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Make it hard for me to love again
Oh, where do I start and when do you end?
Even if I tell myself I can
I know that I'll break before I can bend, yeah

Every time I think I've found somebody
I just wish that somebody was you
There's no way that someone else could make me ever
Feel the same way that you do
No one compares to you
Nobody compares to you - No one compares to you by Jack and Jack

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You are that part of me that I will always need

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The show ended soon, thankfully the bitchy host didn't ask any more awkward questions as she was busy staring at Xavier. I didn't even bother telling her anything, and neither did Xavier it seemed like he enjoyed his time with her very much as he didn't say anything to her when she was keeping her hands all over his body. We were now going to our Hotel.

"Good show, by the way, no one would suspect that we aren't in love they'll think that we are lovers. I didn't know that you could lie so easily."

"What can I say? I have changed over the years I am not the same innocent girl that you met, thanks to you." I said in an emotionless

Before he could say anything my phone rang and my heartbeat stopped, colours from my face vanished when I saw the name. Dad. I continued staring at the phone screen hoping that the call would end.

"Are you going to pick up your phone or not?" Xavier asked in an irritated voice snapping me back to reality.

I slowly picked up the call. "Hey Dad," I said it in a fake cheerful manner which I bet dad would definitely know.

"Hey, pumpkin." He said it in the same fake cheerful voice there was a long pause then, "MAY I KNOW WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU DOING WITH THAT DE ANGELIS BOY AND WHY DID I SEE AN INTERVIEW STATING THAT YOU ARE ENGAGED TO HIM AND THAT YOU DATED HIM BEHIND MY BACK?!!!!"

"Ben calm down honey. She will explain don't yell at her like that call her home right now." I heard my mom's sweet and calm voice from behind. "I want you and that bastard in my house right now."

"Yes, dad. I am s-" Before I could say anything he ended my call. " We have to go to my parent's house now." He just nodded and continued driving. I am so glad that he didn't push the matter further.

After a few minutes we were there. I don't how but he knew my parents' house. The security guard opened the gates on seeing me and he pulled the car over.

"How do you know that my parents live here?" I said as I got out of the car. "The great Benjamin Clinton has been living here for the last 25 years, so I know that this is your parents' house." He said as he came face to face with me.

"By any circumstances, if you accidentally spill out of emotions that our marriage is fake it won't be good for your company Andrea" he whispered in my ears, touching his lips to my ear lobes and then he looked at me and pushed behind my hair strand. He brought his large hand towards my face and caught my small chin in his hand, tilting it and then he left a long kiss on my right cheek.

I looked at him and his eyes showed no emotion at all, they were the same stormy grey. I looked at the entrance of the house and saw my dad standing there, fuming with anger.

He kissed my checks because he saw my father, just for act and nothing else.

He held out his hand for me to take it and I reluctantly took it and gave him a small smile.

We went towards the entrance and dad went in the second he saw us. We walked inside, hand in hand. Dad was sitting on the couch, glaring at our hands, I tried to remove it but Xavier didn't let me.

Mom came in and saw us. 'You are here? Oh my god, I missed you so much, Aubrey." She came towards me and hugged me. "Don't worry he won't kill him maybe?" She whispered in my ears.

"Maybe?" I whispered shouted. Mom pulled away and smiled. "Why don't you guys sit down."

"I don't want him to sit on my couch." "Mr Clinton" "I don't want to speak to you. Aubrey why? Why didn't you tell me that you dated this boy behind my back?"

"I-" I tried to speak but no words came out. Xavier's dad and my dad had a history, a bad one which I had no clue about.

"If this is about my father sir, I don't like him either, I hate him for what he did and I will never forgive him, I promise you I am nothing like him."

"You are still his blood and I don't want that man's son to marry my daughter," Dad said glaring at him.

"Dad please don't do this to me." I begged him, the one thing I would only do for my parents, I can't just let my father hate me because of Xavier.

"Don't do this to you? Aubrey just yesterday I found out that our company had gone bankrupt and the very next day I get to know that my daughter is getting fucking married to the son of the man I hate the most? And now he has half of our company?"

"Dad I love him." He scoffed. "You love him? Does he love you or our company? Did he blackmail you to marry him? You don't have to do this for the company Aubrey! Is that's the case? I have plenty of money that I have saved, we can start the company from dust again." "No dad it's not about the company and no he didn't blackmail me, I love him, dad." I said as tears ran down my cheeks. I hate lying to my father. Xavier drew circles on hand with his thumb as I tried to wipe away the tears.

"They killed my mother in front of me and I will never forgive my father for it, Sir." He said looking stare into my father's eyes. His eyes were devoid of any emotions, even when he said out loud what was haunting him forever.

