The smell of antibacterial and the all to familiar sound of probably the oldest computer Felix had ever seen woke him up to scratchy bed sheets and a damp breeze.

He sat up on the bed, taking note that his blazer and shoes had been taken off and appear to be missing, and rubbed his eyes hastily.

His eye lids were desperately trying to close again as he confusedly glanced around the room, for a second he was highly concerned that he had no idea how he got here or why he was even here.

Then what seemed to be memories of a dream drowned his mind.

Changbin.

It was all...a dream?

Felix looked down at his lap, still covered by a thin bed cover sheet, and just thought about how messed up he was.

His hands made their way to his face and he let his weight be held by his shaking hands, and he laughed.

He laughed at how comically tragic his life was up until this point.

"This..is so- fucked up." He said in between breaths and only when he tasted salty water did he laugh even louder.

Not only had he dreamed about someone who probably hated him, but now here he was, back in his Australian schools medical room crying.

How completely hopeless.

He sat there for what seemed to be a few seconds but every breath felt like hours, and every tear felt like years.

And every thought of the boy he missed felt like an eternity.

"Why the fuck are you crying now idiot?" A familiar voice echoed in his ears.

It was like Felix could still hear him.

"Lee Felix! Don't ignore me you ocean-traveling-boyfriend-leaving bastard!"

Felix's heart skipped a beat and he felt his stomach drop a mile.

And slowly he looked up and beside him, an angry boy sat, wearing a familiar school uniform and hoodie.

Felix's mouth went dry, "You're- but you- I thought-", he stuttered in a mix of Korean and English.

Changbin looked like he was ready to drop-kick Felix,

and in all honesty Felix would probably let him.

"Spit it out, it's the least you could do after passing out after you saw me." Changbin said bitterly,

but Felix saw Changbin begin to fiddle and click his knuckles, something he only always does when he's nervous.

However he then did a double take, "i what? I passed out? When?"

If possible Changbin furrowed his eyebrows even more, "I introduced myself to your class and then you just fell! I thought you died you idiot! I signed up for this exchange programme last minute to come to you- and you just died on me!"

Changbin stopped speaking to look back at the blonde boy, who he had been trying not to look at because god he missed his stupid face.

Just to see Felix silently sobbing his eyes out while passionately listening to Changbin speak.

"Ok ok that's enough- stop crying dumbass." He sighed and got up, wiping the crying boys tears, one hand gently caressing his cheek.

Felix just melted into Changbins hand as tears poored from his eyes and Changbins heart burst with affection.

He might just kiss him, he thought.

"Alright you baby, please stop crying now- oh my god stop. Felix stop- I'm sorry- just stop- please." Changbin muttered moving onto the bed and holding the crying boy by his shoulders. His head leaning forward, making it so the other couldn't see his eyes.

Changbin wasted no time and engulfed Felix in a hug, his hands ruffling his hair while holding on tightly.

"I missed you so much." He heard Felix whisper into his neck, "I thought it was a dream. I was so scared."

Changbin really might kiss him.

But it's probably not the time.

"I missed you so much more. I'm sorry." He replied instead, pulling away from their hug. But his hands still locked in his messed up hair.

Felix had stopped crying but his eyes still shined, they were so close Changbin could see himself in his dark iris.

He smiled and felt all his guilt wash away as Felix smiled widely, as if nothing had happened.

Changbin wanted to kiss him, really badly.

Felix however seemed perfectly happy with just looking at Changbin,

Making sure he was real and that he wasn't going anywhere.

Changbin grabbed Felix's hand and held it tightly, tracing his knuckles with his thumb.

He felt a lump is his throat, "Felix are we, you know- still a thing?"

Felix wiped the last of his tears and let out a breathless and tired laugh, "fuck changbin, way to ruin the mood. We just hugged didn't we? Plus, you broke up with me."

Changbin stared at their hands and scoffed, "probably the stupidest thing I've ever done."

They sat in silence, but this time everyone was slow. It was as if time ceased to exist just to allow the two boys to finally take in that they were a few inches apart.

"Do you think..." Felix questioned, catching Changbins attentions- his voice soft and quiet.

"What?"

"Do you think that we...that us...could work?"

Changbin let out a shaky sigh and Felix wasn't sure if he was on the verge of tears or laughter.

"Do I think this will work easily? No." The other side finally, smiling sadly. However felix felt as if his heart had stopped beating.

As Felix looked anywhere but his partner, Changbin stared at Felix and Felix only.

Taking in the surreal feeling that, yes- this won't be easy at all.

Could he kiss Felix now? He didn't think so.

Will they scream at eachother again? Probably.

Will they cry again? Most likely.

Is distance going to be a problem? Beyond certainly.

But will that stop them from loving eachother? Absolutely not.

Changbin grabbed Felix's other hand  gently and looked him in the eye,

"It won't be easy. But hey- I'm not going to stop trying until it is. So you better not either."

Changbin gripped Felix's hand tighter, and was filled with comfort when Felix squeezed back. "Besides Felix, didn't you say we'll be together forever? We literally only became boyfriends like yesterday. How on earth will you react on our wedding day I wonder..."

This would probably be the most romantic time for Changbin to kiss Felix. But Felix's smile was beyond distracting.

And then Felix kisses him.

But he didn't mind.

The ending they deserved.

But hey, it can't end here...right?

We gotta find out how Felix reacts on their wedding day!

Sequel? Mayyybe-

But first epilogue!! Get ready for cute dates because after the rollercoaster ofotions I put you through, y'all deserve that.

Thanks, for everything ♡

10/07/18