"Hun, come quick. We need to go to Aunt Jo's place, Momma needs to catch the bus on time." You called out to your boy who went back to grab his little teddy what Jimin won for him. You looked at the time and you had one hour to catch the bus, since the stop is not that far from Joanne's place, you knew you could make it even before time.

"Coming Momma." Jae came running like a little duck. You smiled at him but your heart twisted when the place you are going to visit crossed your mind. You wish that you could take Jae with you like you did when he was smaller, but not anymore. You won't be able to handle the questions that will come after it.

"There you are. Did you get everything? No more turning back ok?" You say and he nods humming.

"Ok. Lets go then." You take his hand and steps out of the house. When you got down the stairs, you halted in your tracks and your lips slightly curled down seeing the person who was standing there.

"What are you doing here?" You ask, your brows knitting together.

"I'm not here to fight Y/n. I'm just here to tell you that I give up. You won. Because of you not only I lost my crush but my friend too. I hope you are satisfied by that. That's what you wanted anyways."

"I never intended to come between your friendship Kiya. It's not my fault that you ruined what you had with Jimin. And love is not a game where you can play to have a winner or a loser. It's all matters of heart." You say slightly pushing Jae behind you as her eyes travelled down to Jae briefly before they come up to meet yours.

"Love is a strong feeling Y/n. And I don't think you deserve a person like Jimin. He is been through enough and I really pray that he chose right this time. Hope you will not be another one of those who will ruin him and abandon him. You are an orphan after all. I don't expect you to understand what it's like to have a family and value or make a bond like that. Only if you were loved and taken care of as a child you would know. With you he just gonna feel more lonely." She says and you felt your heart flinch at her words. A sudden pierced pain started to take over you.

"You are wrong Kiya.. You don't know-"

"I hope I'm wrong. I don't have time to chat. I came here to tell you what's stuck in my chest before leaving. Jimin asked me to apologize to you but I really don't wanna do that. But I'll tell you this.. He really do care for you and your kid. He almost fought off the heads in the company to kick off a great opportunity in life but lucky for him our bosses were understanding and there were others who wanted the chance badly. So you better take care of him and fight for him like he fights for you. I'm off to Japan today. Hope never to cross paths with you again." With that said she gave you a pointed farewell look and turned back to get into the taxi that was there which you didn't even notice. You processed what just happened and what she said really hit you hard and upset you. You knew Jimin missed a great opportunity but what matters to you was his happiness. You support in whatever he really wants to do in life. And about family and being loved as a kid... She knows nothing! She don't know me and what I've been through.

"Momma?" Your boy tugged at your hand finally snapping you out of your train of painful thoughts and emotions. You looked down at your boy and a tear stung your eye. No matter how many times I run away and try not to reveal my past. I just always end up getting insults like these. What hurts is that I didn't even choose this life. I never wished to be abandoned as a child. But I sure do know what family is and how to protect and love those bonds.

"Sorry baby. Lets go." You almost quivered but then you cleared your throat and smiled at your boy. He gives a nod when millions of things are running in your head, you moved yourself to go drop Jae at Joanne's place first before heading to your destination for the day. The moment you opened your eyes today morning, you knew that today is going to be a very hard day that will drain you. So all night you've been preparing your heart to face the day but what happened just now was unexpected and you feel drained already making everything hurt your heart.  You didn't know how you will take the rest of the day in but you just went ahead to get it over with.

☆★

Staring at the screen for the fifth time, Jimin watched the call to you go unanswered. It's almost noon and you are still not back home. The last he spoke to you was this morning and you said you will catch the bus soon and be home before noon. Jimin regretted not going with you yesterday but then you insisted on going alone and said it's important. Jimin knew that something was not right but he didn't go to pry. But now he is worried to his gut. His heart has slowly started beating faster than normal thinking about your safety.

The door clicking sound made Jimin whip his head up only to see Jae walking to his living room in fresh clothes after getting cleaned up. "Hey buddy. Are you hungry?" Jimin asks managing a smile at the little one. He didn't want Jae to worry about anything. 

