Taehyung wasn't going to pick up. When he eyes the device in his hands he knows he shouldn't. If he had silenced it instead, it wouldn't be the only thing that he was staring at intermittently since Jeongguk left.

But it's to late. To late to back up now when it keeps ringing.

Taehyung idly fidgets with his fingers  when he slowly brings the phone up to his ear, feels the corners of his lips part when he inhales a shaked breath the moment everything goes silent.

"You're finally picking up now?" Hyun's voice still makes Taehyung tremble.

Clenching his fists together Taehyung swallows, voice coming out like a croak. Dry and awful "Stop calling me Hyun" his nails dig into his skin "I have already done everything you told me to do"

Taehyung wants to say more, that Hyun doesn't have a right to anything. That it's the first time- that when he hears his voice, the feeling of being unable to breathe becomes real.

It takes three to long seconds before he speaks again.

"Oh really?" The voice sounds close when they deportate into slow hums through his phone.

And he cuts him off before he has a chance to talk.

"You're so pathetic you know that Taehyung? I really do like you but the way you fell for that guy so easily is so pathetic"

"Stop calling me"

"Oh well I was expecting that from you anyway" Taehyung hears a sigh "but I still had hope before I told you"

There's a silence on the other end of the line. For a short moment, Taehyung wonders if he will ever be the same now. When his nails dig into his skin further until it hurts, he truly wouldn't expect more.

"Told me what?"

Taehyung croaks in a voice that sounds like it hasn't been used in a while. There are line of hopeless circles under his eyes, a tired expression from all the thinking. He tugs at the hem of his white shirt, traces the pattern of his index finger where Jeongguk had caressed them just an hour ago when he just listens.

Maybe that's all he can ever do.

"I don't know maybe about how it's so crazy. That one year ago Jeongguk ended up behind bars, and now he's roaming around doing the same thing but no one's stopping him?"

Taehyung's chest hurts "He hasn't done anything wrong, he's a good guy.. gguk's a really good guy"

Jeongguk is so perfect.

"You're one to say" Taehyung takes in Hyun's icy tone filling up the line.

"After all wasn't it all your fault he ended up there in the first place?"

Taehyung's entire chest starts to feel numb but he's frozen and he can't move.

No

"W-what are you talking about?"

Taehyung says, instantly recoils as if he's been hit.

But it's like Hyun's avoiding him completely. He could almost hear the half tug wiped across his lips and eyes sparkling with amusement as he placed the phone closer to his ear "And now, you're only going to be the reason he's ending up there again"

Hyun says and Taehyung stops completely.

No no

He tries to act like it doesn't affect him, he really does. But then he's started trembling and his eyes sting and there's something squeezing in his chest and it hurts. Oh it hurts.

Taehyung looks down at his shaking hand, bottom lip quivering and vision blurring away when he tries to speak. But his voice sounds so awful terribly thick with fear and emotion that a string of uncouth rambles leave past his lips instead.

"H-hyun. What are you talking about? what do you mean again? you can't- no you can't I have done everything I did everything. I didn't see him anymore like you told me-I- he's a good guy hyun"

"Come on Tae? you know a person like him will never be a good guy"

"N-no you can't do this

"I-I will tell them everything. I will tell them everything you did to me that day, and that you threatened me. I will say everything and you won't be able to do anything to him"

"You can try that but who do you seriously think they will believe Taehyung? Him or me?"

"No! I will say all of it- " Taehyung's trembling fingers traces his neck, but there's no marks left when a small sob breaks through "You can't do this, you promised me. I did everything.."

"You also promised me. The fact you're taking him over me after all these years really hurt you know?" Hyun hit back  "He was the one who who beat me up and you didn't even care about me"

"H-hyun"

Taehyung swollows the lump of tears in his throat so hard when he continues,

"H-hyun what did you do?"

"Settling things"

The line goes dead along with Taehyung's heartbeat. It's quiet. to quiet when Taehyung can't breathe.

Jeongguk

One moment he couldn't move, and the next he's before the place he knows Jeongguk will be in.

