hoshi left me alone. sure.

"after chewing up my face, he's going to walk away? what a douche," I muttered.

it was getting real dark, and I have to leave soon(young) but I don't freaking know where my bag went!

I think I left it inside the garden but.....that garden is like a forest, I might get lost! I'm so damn worried now, what am I going to do!?

I tried to walk around, looking for it, when I heard someone

"psssst,"

woah. freaking hell. not now!!
am I imagining stuff? it's probably just the rustling of leaves---

it's not even windy.

eh? there's nothing to be scared about

"pssssst,"

this is what you get from reading too much creepypasta, minseul. damn it.

hell no. I closed my eyes but whenever I do, I always remember that time when hoshi freaking damn stole my first kiss

I don't want to remember that again!!!

"where the hell is my bag?" I was repeatedly cursing inside my head

where is it

where where where!?

"MINSEUL!" someone shouted

"HOSHIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!" I screamed so damn loud. It felt like my soul left my body and jumped all the way to another galaxy.

I cried in an instant, I still don't know who the hell is in front of me, but I felt two arms around me as I tear up

"sssshhh, i'm here,"

hearing his voice makes me cry harder. I don't even know why I screamed his name at the first place. it was the first thing that entered my head.

I was thinking of him the whole time.

I buried my face into his chest and kept crying as he caressed my back gently

"how could you!?" I muttered

"shh, i'm sorry," he hugged me tighter

I don't even know how am I supposed to stop crying because I felt real scared. it was true horror. I swear.

he pulled away and started to chuckle while eyeing me

"keep laughing," I sarcastically said as i rubbed my eyes

"stop crying first,"

"why?"

"just stop,"

"no,"

"minseul please,"

"make me stop,"

he suddenly leaned in to kiss my nose and then he started laughing again

"STOP KISSING ME!" I pushed him away, "I feel dirty!"

"Geez, it's not like you don't want it anyway," he shook his head, "come on, i'll take you home,"

"Excuse me!?"

"Calm down, miss, i'll take you to your home, not mine," he grinned, "unless you want netflix and chi-- OUCH!"

I slapped him

"I don't need your stupid netflix and chill, you perverted ahjussi," I told him

"What's so perverted about that!?!?" he whined

"Don't act like you don't know anything!!" I gritted my teeth. he was blushing istg.

"it's just netflix," he shrugged, "and chill," I caught him wink. I was about to give him another slap but he stopped me

"hey Minseul, take a chill pill,"

"your mind is so dirty," I shook my head

"mind helping me clean it?" he smirked

"what the fuc-"

"hey hey hey," he cut me off, "no swearing, I like good girls so you have to be good for me,"

"what are you saying?"

"I really want to watch netflix with you," he winked, "nah I'm just joking, I know what nextflix and chill means, i'm not that oblivious,"

"pervert," I muttered

"Are you kidding me? we're still young!" he rolled his eyes, "when we get older i'll-"

"SOONYOUNG STOP IT!"

"Okay fine fine, but i'm still not perverted," he smiled

boys like soonyoung are 200% perverted, i'm sure.

"I have to get my bag first,"

"I have your bag, you didn't even notice it?" he chuckled

"How!?!?"

"You were too busy thinking about me so-- OUCH! HEY STOP IT!"

yep, I slapped him again

"Another slap and i'll seriously take you home," he muttered, "let's go,"

"what happened to chan?"

"I waited for him to get a bus on his way home, and then I ran back to check if you're still here," he replied and grabbed my hand, "You're so slow,"

"You just want to hold my hand, loser," I sighed

"How'd you know?" he smiled at me

ugh hoshi, why are you doing this? I don't even like you!!!

we left the school and waited for a bus to ride on my way home

"Are you going to leave, when I already hop on the bus?" I asked

"No, I have to make sure you get home safely," he said, while his eyes were closed. I bet he's sleepy already.

I noticed that our hands are still linked, and I didn't bother letting go

a lot of buses already passed by, but every single one of them is so full

"I guess we have to take a full bus on the way home," he spoke. as soon as a bus stopped, we hopped right in.

there was a vacant seat, and we both sat down. I was feeling a bit uncomfortable since I was squished

"Hoshi, it's so tight in here," I told him. He suddenly stood up to give me space, and I glared at him

"I can just stay standing up like this," he grinned.

hoshi feels sleepy, it's obvious. and I really want him to sit next to me so he could sleep well, since it's a long ride home

I tugged his uniform and he opened his eyes again, looking at me

"please sit down," I told him, he just chuckled as a response

"I'm okay, really,"

about fifteen minutes later, majority of the passengers hopped off the bus. I looked up at hoshi, and I caught him staring.

he quickly stared away

"sit next to me," I told him. gladly, he did.

"you can sleep," I added.

"huh?"

"You're very sleepy, it's obvious," I smiled at him. he sat comfortably, hugging my backpack as he stared

"I love you," he spoke. I felt all my blood go up to my cheeks

I don't know how to answer.

"you don't have to reply," he looked away and buried his face on my bag, dozing off

I felt guilty.

I mean, I have 9999 feels for joshua but....what is this!?!? why am I feeling this!?!?

I swear, I have to call jeonghan when I get home. he's my only hope!

if not him, seungcheol will surely help me. or mingyu?

I'm pretty sure I can't trust wonwoo with this. he's an emo.

what about vernon tho?

eh, i'll figure this out. I miss seungkwan tho, I have to apologize to him. and I miss woozi too, and seokmin's 100% dorkiness.

I looked back at hoshi and he was already sleeping. this is still a long way home. I sat there, eyeing him

his eyes are so cute, it reminds me of woozi's eyes.

"what is life, hoshi?" I whispered, "You're probably asleep and you can't hear me now but....why are you doing this?"

why am I talking to a sleeping person? ugh

"you're so sweet," I told him as I looked at him holding my hand tightly

"I wish I like you," I felt sad as I muttered, "please let me like you,"

about half an hour, we were the only ones left inside the bus.

and uh the driver too of course.

only eleven blocks left, I thought to myself.

"soonyoung," I poked his cheek, "soonyoung, yoohoo~"

he opened his eyes and blinked for a couple times, before looking at me

"where are we?"

"almost there," I answered

"your house is far," he yawned. when we reached the final stop, we hopped off, and he was still holding my hand.

"is this it?" he asked, looking at my house

"yep, i'm sorry you have to go all the way back," I lowered my head. he grabbed my other hand

"why do you keep saying sorry?" he asked. I glared at him and shook my head

"I don't know. I just feel like I have to,"

he stepped closer, swinging our hands together

"i'll tell you a secret," he whispered

"hmm?"

"you don't have to say sorry," he smiled and pulled me into a tight hug

"why are you like this?"

"because I want to," he answered, "I like you,"

"what does like mean?"

"I like you.....intimately? passionately? romantically?" he grinned and kissed my forehead

"Hoshi, I don't want to--"

"break my heart?" he cut me off, "I'm okay, you don't have to force yourself to like me,"

"um....okay," I nodded.

"go ahead," he gave me my bag and I started to walk towards the front door. I looked back at him once again and he waved cheerfully, even if he looked tired as ever

"hey!" I called. he tilted his head

"I wrote my number on your arm while you were asleep," I smiled "call me soon!"

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I cringed a lot tbh.