Trying to find the strength to get up anymore seems incredibly difficult. Ever since we left the cemetery, I haven't been able to do much at all. I haven't gone to work, I haven't left the house and I am always crying. The tears never seem to stop, even in my sleep. Sleep though is something I do a lot of because I see my family in my dreams and it doesn't hurt. I don't feel like I'm alone in the world when I'm sleeping. 

Everyone who was here besides Altan had left a few days ago. They all have their own lives which I understand completely. I didn't expect them all to drop everything to be here with me for the rest of my life. My amazing siblings and friends have helped a lot even if they don't truly realize it. Once I'm a bit better I'll do something for them to show them I appreciate them and all they have done. 

My mates on the other hand have been trying to be there for me as best as they can. There is always one with me, except when I go to the bathroom or I take a nap. They are the best mates anyone could ever ask for. Dallas and his sweet soul had talked to me about seeking help at the hospital but it's only been a few weeks and everyone grieves differently so I made a promise to him that if I'm not better in a couple of more weeks, like going out on a walk or even to the store than I'll get help. He understood of course and since, he's mainly been the one who's been around me the most. 

Gaelen and Bradford have gone to work. Gaelen has found a job at the local college to coach football and help be a team doctor. His dream of playing professionally can't necessarily happen since he hurt his knee pretty badly so he's doing the next best thing for him. Bradford works at a studio helping produce music which he's awesome at. He's had me listen to some of his work and he's talented. I love listening to my mates talk about their jobs. Their smiles brighten up my dark days more than the sun.

I want to go back to work because I miss it so much and my co-workers, so I'm determined to go back as soon as possible. My co-workers have even come by to see me and tell me they miss me and want me back. What happened to my family has affected a lot of people so they understand my need for time but as I said before, life goes on and well daddy wouldn't want me to give up and not live my life. A life he's worked so hard for and fought for so I'd have nothing to worry about.

I got a call from some man the other day wanting to meet up with me at his office and so I went and it was a lawyer. Daddy had a life insurance policy which I knew nothing about but it makes sense since he was human and doesn't live a very long life like we do so I wasn't shocked he had one. What shocked me was the amount it was for. See daddy was smart and got a policy for him, Zane, and uncle Austin and one way or another he had me and Zane the beneficiaries so since I'm the only one still alive, all the money went to me. 

I honestly felt sick seeing the amount because no amount of money can ever be enough for their lives but it's how life is and I plan on using some of that money to open some kind shelter for shifters. It's just an idea so I don't have any details as of yet on what to do with it but I'll make sure it's up to daddy's standards. I just hope he's not disappointed in me right now for how I've been, I don't want to let him down. 

“Ryker?” Dallas's sweet voice called my name and I looked to see him standing in the doorway to the patio and smiled at him.

“Hey there, beautiful.” I said and patted the empty spot beside me and he walked over to sit down.

“How are you?” He asked and I softly kissed his cheek and wrapped my arms around him and he laid his head on my chest.

“I'm ok. You don't need to worry so much about me. If I wasn't ok I would tell you I promise. How are you?” He looked up at me and I got lost in his beautiful eyes that made my heart flutter and I gently touched his jaw up to his ear and back down to his bottom lip. He took in a sharp breath and slowly closed his eyes so I leaned down and kissed him softly, just barely touching his lips until he put his hand on the back of my head and pulled me closer to his lips and kissed me. 

The kiss was full of passion and I was getting really turned on. He knew how to use that tongue and work those lips of his. He shifted himself so he was now sitting on me and was touching any part of me his hands could find.

“How I am is I'm horny and I want you.” He breathed against my lips before kissing me again with much more hunger than before and gosh if I wasn't gonna break and take him right now. 

“Your wish is my command.” I growled out and he gasped looking at me and noticed Leo was at the front of my mind with me and I knew it was time to complete the bond with Dallas. I have a lot of pent up sexual frustration from all these years and with Dallas, things have gone great from the start so I want to do this with him first, alone.

“Really?” He asked and I nodded. He smiled and reached behind him and took something out of his pocket and I chuckled when I was the lube. He was prepared for this it seems.

“I'm also clean, I got tested a few weeks ago.” He said as to explain why he didn't have a condom but I won't get anything being a shifter and he can't get pregnant so no need for one.