"Mm.. Can we eat Mr. Angel's yummy sandwich?" He asks excitedly.

"You want sandwiches what I made for you last night?" Jimin smiled and Jae gave a quick nod showing how much he loved it.

"Alright bud, I'll make them for you. But can you stay here and watch a cartoon. I'll come fast with your order little sir." Jimin lifts Jae and make him sit on the couch when Jae gave another nod.

"Do you want to watch How to train your dragon part two? You know.. from the one we watched last night." Jimin ask scrolling through the cartoon list.

"There is more?" Jae asks, his little eyes going a bit wide.

"Yup. There is more. Do you like it?" Jimin asks and Jae hum, "I like it."

After Jimin set the movie for Jae, he went back to the kitchen with his phone in his hand. He took out the bread, cheese, ham and the other stuff out to make Jae sandwiches. With so many uneasy thoughts crossing his mind, he started preparing Jae's food. You did sound a bit off even last night and when Jimin asked if everything was alright then you said you were just tired. This is not like you. 

Another hour passed and Jimin started getting restless. He called you again and now for the last thirty minutes its been going to your voice mail. Frustrated, he typed the twenty fourth message.

Jimin : Baby, U are scaring me. Where are u?

The message didn't even get delivered. Sighing he looked up at Jae who had fallen asleep on the couch. He stared at the little one who was sleeping with a pout and the warm feeling eased him a little. Jimin got up and grabbed the little blanket and covered Jae and stroked his head a little. Right after a minute, the door bell rang making Jimin's heart jump. 

He sprinted and hurried over to get the door but as he was reaching it, he wondered why you were ringing the bell instead of coming in like usual. And answer to that is because it was not you who was at the door but Jungkook. Jimin face immediately fell and Jungkook just cocked a brow at him, "Wow.. I didn't know you would be this pleased by my visit." He gave the sarcastic comment and walked passed him to get inside.

"No.. Nothing like that. It's just.. I thought you were Y/n." Jimin sounded low as he followed Jungkook in to the living room.

"Why? Didn't Panda come home yet?" He ask taking in the sleeping boy on Jimin's couch and lowered his voice.

"Not yet. I'm a bit worried. She is not answering her phone and she didn't sound good the last time I spoke to her." Jimin tells his friend unable to keep how he feels in.

"She didn't? That's weird. When I spoke to Vee earlier she told me that she had been talking to Y/n. And this kind of happens. It happened last year too."

"What? What do you mean?" Jimin's brows knitted.

"She would always disappear out of the city few days before Christmas and then come back all moody. I remember because last year it was Vinny and I who took care of champ." Jungkook says picking on the dry skin of his lip as he was thinking about it as well.

"Do you know where she goes?" Jimin asked in an unsure voice.

"No. I tried asking Vinny but all she said is that it's something that Y/n had to do." He says and the two males go silent for a while. Jimin didn't know what's going on but he couldn't just sit and do nothing. So without much thought he pulled his phone out to dial up the person who might know something. "Who are you calling?" Jungkook asks.

"Your girlfriend." Jimin replies flatly and waited. After couple of rings she answered.

"Hey Vee, Jimin. By any chance did you hear from Y/n?" He ask, worry visibly laced in his voice.

"Isn't she home yet?" Vinny asks sounding surprised.

"No.. not yet. Can you tell me if you spoke to her recently?

"What! I just spoke to her about two hours ago. She told me she is almost home and about to go in." Vinny answers and that made Jimin's heart race.

"She said she is almost here? But she never came." Jimin was starting to panic.

"Let me call her and see." Vinny sounded worried too.

"No point. It's going to voicemail. I'll go down and look for her." Jimin was already ready to bolt.

"Ok. But Jimin wait.." Vinny quickly called out before he could hang up. "Yeah?" He spoke impatiently. "N-nothing... Just give her space if she wants some ok." Vinny says carefully. It made Jimin's brows furrow further but he just said he'll talk to her later and hung up to turn to Jungkook who had a very confused look on his face.