Exactly 23 minutes goes by before Taehyung stops before the familiar neon lights and streetdead building.  Feels a painful twist in the pit of his stomach by every second that grows by and the tall headed guard with shifty eyes won't let him in. Let's his floated words and teared eyes leave past his sympathy when Taehyung keeps pleading to see Jeongguk before anyone else has time to get him before him.

Taehyung's so scared.

"Please! it will only take a few minutes I need to go in!" Taehyung pleads, vision is already a blur. He hopes that he didn't start to cry but he knows he did since the moment he thought of Jeongguk gone.

"It will only take a few minutes.." Taehyung tries with the lumps of tears and fear in his throat.

But to no vain when the bald guard once again shakes his head and stands up straight to block the entrance.

When Taehyung sees the determination in the guard to not let anyone into the underground, 

he wishes for a second that Jeongguk had never let Taehyung in too.

But he can't leave, he can't leave before he sees Jeongguk, until nothing will be able to take him away. He feels gone, mind half working. When he tries to plead once again his voice caught itself up and his held back tears keep trying to leave.

But Just then, Hoseok shows up behind the guarded doors. Expression twisted in confusion when he spots Taehyung. Eyes glossy, cheeks quite literally drenched with tears and his eyebrows mottled together so hard.

"Taehyung? what are you doing here?"

"Hoseok! I need to see Jeongguk, you have to let me see him, It's important it's really important"

Taehyung instantly turns his attention to Hoseok when he sees him. His voice is so tense, full of fear, and Hoseok is surprised to see the pleadness across the blonde's hurt expression.

To the fact when he is about to open his mouth again Taehyung beats him to it.

"Please hoseok.."

"Okay calm down first and stay here for a bit. I will try and get him to go out for you yeah?" Hoseok reassures him but looks more than skeptical when he slowly moves inside after Taehyung had nodded eagerly.

Waiting feels like the more he stays the more he loses and the fear only builds up. It's quiet. Taehyung stares at his shoes, stares at the end of his clenched hands. Looks everywhere but before him.

Can feel the tears rushing straight to his eyes as guilt blossom in his chest  and he thinks again. He thinks about Jeongguk and how much he likes him- how sometimes he seemed ready to collapse into him and forget about anything, as if they were ready to let the world swallow them whole. He thinks about Jeongguk who is now here and how it's all his fault.

Taehyung learns that his only talent is hurting people whenever he gets to close.

With every second Taehyung stands outside the large building his fear grows until the moment someone so familiar walks out the door this time.

Someone who always makes him okay.

Jeongguk walks out fully dressed with his dark shirt sticking to his sweat glistening body from probably after a round of his match. Raven hair clamped to his forehead and Taehyung could catch his hard breathing from here. The boxer usually wears the glint of something Taehyung had learned to petrify across his features everytime he sees him, and not this guarded expression. With steel across his eyes and jaw, there's a glint of rigid across his face.

"I told you not to fucking come here!" Jeongguk says, tone trying to be leveled yet angry in a way that makes everything feel worse when he reach him.

But Taehyung doesn't care, he doesn't care as-long as Jeongguk is here.

"J-Jeongguk" Taehyung's voice sounds small even in his own ears when he reach him.

When Taehyung eyes shift to meet his, the dark gaze that had previously been angry and tense immediately turn to worry the moment he sees Taehyung's tear stained cheeks.

His bruised hands instantly holding his face "Hey what's wrong? What the hell happened why are you crying?"

Jeongguk says, the anger disappearing when his tone and eyebrows knits in an instant worry.

Jeongguk's thumbs brushing away his tears feel so warm. Brushing away taehyung's locks away from his eyes. And the blonde only tries to talk properly behind his panicking. "You need to leave please Jeongguk you need to go"

"What? what are you talking about-"

"They will take you- y-you have to listen to me you need to go"

Taehyung can't breathe and oh god he can't handle Jeongguk's hands on his cheeks bringing him closer. This isn't about him. This isn't about about Taehyung's tears right now why can't Jeongguk forget him and understand he needs to leave.

He needs to leave.

