o shit waddup?

fyi i'm not feeling better yet, and i left this shit for more than a month. i hope someone missed this lmao.

to clear things up, I DID NOT COMMIT SUICIDE (obviously) but it's all hard stuff and VERY personal. i did try to kill myself.... but i got peeps i promised not to leave, and i don't want to drag other people into the sadness trap. that wouldn't be a good thing to do.

look, i don't wanna be that friend who breaks promises. i know promises are fragile things built on uncertainty. but still....

well, merry christmas, kiddos.
please reread the last chap so your mind could catch up again.i'm sorry to leav y'all hanging, I hope you still love this tho. otherwise i'll delete everything on my account. I actually thought about that tho but I wanted to give this account a second chance.

don't want to make people who love this book upset. I hope you guys will learn to enjoy this piece of shit again

-ji
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Winwin and I went back to his family's home to have a little rest. Of course, I was tired with the whole Zhejiang tour and yes, i'm also tired with soonyoung's bullsht.

both of us plopped down the sofa to take a seat as we focused on our handphones. it was a little while before the boy talked

"Minseul ah, someone messaged me on kakao," he said and immediately put his phone close to my face so I could see

"Okay who the hell is sk_boo1717?" I asked "what kind of nickname, really?"

"I think it's cute though," he laughed "Should I reply?"

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sk_boo1717

-hi how are you?

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I

was having second thoughts on making him reply. seriously though, isn't it surprising to have someone suddenly message you on kakao?

well, it does happen though, especially if you're well known and good looking. which takes me to the fact that my cousin is indeed well known and good looking. so yeah, maybe the user idolizes him

"go for it. is it a chick?" I leaned back as I asked

"mm, I dunno. should I ask then?"

"suit yourself, winnie,"

there was a moment of complete silence between us until I noticed that sicheng's brows were crossed.

"anything wrong?" I tried checking up

"odd," he replied

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sk_boo1717

-hi how are you?

pretty good :) hi!-

-sicheng, right?

yep, how did you know?-

do we know each other?-

-I know you, but you don't
know me

-sassy ryt

wow okay-

give me hints?-

-HAHA

-no.

why did you message me tho?-

you need anything?-

-I don't need anything,
my life is already perfect
the way it is. lol

wow okay what's good tho?-

-obviously, not you.

-now burn baby burn

-buljangnan, bitch

um-

-are you like, Jamaican?

no, i'm chinese-

are you Jamaican?-

-no

why did you ask?-

-because srsly tho
Jamaican me sick

what-

oh I get it-

-it's supposed to be offensive,
sicheng. how boring can you be?

-istg

well, idk-

-oh shit you're so boring.
why don't you slip into something
more comfortable

-like a coma.

how mean-

-boi

-do u srsly don't have any
comeback? any comeback
at all?

well I don't usually
argue I guess-

-say....

-did you have an extra bowl
of stupid this morning?

wow can you stop being
mean? :(-

-soz

-can't help it

- :P

who are you?-

-i'm you

-but sassier

-

hey that's me! :)-

-yeah geez what a forehead

-eyebrows to hairline? that's
a $6 cab ride already

o-

you are so mean-

-

-bOI

?-

-you look

dashing?-

gorgeous?-

amazing?-

stunning?-

-lol not even close

-you look like your
face was beaten by a used
chalkboard eraser

IT'S THE FILTER-

I'M NOT THAT PALE-

-it's like the
textures on your face haven't
finished loading

-yet

hahaha-

what are you trying
to do srsly-

i'm not going to
be affected by those stuff-

they're nonsense-

-and your point is?

ugh I hate you-

-that's what your mom
told you when you were born

-hihi. bye

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"that was....strange," I told the boy who has been frowing all this time

"and rude," he added

"I mean, who the hell would randomly chat a person on kakao just to have fun roasting, right?"

I chuckled for a bit and stopped midway when I realized something

seungkwan.

damn son, it's got to be him.

I took my phone and decided to open the kkt app. i'm quite sure boo is my friend there. I have a feeling that he's sk_boo1717

one minute in and I was still searching for the kakao icon on my phone until a freaking remembered that

i.do.not.have.that.app

brilliant, minseul. brilliant.

"I have an idea on who that is. but I won't tell you who," I spoke up

"is it someone I know?"

"yes,"

"Justin Bieber?"

"What- Winwin, he doesn't know you," I sighed "but really, I won't tell,"

"Yay guessing game!" he squealed and clapped excitedly like a child

"No, sicheng. no guessing games,"

"Is it a boy or a girl?"

"something in between," I sighed

"Interesting," he put his hand under his chin and nodded

"winwin, stop. I won't tell you until I know who the user really is,"

"why do you have to investigate? sk_boo1717 has a profile picture," he said, making me stop

"WELL WHY DIDN'T YOU SAY SO?"

"is it too late now to say sorry?"

"it's too late to apologize,"

we were cut off by silence for a bit, just staring at each other

"JUST SHOW ME THE PICTURE!" I told him

"OKAY OKAY. don't rush me!" he replied and went through his phone "hey she's pretty!!"

"she?"

"yes! she's a pretty girl!"

wow, what's a girl like her doing on kkt and roasting random people? maybe I was wrong about seungkwan.

"what are you waiting for? show me the picture!"

the boy smiled once more as he glanced on his phone screen before he let me face the device.

I was speechless.

"sicheng,"

"yes? pretty right?"

"that's ariana grande,"

"who that?" he tilted his head. I facepalmed so hard

"this needs to stop,"

"maybe I should just ask for her picture," he smiled at me

"k,"

__________

sk_boo1717

may I see a picture of you?-

-no, shithead

oh-

-jk. lol

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a few minutes later, I was surprised when winwn suddenly jumped on the sofa

"OH MY GOD!"

"WHAT WHY!?" I screamed

"SEUNGKWAN WITH A WIG!" he told me

what....
seungkwan with a wig? dafuq sicheng

"Give me that!" I snatched his phone

___________
sk_boo1717

-

_________

"No, that's not seungkwan with a wig," I told him

"It looks like him,"

"that's his sister, sicheng,"

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sorry for the shitty update lol