"Kook. I don't feel good. I need to find Y/n. Can you please look after Jae till I get back?" Jimin asks and his friend quickly gives a nod. "I'll be here. Go ahead."

Taking long hurried strides, Jimin got to the elevator and pressed the buttons of both elevators. He tapped his feet with hands on hips as he watched the numbers change, it was awfully slow and he didn't have the patience. Fuck it, He thought and head towards the emergency exit. Taking two, three steps at a time he ran down the stairs as fast as he can. Finally making to the lobby, he rushed towards the entrance. When he saw that the friendly guard was on duty today, he hurried over to him and ask if he saw you coming in by any chance. To Jimin's disappointment he said the he didn't see you. 

Stepping out, Jimin first looked in the direction of the park and then towards the byroad. For a second he thought of checking the park thinking you would be there seated somewhere but then he thought checking your home first would be the best at the moment.

Taking the turn his steps changed into a light run over to yours. So many different thoughts crossed his mind, he just prayed that you would be safe and sound. You always answers and reply back but you have been AWOL for several hours. The fact that Vinny spoke to you gave him a little bit of relief but then he wondered why you didn't get back to him. 

As Jimin reached to the top, he punched in the passcode and quickly entered your home. It was dead quiet. For a second he thought you wouldn't be here but then he spotted your bag in the corner. "Love? Are you here?" Jimin called out loudly looking around. When he was about to turn to your room, you stepped out startling Jimin a little. His lips parted with your name, "Y/n"

You looked up at him with hair still wet, eyes red and skin looking a little pale. "Oh baby thank god that you are ok. You scared me." Jimin quickly wrapped you in his arms and let out a deep relieved breath. His heart was finally calming down and he feels at ease. Holding you tighter he placed a kiss to your shoulder. He felt your body shudder and thought he heard a light whimper as if you are in pain but he couldn't be sure because it was gone in a blink.

"What happened? Are you ok? I've been trying to reach you." Jimin pulls away to look at you. He cups your face with both his hands and rubs his thumb over the left cheek and he looked into your sad looking eyes.

"I'm ok. Just wanted to keep my things and shower before coming over. Sorry. I didn't mean to worry you. My phone must be on silent or something." You try to smile but it barely came out. Jimin's forehead creased.

"Did you cry? Why are your eyes red? Did something happen?" Jimin's worry was too visible to ignore. You looked guilty for a second and Jimin could see that you were not being honest right now. You looked away and Jimin dropped his hands from you. 

"No, not really. Just some shampoo got into my eyes while washing. Maybe that's why." You lied, you knew it and Jimin knew it too. But what Vinny said came to his mind. Do you need space now? Is this why you are here? He wanted to ask but he couldn't. You were not ok and he was not going to let you be alone.

"Alright then. Ah.. do.. you want to go or stay here?" Jimin kind of hesitated.

"Lets go. I was going to come over." You say and Jimin gives a nod, his eyes lingering on you for few more seconds. He badly wanted to know what's bothering you and comfort you but suddenly he feels like you are at a distance that he cannot reach.

Jimin watched you walk pass him to grab your shoulder bag and walk to the front door. You turned and looked at him, getting the signal he moved his feet putting away the newly emerged uneasy feeling and confusion away for the time being. You stepped out and Jimin closed the door behind him to catch up to you. He felt at loss of words But once you both got down the stairs, his heart almost jumped when you took his hand and intertwined your fingers with his. Jimin looked down at you and he was surprised to see you looking at him with an emotion that he cannot read. You give a half hearted smile and that tightened Jimin's heart. With no words spoked, he held your hand tightly and walked back to his apartment in silence.    

Later in the night when you all had your dinner, Jungkook returned home after discussing few things with Jimin in private. You didn't seem to mind since your thoughts was somewhere else. Earlier you made small talk and smiled at the things Jungkook and Jae did, but that was it. And right now you were ready to sleep and you looked nervous a bit as you stood on the other side of the counter from where Jimin stood.

"What's wrong?" Jimin asks and you looked up at him.