“That's ok, we don't need one anyway. Are you prepared for this or do you need to go do that?” 

“Oh baby I'm ready, I did that already so I'm ready for the taking now get on with the taking.” He demanded and fuck if that wasn't hot.

I took his clothes off, leaving him bare on the couch. He looked so fucking beautiful lying there naked with the sun setting in the background casting a beautiful hue of color against his flawless skin. 

“Goddess you're beautiful.” I whispered looking at the amazing man who was blessed to me. 

“Get naked with me.” I stood up from the couch and I took a deep breath and took my shirt off but before I could unbutton my jeans Dallas was on his knees in front of me kissing my chest and gently touching my belly and back, making sparks go off from his soft touches and kisses.

I looked down and he looked up and smiled as he unbuttoned my jeans and slowly slid them down my body, leaving me in my briefs. I was a little nervous to be honest when he saw me naked and I knew he could see it. That's why he's taking his time because he knows me so well it seems. He kissed my erection through my briefs and my breath hitched. I never had done this before, only my hands have ever touched my body so this is all new and the feelings are a little overwhelming. 

Dallas took his time in placing kisses and moving his hand to stroke me as best he could with the cloth in his way but he managed to get me so fucking horny I was close already. 

“Dallas, please suck my dick.” I begged when I was almost to the edge and my body was trembling for more than skin on cloth contact. I wanted skin on skin or mouth on skin right now.

“Do you trust me?” He asked and I instantly nodded and so he stopped and had me lay down and he got between my legs and took my briefs off but he kept looking into my eyes as he did. He smiled at me and leaned down to kiss me as he stroked me again and he slowly made his way down my body. He licked and sucked on my sensitive nipples, placed kisses on my pecs, my abs and licked around my belly button before he kissed the tip of my thick length that was dripping cum for his tongue to taste. 

I could also feel I was soaking wet from all this and Dallas kept looking up at me as his mouth went down my length and his other hand went down further between my legs and his finger found my wet hole and I moaned. My eyes rolled to the back of my head as he pushed his finger in and kept sucking me. I couldn't help how my body jerked from the pleasure and the moans that came out of my mouth. He found my fucking g spot and curled his fingers and kept touching it as he sucked me and I swear I saw the Goddess herself when I came and I roared loudly as I felt my body reach new heights. Cum flooded Dallas's mouth and some leaked out because it was a lot and I wanted more, so much more. 

I was still hard as a rock and the next thing I know, Dallas is on top of me and sinking down on me and I had to hold myself back because I was still so sensitive and he felt amazing wrapped around me. 

“Oh God!” Dallas moaned when he was all the way down, his plump ass resting on my body and his beautiful cock hard and ready to be touched. 

“Do with me as you wish, I'm yours baby.” Leo said and Dallas shivered so bad from that command his body moved on its own and he started riding me and took control of our mating for the time being. 

He kept a semi slow pace at first to get used to me and once he was comfortable, boy did he fuck me like I never imagined. His movements were spectacular and his body was so sexy on top of me, lost in the pleasure we both felt. His tight body flexed with each movement and the vein in his neck was begging for my mark and I felt Leo wanting to mark his gorgeous mate. 

Leo took half control and sat up so fast taking Dallas by surprise and laid him down and I entered Dallas and gosh if this position isn't even better. Seeing Dallas exposed to me like he was, his hard cock bunching with each fast hard thrust, his arms and legs going every which way, his moans, the way his eyes were filled with lust and desire for me made me want to please him beyond his wildest imagination. 

I felt I was getting even closer so I wrapped my hand around my mate's cock and stroked him hard and fast and when I felt his cum, I released inside him and leaned down to lay my mark upon his neck and once my teeth sank into his flesh, a warmth overcame me and I came again. The taste of his blood was like a drug, the feel of his emotions was the high and I loved how his heart now beat along with mine, the same fast love filled rhythm. I removed my teeth and licked the mark to help heal it and once I did, Dallas was hard again. 

“I love you mate.” He said looking up at me, all spent and looking so beautiful. 

“I love you too mate.” I replied and trusted in him again. 

We made love and fucked on that couch for a few more hours before heading to the shower to have sex there and we ended up on our bed. 

I didn't imagine that mating with Dallas was going to be how the day ended but I was so beyond happy right now lying with him in my arms as he slept, wrapped up in my love.