Bae Ara

I can't stop worrying about him.

He's so new.

So new to the world.

But I already tried...

He probably thinks I was lying to him the whole time.

I wasn't lying.

I had a horrible childhood. I had parents who took me in and turned my life around positively.

It's my fault. I took him in immediately. I'm only just 23 years old! Why would I force him or myself into something like this?

I need to ask my parents for help.

I reach for my phone and dial my mom.

She picks up immediately.

"Hello, baby! You called! I'm so happy. I missed you so much, your father and I miss you so much! How are you?" My mom greets emotionally.

I giggle. "Hey, mom. I'm doing ok. Sorry I didn't call recently. I was busy. I have something really important to tell you and I need your help."

"Of course, baby! Anything."

Breath, Ara.

"I met this guy...actually I witnessed him almost commit suicide."

"Oh dear, your poor eyes."

"Mom, I saved him. He told me about his life...and I can make connections. He had a horrible past just like me and...and so I took him in."

My mother was quiet on the other end.

"Mom?"

"Baby....you can't be taking in strangers like that. He could've been a killer or something."

I look down and let out a weary cry.

"Mom...I had this feeling. This strong feeling that I could've helped him get back on his feet. Like what you and dad did for me! I-I don't...I didn't know that this would happen."

"What happened? Are you ok!? What did he do!??"

"I'm fine, mom. But um, he was being really close to me. More than I was comfortable. He started changing...to the point where I almost didn't recognize him. His hair, his style...his aura. He was different and I thought it was really unnecessary, but he seemed so happy about it. I didn't want to tell him it wasn't a necessary...."

I tell her from when he started acting lovey-dovey to me to when we started arguing.

"I told him he shouldn't be copying other people and he got so defensive like, telling me that he wants to be happy and he doesn't want someone like to me tell him something else." I explain while breathing deeply.

"Honey, your father and I faced many challenges raising you. They were normal teenage girl problems like we didn't let you go out past your curfew to a party. But, you need to understand that...even if they don't want to believe you, you still need to remember what your goal was in the first place. You wanted to help him. So, help him even if he has doubts."

"You want me to continue to help him?"

"Isn't that want you want to do?"

Min Yoongi

All I need to do is jump.

Jump.

Jump

Just jump.

"Go on, Yoongi. It'll be worth it, trust me." Jimin pats my back.

A pair of big hands meet my shoulders.

"Just remember. The harder the climb, the better the view." Jin says.

I nod and lick my lips. "I'll do it."

"That's the spirit." Jimin laughs.

The others push me towards the structure and I breath very loudly while I'm stomping my way to the key to my future.

I reach the structure and look up.

This place is taller than I thought.

"Yoongi, do this and you'll be happy."

"Do it."

"Let's go, YOONGI! YOU CAN DO IT!"

I grip my hands onto the pole and can already and cold taking over me.

Almost there. Just keep climbing.

I'm here.

The view is good.

I hear cheering coming from down there and I see my new group of friends cheering for me.

I'm already happy.

"Jump! JUMP NOW!" Namjoon shouts.

I nod. "It's my time now."

Jump..

Just Jump...

Fly...fly away...

Throw all your worries away and Jump...

You'll fly into your new life

Jump

Jump

Jump

Jump

Jump

Jump!

JUMP

And I did.

It feels good.

The air feels nice.

Against my skin.

Against my body.

It feels refreshing.

It's cool.

I catch a glimpse of my new group of friends and see that they were jumping for me.

I feel so good right now!

My life just got better-

Until I reach the water.

And the warmth I had....

Was gone in a second.

I went deep down in the cold and thick water.

The waves were drowing me, but it didn't hurt.

What hurt me was...

I wasn't expecting this much pain.

I wasn't expecting this feeling taking over my body.

How it's taking over my soul and mind too.

"Just swim now, Yoongi."

I finally start swimming and reach the air.

I miss breathing.

The waves were like memories. I would get hit by them and I would sink back into the water of sorrow and I couldn't breath at all.

I'm going die.

Aren't I?

Warmth.

I want the warmth.

I want warmth

I want the warmth Ara gave me.

I want it back.

I want her.

I want her back.

I sank back down and I was drowning in my own mistakes.

All.

Over.

Again.

Forgive me, Ara.

Forgive me.

Boy meets _____
Boy meets deat-

"YOONGI!"