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He's out of his head, I'm out of my mind

We got that love, the crazy kind

I am his and he is mine

In the end, it's him and I, him and I

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"Yeah, nice try, Aubrey,"

"I am dead serious Adrain, I have two kids."

"WHERE?HOW? WHAT THE HELL?!!!  AM I AN UNCLE?"

"Yeah," I whispered. "They are twins, Lucca and Archer," I said with a smile. "One is like a little devil and one is they are the opposite but they are inseparable,"

"I WANNA MEET THEM RIGHT NOW- wait whose the father?"

"Xavier,"

"He doesn't know does he?" He said stating the obvious. 

"Of Course, he doesn't know, I am pretty sure that he won't even believe that they are his. You are the first person that I told in years," 

"What about your mom and dad?" I shook my head no. "Who else knows?" "Only Maddie and two people who helped me raise them," I muttered. 

"Why didn't you tell me, Aubrey?" He said suddenly raising his voice. 

"I didn't want to tell anyone Adrain, I didn't want to be around anyone. It was my own decision and after everything that happened I didn't want to raise any necessary suspension and make Xavier think weird shit, I needed a break from everyone from my family and from that environment. I didn't want to cause unnecessary stress that would have complicated my pregnancy," 

"So we are just unnecessary stress for you now?" "Adrain-" 

"Okay I get it you wanted to space and time. How old are they? " "2 years and 8 months," I whispered not meeting his eyes.  "You took 3 freaking years to tell me you have two fucking children Aubrey? REALLY?"

"You have to tell him, Aubrey, right now," He said with anger. 

"I thought you were on my side Adrain," "I thought we don't keep something this big from each other."

"I am not telling Xavier till I am ready,"  I said with the same. 

"When is that going to be, another 3 years or till they become 18? You need to be there for them Aubrey, You can't just fucking make them stay away from you because you are fucking scared of Xavier,"

"I am not scared of him Adrian but he is so fucking unpredictable god knows what goes through his head, I don't want to fight with him again for custody, to be honest, I don't think they will believe that they are his. And I made this decision after thinking about it a lot, at that time it felt that I was doing the right thing Adrain, trust me, they are the best thing that has ever happened to me I will tell Xavier eventually not now when were are in a freaking contract marriage."

"I don't give a shit if you guys are in a contract marriage Aubrey, you have no idea how it feels when your child is separated from you, worse you don't even know that you have one. By keeping them thousands of miles away you claim that you love them, Aubrey?"

"Mind your fucking tongue, Martini." He exhaled knowing this conversation isn't going anywhere. 

"He will what can happen Bre? He will yell and scream and throw a tantrum, and he has every right to do so, You didn't have the right to keep it from him,"

"Any right Adrain have you lost it? He fucking thinks I cheated on him with you. HE DOESN'T LOVE ME OR TRUST ME AND YOU WANT ME TO TELL HIM THAT HE HAS TWO CHILDREN WITH ME? HOW THE FUCK DO THINK HE WILL REACT?"

 He stayed silent. I just scoffed and walked out. 

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After fighting with Adrian again, I decided to stay at a hotel as I didn't have any mood with a fight with Xavier by going back and I didn't know what to say to him, a part of me wants to tell him the truth but I don't think I can trust him anymore. 

I stayed in the hotel the whole day, working on the depending work, I didn't talk to Hailee about Lily or Adrian as I could read from her face that she was still disturbed and she needed her space. 

I heard a knock at my door. I opened it thinking it was the room service but I saw Adrain at the door. I immediately gripped the door and tried to slam it in his face but he put his foot inside, preventing the door from closing. 

"I am sorry Aubrey I know I didn't have any right to say that, I was just so mad at you for keeping something so big and important from me. I can't even imagine what all you had gone through at that time, I am so sorry." I didn't say anything and ignored him, trying to remove his foot from the door. 

"I will support you no matter what decision you take. But as someone who has gone through this, I think you should tell Xavier, he will find out sooner or later, I am pretty sure that even Archer and Lucca don't want to live thousands of miles away from their amazing mother,"

"Amazing? I am the worst mother ever," I said as I finally let go of the door, inviting him inside. 

"You are not Aubrey, I can't even imagine what all you had to go through, I am so proud of you for doing everything,"

I broke down into tears and I told him everything, how I had to shift to Melbourne, how they both are premature babies and I was shit scared as I thought that I was almost going to lose them. Both of us ended up crying and comforting each other. 

"Enough about me now, when can I meet my niece?" I said sniffing. 

