Two days later
Annabelle's POV
I still can't believe it, Ashley was really gone, I felt like a huge part of me was gone, I can still remember the night it happened, walking in to meet my parents over her with Ashley lying on the couch, her wrist slit multiple times, I just can't picture how it happened, she left a note saying and I quote.
"I can't go on any more, I was going through a lot, and I couldn't take it. To dad, sorry I wasn't up to your standards, to mom, sorry for leaving so soon,I know we talked about it yesterday, but I knew I couldn't handle it, just a mere sight of the child would hurt me. To Daniel, I still love you, sorry but I couldn't just take the shame I was getting, the insults my sister was giving me, all I ever did was disappoint her and my family and, I wasn't ready to face you all anymore, to all my friends, I'll miss you all. I hope you get why I did it, this wasn't it all but someday you'll know why i did it."
I felt so sad after reading that, I never saw her like that, and I never meant to make her feel that was. this was just the beginning and she had to cut herself off this early.

I was told that my parents were in the room talking, when they heard one of the workers scream, she was too late too, on reaching the scene she was already gone, she went out that morning to clear her head but I guess it didn't work out, she came back hours later with a pack of razors and did it silently, our couch had to be burnt cause of the stains, and even the memory wasn't helping, everyone felt it for her.

Today was her funeral, we just left the church and now, we're at home I plan on going to see her later, but right now everyone is just down. I look around and I see Patricia, susan and jade, the last time I saw them was at graduation, Daniel wasn't even able to hold himself, I can remember the night it happened, Jason called him and told him and he almost fainted at the scene, Alex and maddie were together too with their parents, basically everyone was here, my step mom was still in shock, even I will her first and only daughter, she never even got to see David's first birthday, this was a very big decision and I don't know why she went down this road, we could have fix this, I was never there for her and I let my drama get to it, I really messed up.

"Hey you." maddie walks up to me still teary too "how you doing?" She askes me.

"Surviving," I tried to lighten up, but I knew I was lying to myself "I was thinking of going to her grave later." I added.

"That'll be good, am sure your parents would too." she tapped me on the back before going.

Everyone kept avoiding the topic, no one wanted to talk about her, her death came to us really hard in the chest, and the worst part was that it was suicide, it still hurts.

*****
After the reception was over, everyone left, and it was just us in this empty house, my mom came to spend the night with us, in case anything happens, I've been through a lot they say and are afraid I might lose it. I went to my dad and told him I'll be going now, I needed closure and to talk to her.

I kept driving in circles, taking my time to go there, I didn't want to part of me, but I also knew I needed to, catching my breath I finally got down from the car and made my way to her grave, her tombstone wasn't ready yet, but I knew the spot, a temporary one was fixed for the time being, and they promise it'll be ready soon, I just really hope so. On the inscription it says, "ASHLEY JACKSON 2000 - 2019
GONE TOO SOON" I sat there crying my heart out the moment I saw it.

"Am really sorry Ashley, I should have known, I saw the signs but I ignored it, I was selfish and I let you go, I made you say all this and I was being a bitch, I just hope you find it in your heart to forgive me." I finish off still sitting there before being cut off by a voice.

'Don't blame yourself, we all didn't know," I turn to Daniel and my friends behind me " Maddie said you'd need company." they smiled at me.

"Thanks guys, am really sorry, I've been a bitch to you all honestly I let my drama cause all this," I let out.

"Hey don't blame yourself, we're here for you." Maddie pulled us all for a hug, I felt safe and I really hope this was the last bad news I'd be receiving, we've all had a crazy year.

After the series of crying and our last messages for Ashley, we all left to our various destinations, Christmas sure did come to us different this year, and to think Ash did it on Christmas was definitely going to leave a mark, Daniel offered to take me home, but I needed time to think for a while, plus I did come with my car too. I was sitting by the edge of my car's door, on the floor, not even minding my dress, when a familiar voice joins me, sitting next to me too.

"You're a mess." he Indicated, judging by my bruised hands and red eyes, he was right, I've been maimed brutally this week.

"I know!" I replied to keep it simple, I was surprise he was here, last time I was sure I imagined him.

"Am sorry for your lost, am sure she meant a lot to you," he added, and I suddenly busted into tears, he pulled me in for a hug, and after a while he let go "just be safe princess." Only he and Jason called me with that surprisingly but the way he talked I didn't like it one bit what does that mean?, I don't like this.

