in exchange for telling me that secret,"

"Huh? it's nothing!"

"I don't think so," he gave me a glare

"I'm not hiding anything, I swear!"

"Just spit it out!" he grabbed the fork and pointed it at me

"OKAY OKAY CHILL!" I shouted, this is torture. damn it, "but do I really have to?"

"Secrets are safe with me," he nodded

"But I'm not supposed to tell you this," I whined, "Please keep this secret safe,"

"Sure I will!"

"But what if you don't!?"

"Slap me in front of a lot of students if that happens," he spoke, "I'm trustworthy, Minseul, I promise!"

"Okay, here goes nothing," I sighed, "I already got my first kiss. There, I said it!"

Seungkwan just sat there, staring at me, looking so shocked

"Don't just sit there! it's creepy!" I told him

"With who?!"

"Look, just stop shipping me with Josh because the ship might just sink, okay?"

"but Minseul, you've got to tell me!" he whined

"Soonyoung," I answered, Seungkwan balled his fists

"I'M GONNA KILL HIM-"

"DON'T!" I yelled, "he's a sweet guy," I muttered

"I thought you said you don't like him!"

"He just kissed me, that's doesn't mean that I like him,"

"So..." he smirked, "how'd it go?"

"it makes me cringe!" I answered

"How long did it take?" he asked some more, "FIVE MINUTES!?"

"No! and I don't know either!" I covered my face

"Was he good though?"

"Why don't you kiss him so you'll know?" I shrugged

"JUST ANSWER IT, WAS HE GOOD!?"

"STOP ASKING!" I yelled, "I'm sorry, I just don't like talking about it,"

"Obviously, because you're blushing,"

"Hey! you still have to tell me a secret!"

"Oh, that one. I used to have a crush on you but I started to ship you with a saint so I gave up," he answered

"Really?" I asked, "HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!"

"Hey, that was before!"

"HAHAHAHAHA IT'S HILARIOUS!"

"Whatever," he rolled his eyes, "I still want to know how many minutes it took sushi to kiss you,"

"It's not even a minute!" I yelled

"Whatever you say,"

Seungkwan and I kept chatting for hours and after a while, he left. I'm so glad he's not mad anymore!

Tomorrow, I have to be early so that i'll get to the front seat. I'm quite excited for everything

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