"What?" My father whispered. My mom quickly went towards his side and rubbed his back.

"That bastard didn't tell you that they had kidnapped me with her and made me watch her die in front of my eyes when I was just five and I sat there and watched her die in front of my eyes and I felt worthless, I couldn't help her. I just sat there and silently watched them kill her. Do you think that I will ever forgive my dad for doing so? First of all, he cheated on her and then because he couldn't fucking pay the money, we were kidnapped because of him. And that piece of shit didn't even care about us, it was my friend's family who found me in the warehouse." Adrian's family.

I saw Xavier's hand forming a fist, and it was shaking, ready to punch anyone. His jaws were clenched and his anger was clearly visible in his eyes and his voice. I quickly grabbed his hand and moved my palms up and down his suit sleeve, hoping that I will be able to calm him down, praying that the effect that I had on him hadn't vanished.

"Sir I love your daughter, I always have and I always will, I will never do what my father did to my mother. I am a very selfish man, I have been away from the love of my life for two years, I couldn't handle it anyway more, I have waited for too long, this time I will not let anything come in between us. I am going to be selfish this time and marry her with or without your permission."Xavier said looking straight into my father's eyes. Man, that guy has guts.

"I want to talk to you alone," Dad said without sparing Xavier any chance to answer and went towards his office.

I looked at him and he gave me a nod and followed Dad. Mom gave out a sharp sigh.

I turned towards mom and said, "Mom why does Dad hate Xavier's dad?"

Mom sat on the couch and I followed her doing the same.

"Your father and Xavier's mother were best friends and even his dad. Your father knew Rosaline since they were kids. Marco met your dad and Rose during high school, and he fell in love with Rosaline. Your dad was happy that his best friend had finally found someone that loves her, she was his best friend, his sister, he loved her so much and wanted nothing but the best for her. I mean who wouldn't she was always so cheerful and happy. But then when we were in university Marco messed with the wrong people and use to come home with bruises. Rosaline was always worried about him as he used to come at night late. He slowly started pushing everyone away, including Ben and Rosaline. When she tried to be there for him to ask him what is wrong, he would start yelling at her. It went on for days and then after weeks Ben and I notice bruises around her wrist, we asked her what happened but she never told us though it was too obvious. Ben was ready to kill him but then she told us that she was pregnant with his child." Tears trickled down mom's cheek. I gave her a side hug as she laid her head on my shoulder.

"He was happy when he heard that she was pregnant and everything was going fine. He left everything for her and got his life back together and was the CEO of the second-best company, but then again something happened and his company was about to go bankrupt, as he had owed many people and he was not able to repay them. Ben said that he could help him but he refused to take his help."

"Your dad and I were in Europe, for his business trip, and you were with your Aunt. I insisted that we should go and help him but Ben had a very important deal there in Europe which he was working hard for months to get it. Once his work was done we went straight to Marco's house only to met with Roseline's funeral." She burst out into tears. I rubbed my hand against her back.

"Shh, Mom it's okay." "No, it's not Aubrey. Your father always blamed himself for what happened, for years he had nightmares about it for years." She wiped her tears and looked at me, "He didn't know Aubrey that what had happened to Xavier, he is just mad at Macro and thought that his son is the same, but the way he looked at you and was ready for wait for you, shows that he really loves you and would never let anything to happen to you." If only she knew.

We heard muffled footsteps and got up, mom quickly wiped her tears. Dad came in with a small smile on his face. He looked at me and extended his hands and ran there and hugged him tightly.

"I am so sorry pumpkin. I trust Xavier and you can marry him, you have my full permission." He while running his hand over my hair.

"Thank you, dad." "I have made dinner, let's eat," Mom said with a smile.

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The dinner was good, we were mostly talking about business when mom cut us off and asked about the wedding.

"Uhmm we haven't decided the dates yet, but we will have it in two months."

"TWO MONTHS?! That's too soon we have to start preparing from tomorrow."

"Mom don't stress yourself, I will handle it." "Yeah right, I am calling Maddie and I am going to start the preparation, I won't hear a single thing from you." I rolled my eyes and huffed, "Fine"

We finished our dinner and were about to leave.

"Take care of her Xavier, if I found out that there is an even a single bruise on her body because of you I will have your head."

"Yes Sir" "Call me father," Dad said and extended his hand. Xavier smirked and took dad's hand, shaking it. "I take care of her Father." "Hey, I can take care of myself."I huffed and folded hands against my chest. "Sure princess." I glared at him.

I hugged Mom and Dad for the last time and kissed their cheeks.

"I am coming to New York in two weeks we will start the preparation." Mom said as I hugged her. I nodded and gave her a smile.