 "About that," He said as he sighed.  "Hailee doesn't want to directly introduce me to Lily's life, after she was in the hospital I tried my best to comfort her, but she didn't even want me to be around, I was hella pissed and that was when I called you, I still didn't give up, I still chase her every day. She finally said that she will allow me to see Lilly but she said she wants me to first be around her, build a bond with her and then tell her that I am her father,"

"I think that's reasonable and it will make it easier for Lily," 

"What are you going to do with Hailee though," I said wiggling my eyebrows at which he chuckled. "She is a tough one, she made it pretty clear that she wants us to co-parent and that she wants to be single and nowhere near me." 

"What do you want," I asked. "I want her with me as my partner, during the past two weeks, have been absolute bliss for me, I was much happier, I was getting enough inspiration  for my book and I was able to be myself with her and Lily but I want to first fix what I have with her and slowly build her trust and make sure that she knows that I am not leaving her side again,"

 "Look at you all grown up now, "I smiled and patted his head, messing his hair up.

" I have a photo shoot to attend, don't mess around with my hair," "When is it?" He looked at the clock and his eyes went wide.

 "Fanculo," He said and got up immediately.  

{fuck}

"I will see you later, and Aubrey please think about Lucca and Archer, they have to meet their father." I nodded. 

" I will tell him soon, just give me some time, I have to fix my mess and confront him, and try to get a stable relationship back, it's messing up my own children's lives and I can't let that happen,"

"I am sure that everything might work out well."

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I arrived back at Xavier's house, feeling drained out. I had changed back to the only clothes that I had.  I went towards the kitchen to get a glass of water before I could finally crash on my bed peacefully. As I poured myself a glass of water, I could hear his footsteps behind me. I exhaled, this is going to be a long night, again. 

Xavier, I don't have the energy or the will to start a fight with you. I don't care if you think I am cheating you with someone. Just please leave me alone." I said.

"Andrea I-"  "Should I say it in Italian so that it will register in your brain? I am in no mood to deal with you right now. You can accuse me of whatever bullshit you want tomorrow so that you can spoil my entire fucking mood. That would make you happy won't it?" I said not turning around hoping that he would leave me alone. 

"I am sorry Andrea, I am sorry," He said and I felt his hands wrapping around my waist. I immediately removed his hands and turned to face him. 

"Sorry for what Xavier? For cheating on me or for pretending to be in love with me when you didn't want to be with me? " 

I could smell a faint smell of alcohol on his breath. 

"Are you drunk?"

"Was," He said as if that was a better answer. 

"Can we just forget about this all and move on Andrea?" 

I laughed. I laughed like a manic. He gave me a weird look but I was furious. 

"Move on, really Xavier? After all the shit that happened, now that you know the truth that it was you who fucked up, you wanna fucking move on? And all this whole when you thought that I was the one who was cheating on you behind your fucking back you made me go through hell and you want me to move on from that? You gave up on us just like that. "

"You were the one who didn't stop me, Andrea. You just let me go just like that." He said as if his side was even better.  The audacity that he has to say that. 

"So you were expecting me to stop you after the stunt you pulled? After everything that you did there? Humiliating me and proudly claiming that yes I am the one who cheated on my girlfriend. You wanted me to stop after that." 

"You took his fucking side." 

"Of course, I took his side Xav, it was his freaking birthday and you punched his freaking nose, what did you want me to do? Congratulate you for breaking his nose? And you were the one who broke my trust and believed a stranger over me."

"Do you think I didn't think of that, I didn't want to trust some stranger over the love of my life Andrea. I-" 

"But you fucking did Xavier, You did trust a stranger over me and that showed me how much you believe in me and your best friend."

"Everything was working against you Andrea, when I helped Adrian instead of me I thought I would let you guys be happy and interfere with you guys."

"Fucking interfere? Xavier, have you lost it?"

"I told her to get up from her lap thinking that it was her who forced her but what did you do? You said that it was you who initiated the kiss, you kissed her purposely knowing that your fucking girlfriend is just across the room, and how to want me to trust you, Xavier. "

"Tomorrow some media would pull a stunt to make how I would be so sure that you could trust me and not them. I can't do this Xavier, I really can't. Do you think you were the only one who got hurt? What about me? What about me Xavier? Did you even try to think about the possibilities? You took an impulsive decision as always. How are you going to justify that Xavier?" He said nothing, just like I expected.  

"Just let this contract me before so you and I can never face each other again."

Author's Note:

 I really wish Wattpad had a story option so that I could update you guys that I am not gonna leave this book and update after months 😭

The next chapter will be up by next week <3 

Until then, 

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