"Come on Tae, let's get you home" Hyun says his words in such a composed manner that it burns Taehyung's lids and it scares him so much that his insides hurt.

But Taehyung don't want to go, he doesn't want to go anywhere until Jeongguk comes back. He has to, he really has to.

Behind him, Hyun shifts cautiously
"Come on-"

"Don't touch me!"

Taehyung snaps, the numbness slips away and the emotions he starts to feel are overwhelming. He feels everything and his hands shake. Tries to open and close his mouth to breathe between his shaking but he can't find himself to form proper words when he takes a step back.

"D-don't touch me.." Fists still tightly trying to brush away his tears but nothing feels like Jeongguk "It's all your fault- h-he didn't do anything..he didn't.."

But Hyun's so fast at silencing him with a harsh stare "I don't want to hear any of that" And then, his fingers still tightly clenched into his fists he begins to drag closer "It's not my fault, it was never my fault, you made me do this"

It takes Taehyung too long to respond. He stumbles back into the pavement, almost trips over his untied shoes from running over here. And even if new tears run down his cheeks he doesn't stop "I won't ever like you Hyun, you're the one who's doing this"

"You're crazy!" Hyun yells and Taehyung flinches. Stumbles back a step when he yanks Taehyung forward by his collar so that he's faced to his frustration. Taehyung never felt the city as quiet as right now.

The blatant rage he directs twists into something ugly, that makes his stomach churn and Taehyung wishes he could run away.

"You're crazy for thinking he will ever be good to you" Hyun quite literally spits in his face, practically starts to slowly choke Taehyung when his fingers dig into his tearful neck "You don't know anything about what he's done and yet you're saying you like him?" Hyun continues to spit, the force of his fingers around his neck shake and Taehyung is sure that he for once can feel it deep in his bones again.

It's quiet for a long moment after that. So quiet that Taehyung wishes he never spoke when no one's there to wipe his tears.

"I  will   never   like   you"

What happens after that plays around slowly. When Hyun lashes out, and hits him he barely notices his nose gushing from blood.

Taehyung barely registers when Hyun hand crossed before his face when pain started flooding right through his nose.

Teary eyes, heavy chest, bruised lips. He feels like he can't look him in the eye when he slowly reach up his hand against his bruised nose.

Hyun turns towards him again and Taehyung dares to look up between his trembling, he looks so repulsed. "You-"  he laughs, but it sounds hysteric and there's a glint in his eyes that isn't exactly sane "I can't believe you could say that after everything I did for you because of him"

"W-what?" Taehyung's under lip curl and wobbles into a sneer, the cut bleeding through in pain when his vision blur into tears.

"Right.." Hyun starts, comes closer when Taehyung shakes his head slowly. Wishes that he could shrink into nothingness and disappear.

"Why don't you ask that Jeongguk of yours what exactly he did two years ago?"

Hyun looks down at his bare face and sneers behind his blatant words. Grabs a hold of Taehyung's collar again and that's when Taehyung starts to shake his head. Forgetting about anything else.

"Stop.. please don't touch me" Taehyung pleads out, bottom lip quivering when he's just reminded of how much he wanted to hold Jeongguk's hand and that he will tell him everything will be okay but it was all bad, bad, bad.

Hyun scoffed, but it sounded more like he's sanitizing off of his misery. When he lets go of his collar until he almost stumbles back, Taehyung misses the look on his face.

"Absolutely pathetic."

With that, Hyun leaves.

Taehyung doesn't remember the last time he checked the clock.

He closes his eyes and just lays there. When things start to hurt he still doesn't move. Lets the tears run sideways down his bruised face. Lets himself shake and sob as he curls in on himself.

Maybe it's been minutes, hours or even a day. Eitherway, it didn't matter. Things didn't matter to him when he had gotten home after that. And it should feel better because it's cold outside and here it's warm but in the end nothing felt okay. He had through his blurry vision swaddled for Jeongguk's leather jacket and put it on.

After that he's scared to know how long he's been curled into himself, grabbing at every edge of the jacket and tugs it harshly around his body, but it isn't enough.

He's falling. Sinking, sinking, sinking. His heart hurts and it stings but there's no one here to save him. Bringing the jacket closer to his lips it burns against his cut.

Sometimes it feels that the the deeper their relationship gets the wider the gap becomes.

And it hurts.

It's only a few minutes later when the silence is finally broken. His phone rings against his hand, burning against his skin when he blinks, tries to blink again from all the tears, only to find the
ID to be unknown.