"I- I just.. Well.. I will be sleeping with Jae for today. If that's ok with you." You say and Jimin's heart twisted. It's not because he didn't want you sleeping with Jae, he totally didn't mind. But ever since you both became intimate, you have been sleeping with him during every sleepovers. And he felt like you had been avoiding him the whole day. And this got him thinking if this behavior is because of him. 

"Y/n, Did I do something wrong by any chance? Is this why you are being distant?" He couldn't help but ask, his eyes showing hurt in them. Your face tightened and eyes grew wide a little.

"No Jimin. Never. Please don't think like that. I'm just very tired and I just want to hold Jae tonight." You say with your mouth while your eyes pleaded him not to ask anything else. Jimin let out a sigh and nodded his head. "Of course you can do that. Anything you want, you can do that Y/n. You don't have to ask from me. But love, you know that I'm also here for you right? You can talk to me anytime." Jimin makes sure that you know that he is there for you always.

"I know." You say and just gave him a better smile than the previous. He knew that you wouldn't say anything more so he just placed the mug he was holding on the counter and rested his hands on the top waiting for your next move. The silence grew and you finally moved towards him. He didn't show it but his heart was beating hundred times more than usual. Once you were close enough, you tilted your head up and kissed his cheek. "Good night Jimin." You say softly and just turned to walk away without waiting for Jimin to say anything. 

What the hell is going on? Jimin's hands gripped the edges of the counter. Feeling frustrated, he walked over to the living room and grabbed his phone which was on the table. He looked at the time and it was almost ten pm. He opened the messenger and started typing a message to your best friend.

Jimin - Vee are you there?

It took couple of minutes but she replied the minute  the message was seen.

Vee - Yea, what's up? Everything alright?

 Jimin - Idk! Y/n is acting different. She looks upset but won't say anything. I'm worried Vee.

Vee - She will come around by morning. Don't worry about it Jimin.

Jimin - What's that suppose to mean? What's going on? Did I do anything wrong that I'm unaware of? 

Vee - No Jimin. It's not you. Trust me.

Jimin - Is it because of the place she went to visit?

Vee - Yes. It's a big part of her past Jimin. She will tell you when she is ready. Please give her some time. 

Jimin sighed reading the last text, he wanted to feel relieved that it's not because of him but he was not. Now knowing the cause he was more worried. He knows how painful it's been for you every time that you had tried to open up. Jimin kept stopping you because he sees a piece of you falling apart when you try. So he didn't want to know. But he was here for you and he wants you to know that.

Jimin - Thnx for letting me know Vee. 

Vee - Np. Just keep an eye on her for the night. Gn Jimin take care of my bestie.

Jimin - Always. Gn Vee.

Jimin tossed his phone to the side of the sofa he was seated on and drops his face to his palms. Groaning a little he pushed his fingers through his hair. You did warn him about these stuff and doubted that he will leave you once he gets to know more about you, but you were wrong. No matter how hard and frustrated it feels, he is going to just stick by your side. 

Jimin had no idea how long he had been sitting there and staring at nothing as he tried to ease himself up for bed. Finally ready to go crash, he got up and switched off the main lights and left the two lamps in the corners on. Before heading to bed, he thought of checking on you and Jae bit. Striding towards the other room, Jimin slowly opened the door and peeked his head inside. His heart flipped seeing you holding Jae to yourself and sleeping without a blanket. You even left the bedside lamp on. 

Worrying that you would catch a cold, he entered the room and covered Jae first and tucked the corners in so that he is warm. Then he walked over to your side and pulled the rest of the blanket over you and tucked your side as well. Leaning forward he placed a kiss to your head and sat there next to you to look at you both for a bit. Jimin's forehead creased when he noticed your brows furrowed and sweat breaking out from you. Your face looked pained. Jimin tried to stroke your head but you just whimpered and shifted. He looked at the bedside table  and found the water jar empty. He knows that you always look for water at dawn. So taking the glass jar from there, he went to the kitchen to fill it up.