"You need to go ggukie please" Taehyung breaks "T-the police will take you again- they are going to take you again"

Taehyung sobs but before Jeongguk has a chance to respond Taehyung's phone turns on again.

The moment he notices Taehyung's face twist into panic, Jeongguk doesn't let him go further before he snatches the device out of his grip.

When Jeongguk's eyes run over the new text message from Hyun there's a pause that sounds a lot like dividing hell.

"Why the fuck is he texting you!" At the blatant rage in his tone, Taehyung flinches back.

Jeongguk's jaw clenches, face turning into the kind of fire Taehyung had never seen across his face, but the moment is cut to short.

The moment police sirens resounding in the distance.

There's a sound of a car parking right beside them, the once warmth across his cheeks from Jeongguk's fingers replaced by something cold and bitter.

It's all static when the car door opens.
He's burning again, can't move when there's a hard shakiness in his breath and sobs the moment two officers come out of the car.

No

It all moves to fast, Taehyung barely makes out anything behind his sobs when rushes footsteps before him come towards Jeongguk but he can't make out their faces the moment Jeongguk's hands are suddenly pulled behind his back.

No No

"Jeongguk!"

The boxer winces but doesn't remove his hand from the tight grip,

instead Jeongguk mutters a sharp fuck between his breath.

"You're being arrested for assault" One officer resorts in such casual tones. He lashes out to grab his wrist further behind, slapping the cuffs on his wrists without a second to spare when he continues "You're not obligated to say anything, but it may harm your defence if you do not mention when questioned, something which you later rely on in court, and anything you do say may be given in evidence"

But Taehyung can't hear past the ringing in his ears. Between his sobs and Jeongguk's eyes are still on him. Without ever taking his eyes off of Taehyung's face.

Taehyung hates him, Taehyung hates Jeongguk so much when he still looks at him like he's his first priority even while he's getting arrested. When he's the one in trouble.

The car doors open again, and the moment Taehyung shift his eyes to it instead he convinces himself things can't get worse.

But it does the moment he sees Hyun walk out.

Jeongguk's dark eyes instantly turn to him the moment he starts walking closer to Taehyung.

"Stay the fuck away from him!"Jeongguk tone is so dangerous that he doesn't even realize he tries to get out of the officer's grip when rage covers his face.

"Don't move" An officer demands when they pull him back tighter.

Taehyung can't breathe between his sobs "No don't do anything ggukie please!"

"You shouldn't try and move so much Jeongguk" Hyun's voice come from right beside him, eyes solely focused on Jeongguk who clenches his jaw so hard when his hands get tightened further the moment he knows he can't do anything.

"fucking shit!"

"Taehyung don't go near him I swear to god. Fuck!!" Jeongguk curses, his tone indicating that he's not playing around when there's so much rage seeing Hyun anywhere near Taehyung. And once again Jeongguk's dark eyes are on him.

Jeongguk once again doesn't see that he needs to stop caring about him, he can't care about him when he's the one who's being taken away. Taehyung doesn't deserve him, he never deserved someone like him.

"No, no please" Taehyung breaks more into tears when they forcefully nudges him in the direction of the car the moment he doesn't want to leave Taehyung. Pushing him inside.

Taehyung panics, voice broken and raspy from his sobs.

"Jeongguk!"

The world loses all of its sound when the engine disappears, and the echo of everything around him run around the circle until it becomes mute.

Winter is harsh, his fingers are cold, blending into serene, quiet, to quiet- peaceful

Hyun looks at the ballerina who still hasn't moved an inch, teary eyes unfocused as if he's not really there.

"He breaks your heart doesn't he?"  Taehyung stands there staring at the road like Jeongguk might come back.

"Don't worry Taehyung, I will never make you cry like he does" He feels a warm hand trace his back.

Taehyung loves the cold,
Taehyung loves Jeongguk.

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This ch took a while longer to get out since I had to rewrite it again on my phone instead.

I don't know how long i'm gonna make this book since I was surprised it's already at 26!! :o

Either way, before the next ch....I'm sorry in behalf and I love u<3

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