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We sat inside the car and left for the hotel.

"Thank you, Xavier, for what you did today" I said as I kept my hand on his knees in a friendly way but then I released that it looked bitchy so I removed it but he quickly grabbed my wrist and said, "I didn't do it for you if your father had found out that we are married just for your benefit and I was using you then I wouldn't get any business deals if the wise old Benjamin said anything in the business world about me." He said harshly as his grip grew tighter on my wrist. He looked at me with hatred as he released my wrist. I looked away, towards the window. Was he really using me?

Why does he keep doing this? He says things which makes me believe that the Xavier that I loved, was still there somewhere there inside but then he says things which makes me hate him even more.

The whole ride we didn't say anything to each.

He pulled over to one of his hotels. He got out and walked towards the hotel leaving me in the car. I eventually got out and walked towards the reception.

The hotel was filled with many people and Hollywood stars, I guess that there is an important event here. I have been to this hotel before, it was the same extravagant and spacious modest Hotel, having a huge crystal chandelier in the middle. I continued admiring the beauty of the hotel when I saw Xavier near the reception desk. He turned behind and saw me. "Babe, you are here, I have the room ready let's go." I smiled and nodded. He came towards me and wrapped his arm around my waist as we neared the elevator.

Within in seconds, it was there. The elevator opened and I saw two people wait is that- "OH MY GOD!!!! AUBREY!!!" Natalie an old friend of mine said.

I went inside, "Hey Natalie how are you?" "Oh, so you do remember me?"She said sarcastically.

"Hey don't blame it on me you are always here in LA you never come to New York and you are always busy this man," I said pointing at her husband who was a famous singer along with her.

He smirked at me and I gave him a smile.

"Yeah whatever but how did you decide to bless LA with your presence?"She said with a curious voice but then she saw Xavier and her eyes widened. "WAIT YOU ARE ENGAGED TO HIM RIGHT?" "Babe calm down," Chris said

"Bitch you have some explaining to do, there is a party here and you are coming with me." She said and the lift dinged, stopping at a floor. The door opened revealing a massive party. She pulled me out of the lift. " I will call you," I said to Xavier as the door shut leaving a very confused Xavier inside.

Many people were there with a band performing on stage and people dancing.

"So you are finally able to be with him." She smirked.

"Yeah," I said and she continued dragging me, now towards the bars. "Two Vodka," She said and the bartender gives us the two shots immediately. "To you finally settling down." She said as we raised your glasses and clicked them together and drank it in a single shot. This is what I needed now after all the things that are happening. I never even imagined at that my company would go down and I would be marrying Xavier my ex who I still liked after all these years. You know what fuck it I don't wanna do anything with him for even thinking about him.

"Two more," I said and went on drinking, three more, No wait two no definitely four.

"Let's dance," Natalie said as she slammed her glass on the table after taking a huge shot.

"You have don't have to tell me twice," I said, this time dragging her towards the dance floor.

I swayed my hips as I went towards the dance floor, with my hands hanging in the air.

Someone grabbed my hand and twirled me causing me to almost lose my balance and hug the floor when he put his arm around my waist preventing me to hug the floor. He is so mean I wanted to hug the lonely floor.

He pulled me up causing my lips to almost touching his lips, thankfully it didn't. I looked at him, he had gorgeous green eyes but I loved greyish blue eyes more.

A smirked formed on his lips and he whispered, "You know sweet cakes I was watching you the whole time since you stepped in this room and I was going to come towards you but it struck me that you are the famous Aubrey Clinton, which made me back off but then I saw your fiance Xavier staring at your ass from far of and he didn't make any move so I decided to make a move. I can literally feel his eyes on us, from here itself." He said as he looked at me.

"I am Richard by the way and I am gay, so I am not interested in you, I just wanted to piss off that sexy ass of your fiance." I chuckled.

"I guess I have to go now unless you want to be murdered," I said and giggled.

"I hope that we meet soon Aubrey," He said as walked back facing me and he soon disappeared into the crowd. I tried to look for him but I wasn't able to find him. I gave up and turned around only to meet with a hard wall. Wait There wasn't a wall here before.

I looked up to see the familiar grey stormy eyes.

He grabbed my wrist and pulled me out of the massive party. The elevator was already on the floor, he pressed the button and the doors opened and he pushed me towards the one corner.

"What the fuck were you doing with that guy." He said placing his hands on the wall preventing me from escaping.

"Nothing," I said innocently. He punched the metal wall causing me to flinch which he noticed and he quickly removed his hands and at the same time, the door of the lift opened.