Putting the phone against his ear Taehyung slowly croaks out "Hello?"

There's a silence on the other end of the line. For a short moment, Taehyung hears the sound of heavy breathing.

"Taehyung" Jeongguk's voice still makes Taehyung's heart thump against his chest.

He barely registers when he started crying again, just knows he's hearing Jeongguk. He's hearing Jeongguk.

"G-ggukie" Taehyung almost sobs, hears Jeongguk's heavy breathing through the phone as if he's trying to control himself.

But it's as Jeongguk knows how to answer his questions.

"I'm in county and only got one phone call to make.." The dark haired swollows, clenches his jaw when he shuts his eyes.

He doesn't say that the only person he wanted to call was Taehyung.

"Gguk" Taehyung repeats as if he's not sure he's there. He stares down at the jacket he's wearing and flinches at the way his voice breaks.

"You're such an idiot" Jeongguk breathes in frustration through the line. Head tilted back against the wall behind him.

Taehyung sniffles lightly "Are you mad at me?" he asks even if he knows the answer to it,

"Stop fucking with me of course i'm mad at you!" Jeongguk's tone starts to rise as he begins to get all worked up.

"I'm so fucking mad right now that I can go insane and I can't fucking control it"

"I'm sorry-"

"What the hell were you thinking?! how could you not tell me he was texting you?" There's harshness in the way Jeongguk talks over the phone "Do you know how much it's killing me knowing you're out there and I can't make sure he's not with you fuck- fucking shit Taehyung"

"When I think of somebody hurting you even for a little bit I can't control-"

"i'm sorry.." Taehyung sniffles, tries to wipe away his tears when it only hurts when it stings against his bruised nose.

He's happy Jeongguk can't see him.

But sometimes, when it starts to hurt and his fingers tremble all he wants is to see him.

"Don't ever do that again. You're not ever allowed to do anything that will put you in danger ever again without my permission do you hear me?"

Taehyung only wipes his tears, hoping Jeongguk can't hear them when he only nods.

Jeongguk's breathes a harsh fuck under his breath.

There's a crack in Jeongguk's armour. Something flickers across his features that looks a lot like the past. He thinks everything's reminding him again in here and everything's starting to feel so annoying again. Staying at this place again everything feels so frustrating.

It would be great if everyone would just shut the fuck up. If everyone could just leave him alone, he doesn't need their stupid words or kindness.

He doesn't need anyone, all he wants is Taehyung.

The boxer runs his hand through his hair, when a harsh breath leaves past his lips where he lays his head "I love you.."

Taehyung can't seem to move, when he hears Jeongguk say the words through his phone he completely stills.

"I love you so fucking much" Jeongguk  repeats, voice shaky this time.

When did he ever care about someone before?

There are so many layers to Jeongguk's hissed words, Taehyung doesn't know which one he should listen to.

"I can't stay away from you.."

Taehyung sobs, holds his hand over his wobbling mouth when he curls up into himself until his head hits his knees. Feels his heart hammer and shatter all over again. The absence of longing in his heart is like a slap in the face. He's a mess of snot and tears and blood but it doesn't matter.

Taehyung loves him.

"Me too, I-I love you too gguk"

He loves Jeongguk so much too.

"I want to see you even though i'm so fucking mad at you right now"

Jeongguk wants to stay mad so badly. He wants to take all the anger, frustration, and loathing he feels towards him like he's used to but Taehyung never allows him to. He can't be mad at the only one who he ever wants to see.

"I miss you"

But now, as Taehyung takes in his appearance; hair askew, face bruised, wet cheeks, he wants to hate him.

If he was just as hateful like before it would be easier for him to hate him. And maybe then, nothing would be able to hurt Jeongguk.

Because why are the things that he likes always so bad? All he did was fall in love with a boy but it feels as if he's being punished for it.

He wants him to be bad to him again so he can't feel his heart hammer everytime. If maybe he didn't get close to him, if just like the beginning he would be just as before it would be easier for him to hate him.

But he still knows, that no matter what kind of Jeongguk it is, Taehyung will still love him.

He doesn't think of the consequences. He doesn't think of the what ifs. Just him and Jungkook and the way his bruised hands dry his tears so perfectly.

Why why why

His head is already so full of him. So full.

Taehyung wants to see him, when he sobs brokenly into his jacket he wants to see him.

He wants to hold his hand.

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