When he was walking back, he heard muffled cries and talking. He entered the room only to see you crying in your sleep and saying something, probably having a nightmare. Jimin hurried over and place the jar away before cradling you to his arms. "Y/n? baby."

"No please. Don't!" You started rambling in discomfort.

"Baby wake up. It's just a dream." Jimin tried calling out.

"No No. Don't go. Please. I'm sorry. sorry.." You started to panic in your dreams and Jimin had to shake you making you jerk up and gasp as you snapped out. "Jimin?" You looked scared and Jimin hugged you to him. "Yeah baby, I'm here. It's ok.. It's ok. I'm here. I'm here."

"It's just a bad dream." Jimin soothes and you clung on to him, trying to calm down, still scared. "Jimin." You muffled up your cry. "Shh.. Shh.. it's ok baby. It's me." He tries to comfort you. He watched you slowly look up at him and then at Jae to see if he woke up. There was relief when you saw that he didn't but then the pained expression grew. Your lips curled down and tears pooled in your eyes. But you tried to hold back your cries because of Jae. That lead to a hard time in breathing. Jimin understood what was going on and he couldn't watch it.

He slowly removed the blanket off of you and tucked his arms underneath you to carry you up in bridal style. You didn't protest, you just wrapped your arms around his neck and rested your head on his shoulder. Once Jimin took you to the living room and sat down on the sofa with you on his lap, you opened the flood gates and broke out into a painful cry.

Jimin held you tighter and rocked you in his arms as he warmed you up with his comforting words and soft kisses to your head. Jimin's heart was breaking seeing you like this. He feels so helpless at the moment and didn't know how to ease your pain. It was killing him on the inside. For the first time, he wished if he knew your past and knew what was this about so he could help you through it.  

☆★

The morning came in and the sheets rustling noises and deep breathing next to your ear woke you up. Your head throbbed and your eyes felt sore as you tried to open them when you felt a wiggle in your arms. Blinking few times, you finally fluttered them open and tilted your head down only to see Jae turning in your arms. But the grip you felt around your waist wasn't Jae's. It was Jimin's. You were in his arms, your back to his chest, his warm breath hitting your nape, soundly asleep.

You were in middle of the two guys who you loves the most and literally your life now. This moment warmed your heart but you couldn't remember how you got in here. The last thing you remember was you crying in Jimin's arms till you passed out. You let out a mental sigh when you thought about yesterday. You were hurting and you made Jimin hurt along with you too. You were not in your right mind and you didn't know how to explain it to Jimin. You just hoped you didn't screw up. You just needed a little bit of space. It just got worse unexpectedly because of the sudden visit by Kiya. Her words latched on to you deeply but then you didn't allow it to reach your heart. You just wanted to shake it off along with other things and feelings from yesterday.

Looking around to find a way to get out of the bed, you slowly took out Jimin's hand from your waist before sitting up straight and then slowly moving over Jae to get down from the bed. Luckily none of them woke up and Jae rolled over to Jimin, finding warmth in his sleep and to your surprise Jimin put his arm around Jae and groaned a little but remained asleep.

Tiptoeing around them, you head into the bathroom to freshen up first. After that you straight away head towards the kitchen to make a hearty meal to make up for yesterday. You wanted to let Jimin know that everything was alright and wished for him to not question you.  

Almost an hour passed and you were almost done with the breakfast. You just had to fry some eggs to top off the meal. As you were on it, you heard door clicking sound and light foot steps. In matter of seconds Jimin walked in and stood in front of the counter looking over at you with a bit confused expression. He didn't know how you were and what you were up to. But when you look up at him and give a real smile, his heart tugged. Jimin wasn't sure if he should smile back or not. In fact he couldn't even move because his heart was still feeling uneasy.

Seeing the struggle, you turned off the pan and walked over to him, You locked gaze with him for a brief second before wrapping your arms around him and pull him to a hug surprising him. "Good morning Babe." You say in a much relaxed voice as you hugged him tightly with your face resting on his chest. The uneasiness he felt earlier washed away with this simple hug. He could finally see that you are yourself again. He could feel it, Vinny was right. "Good morning, Love." Jimin pressed a kiss to your head and hugged you back giving the warmth you needed.