Xavier went out first and I followed him like a lost puppy. He unlocked the door revealing a pretty large. I removed my heels which were killing my feet. And I went inside towards the bedroom.

The bed was large and I dropped on the bed. It was so soft and comfy.

"What are you doing?" Xavier said in an irritated tone as he came inside the room with his coat removed. "I am sleeping," I said as I shifted upwards towards the headboard of the bed.

"First of all you are not sleeping on my bed, and secondly don't sleep in those clothes." I quickly crossed my legs when he said that.

"I don't have any other clothes." He rolled his eyes and went towards the closet and removed a white shirt. I raised my eyebrows, "You want me to wear that?" "Yes?" "Okay." I started stripping totally forgetting that Xavier was there in the room. "Change your clothes in the bathroom."

"Why are you scared that you won't be able to resist yourself."

"Stop imagining things which I will never do to you I have already told you that I have seen better things."

"Yeah, whatever," I said trying to cover my hurt voice, drunk or sober, his words hurt the same way.

I went inside the huge bathroom and changed, leaving my clothes there. I washed my face with cold water trying to sober myself.

I came outside and saw Xavier on the call and then he looked at me, shamelessly moving his eyes all over my body. "Cazzo!! I will call you later." He said in his thick Italian accent.

I cleared my throat and he looked at me and I saw his eye turning dark grey with lust.

"I am sleeping on the bed and you are sleeping on the couch, don't even think about sleeping on the same bed as me."

"Absolutely not you. I am sleeping on the bed and you get yourself drunk ass to the couch. This is my room, so I will sleep here and why do you always think that I am going to do things to you? There is a reason why I left you." His words made me completely sober and I went towards the couch with tears trickling down my cheeks.

I went towards the couch and saw a blanket already kept there. I took it and went off to sleep blinking away the tears.

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"NO!!!! DON'T DO THAT TO HER!!!!" I gasped and woke up at the loud voice. Xavier. I quickly went towards his room.

"NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!" He screamed as he gripped the sheets together, I went towards him and saw his shirtless body covered with sweat.

"Xavier," I said moving him. "Nooo don't do this to her she is my mother."He whispered. He was having nightmares again.

"Xavier" I moved him again. He didn't say anything. I moved the blanket and sat beside him and took his head on my lap. "NOOOOOOOOOOOO" He screamed again and he got up causing me to flinch. He didn't even release that he had gotten up as he was still whispering a continuous no under his breath.

I rubbed my hand against his arm and placed his head on my shoulder. "Hey it's okay" I whispered in his ears. "But mom" "It's okay I am here, "I said as I slowly went backwards till my back hit the soft mattress. "It's okay," I said as I ran my hand over his hair.

He hugged my waist and slept peacefully and I drift off to sleep.

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"WHAT THE FUCK ARE DOING IN MY BED!!!!!!!!!" I heard a loud noise. I slowly blinked my eyes and tried to comprehend what was going on. Party-Me getting drunk- Xavier saying things to me- Xavier having a nightmare-and I was comforting him. But why? I saw the clock and looked at it. It was 5:30 a.m. it's too early to have a fight with him. I looked at his fuming face and just pulled the blanket over my face.

He pulled the blanket down exposing my naked legs. I quickly pulled down the my-his shirt. I huffed and sat on the bed. "What do you want Xavier? It's 5 freaking 30 what do you want?" I said as I rubbed my eyes.

He sarcastically chuckled, "What do I want? What the fuck are you doing in MY bed? You were the one saying don't think about this don't think about that when you being the whore that you are, you literally came and slept with me in the bed? That's how really low you have stooped down?" He said as he came near me making sure that I heard each and every word which he said.

I slapped him hard on his left cheek, causing it to echo.

"You know what?!! I don't even fucking know why the fuck did I even agree to marry you. You know Xavier I thought that you cared about me a little by convincing parents but no you had to say things to me. If you really want me to hate you then why did you even fucking tell me to marry you in the first fucking place? I don't really fucking get you and your mood swings. And this is the third time that you are calling me a whore. Do you really think that I purposely came and slept beside you? Why the fuck would you think that? I am not that desperate and especially not for you. You were having a fucking nightmare and I heard you scream that's why I came to check up on you." HIs emotions quickly changed from anger and softened a bit but then again he was angry again.

"And you know why because deep down though I really hate you though you say all the awful things to me I still care about you."

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Author's Note:

Someone give an award for writing 4200 words. I never freaking thought that I would be able to write 4200 words but I did.

Anyways, how was the chapter? *wiggling my eyebrows* I swear Xavier fucks up every time, in this chapter he was on his meriods.

Anywhoooo I will update the next chapter next Saturday.

Until then,

Stay Tuned!!!!