"Where are you going?" I look up to him.

"Nowhere, I just came to say my goodbye, I think I need to keep my distance, am sure we've been nothing but trouble to you." he said looking away from me.

"Chad look at me." I demanded "I mean it." but he simply ignored me, I watched as he stood up and left me there, was that all he did decide for me, my life was just getting better, but somehow I felt like I was losing everyone dear to me. I stood up after he left and went to find Jason.

We haven't spoken since the night, but I really needed to get things off my chest.

Jason's POV
I left Annabelle's house in shock that night, Ashley was dead, the more I thought of it the more scared I became, why did she take such road, suicide is never an option, it kept ringing in my ear, Daniel couldn't believe I knew how much he loved her, and this was really hurting him inside. Today was the burial and I've been avoiding Annabelle since, I was at the church but I decided not to be at the reception, but my parents and sister convince me to, I tried to keep my distance from her, I knew I've caused her enough pain so i needed to give her time.

I went home after the reception and made my way to the shower, I was feeling somewhat new and adventurous so, I decided to dye my hair blue, I was getting dressed when I received a message from the guys, they're at Ashley's tombstone and Annabelle was there, I knew she wouldn't want to see me, so I ignored and went to watch TV, but I just couldn't concentrate, that's when my dad walks in.

"Shouldn't you be with the group? I heard they went to see Ashley off." he asked "and what is on your head, are you?"

"Save it dad, and no am not going, and yes am using again." I turn my back on him facing my movie.

"This behavior of yours is getting old, I will not have my son acting like this, either you stop or leave my house," he came at me.

"Fine then I'm leaving." I stood up and left for my room, but I was stopped by my little sister crying running towards me "what is it?" I asked looking worried.

"It's, uhmm dad?, Jason?, mom she's," that's when I knew, pulling her close to me I tried to calm her down, but even i needed to cry.

Dad heard the panic and went straight to their room, she was right, mom was really gone, like a movie it all felt unreal and there was nothing we could do about it, we all went to the room and Emma suggested we go to the hospital, but we all knew it was too late.

Dad called the workers and we left to the ER, Emma was sure she was going to make it, I hope so too, I kept saying it was possible, maybe they can, but around five pm it was announced she was gone, there was nothing we could do, she left us, me all alone in this world, my world came crumbling down, I knew she was gone, but hearing it officially made it worst making my way out of the ER I rush to my car, I just couldn't take it, I could hear my dad and sister calling out to me, but right now I needed to be alone, I see my phone ringing and it was Annabelle, I can't deal with her right now, I ignored it and continued driving.

I arrived at home minutes later and went straight to my room, digging through my stuffs, I find my stash of drugs, I take a handful chugging it down my throat when I felt a force behind me, making my spit it all out.

"What the hell Jason, so what you were going to leave me too?" Anna came at me, even she looked like a mess, god we were both a mess, this wasn't the time.

"Stay away from me, I mean it." I replied in a hoarse tone.

"No am not leaving, why did you go back?, what is so important that you want to kill yourself?" she asked me, god was she so innocent, being with me was the death of her, and I knew it.

"Am too broken for you Anna, you don't need this right now," I simply say to her sitting on the edge of my bed.

"What are you saying to me?" She asked all teary.

"Am saying that it's over. I can't do this to you anymore. " I finally say, I felt my heart crushing inside of me, but I knew it was for the best, we both needed to figure out what we wanted and who we are.

"No you're kidding, right, tell me you are, I can't lose you too." she came tugging at my shirt, I couldn't bare to see her crying, but I also wanted seeing her happy "please Jason don't do this."

"Annabelle just LEAVE," I pushed her off, she was shocked by my reaction, watching her I wanted to stop her and tell her I still love you Annabelle, but I knew this was for the best, she took to heels and left me sitting there, I could hear her sobbing down the stairs, I've been such a fool, I just hope I get through this. Lying back down on the bed I cried myself to sleep, waiting for my fate too.

The end?

(A/N: so this is the end of boy trouble book two I can't believe it, we're done with the book two, book one had 26 chapters plus epilogue making it 27, but book two came such a long way, making it to 36, Watch out for book three, will jannabelle make it or is this really the end? With love hajjo♡♡)