"I'm sorry about yesterday. I just needed some time. I know you have a lot to ask but I want you to know that whatever happened yesterday got nothing to do with you. Sorry if I made you uncomfortable. You know that I love you right?" Your doubts and fear was visible in your voice and Jimin didn't hesitate to confirm it for you as he pulled back to look at you while cupping your jaw, "I know. And I love you too. That's why I was worried. Yes.. I do have a lot to ask but I won't. I know you would tell me if you feel that it's important for me to know." Jimin was being sincere.

"Thanks." Was all you could manage to say as your heart warmed up at him. He finally smiles a little at you before he spoke again, "But I want to know about your dreams so when it happens again I won't feel helpless like last night. Do you have them often?"

"No. Not often. Just when I'm overwhelmed. And you don't have to feel like that Jimin. Those are just memories from my past." You give a sad smile and Jimin pressed his forehead against yours knowing that you wouldn't say anything else. So he just gave up on it for the moment.

"How are you feeling now?" He asks changing the subject a little.

"Better since I'm in your arms. But my morning will be great with some energy." You say using his own terms when he needs kisses in the morning. Smiling he brushed his nose against yours and looked at you to find his Y/n back. The glint n your eyes and that playful smirk had returned.

"Want  me to make you some coffee?" He played your card. You just rolled your eyes and pulled him to you to crash your lips against his as you didn't have the patience. You've been missing these lips for 2 days now. He chuckled lightly into your lips but then kissed you back missing you and your lips as much as you did. 


Running away is not always a good option. But right now it seemed safe. Deep down you knew there would be a day that you will be exhausted and cripple before forcing everything out. But it felt unfair to the man you love this much. You mentally decided to let him in on it sooner than later. You just need to prepare for it. 

☆

The school bell finally rang ending the last session of the day. Jae grabbed his bags and waved at Joanne before heading out to get into the school bus. All the kids were gathered and the teacher in charge checked each kid and allowed them to get in the bus. As usual Jae took the one before the last seat where he sat with his friend Han. 

As soon as Han got in, he quickly walked over to sit next to Jae and both the boys giggled as they pulled out their sweet treat packs to exchange. Since Jae's were a pack of gummies he took it out first and Han followed with a pack of pocky sticks. The two boys offered each other their favorites and started their little conversation.

"Today is the last day of school. We will meet again in a new year." Han says and Jae grinned.

"Uhm.. It's holidays. I can't wait for christmas." Jae says excitedly.

"Me too. Gift time. My mom said we will go to grandpas place for christmas."

"Really. My momma said we will be going on a long trip and have lots of fun." Jae says to his friend.

"That's cool. My dad told me he will buy me whatever I want. He is the best and I love him so much." Han says and Jae pouts a little.

"My Mr. Angel said I can have anything I want too. He is also the best and he loves me and my momma too." Jae says on instinct.

"But is he your dad or is he your uncle?" Han asks and Jae's little brows knits together.

"He is Mr. Angel. My momma's Prince." Jae says cluelessly as his little brain could only gather that much.

"That's different then. Dad is different." Han says munching on a pocky.

"How?" Jae asks curiously.

"Dad is family. Dad always plays with me. We go shopping together. We watch cartoon. We eat and sleep together. He also kisses mom on lips and kiss me and my sister. Dad is only mine and only me and my sister can call him dad." Han tries to explain the things he knows and Jae's eyes sparkles as he wonders.

"Mr. Angel do them all. He even kisses my momma a lot and tell us that we are his. And he is ours. So Mr. Angel can be my Dadda?" The boy exclaims looking excited as he eyes his friend.

"Hmm.. I think so. If not you can ask for a dadda for Christmas. Since you are a good boy Santa will give you a dadda." Han says and Jae nods his head vigorously, his lips spread ear to ear.

"Yes. I want Mr. Angel to be my dadda."  My gift is decided. The little one thought and wiggled his legs while counting days till Christmas. 

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