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I call you but you never even answer
I tell myself I'm done with wicked games
But then I get so numb with all the laughter
That I forget about the pain

Whoa, you stress me out, you kill me
You drag me down, you fuck me up
We're on the ground, we're screaming
I don't know how to make it stop
I love it, I hate it, and I can't take it
But I keep on coming back to you                       - Back to you by Louis Tomlinson And Bebe Rexha

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Real feelings don't just 'go away'

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"Don't give me that bullshit Andrea. I asked-" "Why did you care, Xavier? We hate each other anyway and I didn't want to fight with you in front of my business partners"

"And you think that I would have a fight with my ex-girlfriend for no reason in front of my business partners?" He asked with his eyebrows. raised.

"What difference would it make?" I was asking my self and him the question. Frankly even I don't know what would have happened if I had seen him six months ago.

Would I have asked him what really happened that night? Why he didn't yell at me for leaving or why he didn't ask me anything? Why did he just move on the other day?

He clearly didn't care for me. He didn't even ask Leo or Adrian where I went after I left the apartment. He was too busy fucking girls to give a damn about me.

Two Years ago( After Adrain's Birthday, the next day)

Okay, Aubrey, you have to do this. I gathered all the courage I had and I inserted the keys and unlocked our apartment. Our. It is no longer our apartment. I didn't come home last night. I didn't have the courage to face him.

Is he still there inside the apartment? Did he sleep? Was he drinking again? Was he this miserable like me?

How could he just kiss a random girl like that? Did I mean nothing to him? What bout the last 4 years that we spent together? It wasn't even like he wasn't in his right state. He knew that I was watching him. He looked at me and even smirked. As if he was doing it on purpose.

I was snapped out of my thoughts by the voice of moanings. No, This can't be happening.

"Faster Xavvvyyy," I heard a woman's voice. "Ohh yessss"

Tears started rolling down my cheeks. How could he replace me so fast? Within a day? It wasn't even a complete day, he replaced me in less than 20 hours.

I wiped my tears and walked towards the room.

To my luck, the closet was inside the bedroom.

I opened the door and saw the exact thing that I was expecting to see.

Xavier, half-naked with a half-naked girl, his hands all over her body and he was senselessly kissing her.

"I was... I was just getting my clothes and leaving. You guys can continue what you were doing. Pretend that I am not here." I said in a low voice and went straight towards the closet and cried. I took my handkerchief and placed it on my mouth so that they won't hear me sobbing.

I shouldn't have come here. How could he do this to me? He is literally in bed with another girl. He is just what I thought he was. A player. He will never change.

What the heck am I doing? This guy right beside, crashed my world, I gave him my heart and he stepped on it like it was nothing and I am here going to his house, after all the things he has done to me why do I keep on going back to him.

"Andrea." I turned my head towards him and saw his face close to mine. I could feel his warm breath. He was looking at my lips which caused to bit them unknowingly.

Well someone was complaining about him one minute ago and now she wants to kiss me.

What the hell am I doing!!!

I pushed him back which caused him to sit on his seat.

"Finally! I thought you paralyzed for something. I was shaking you and calling your names for the last minute and you weren't answering me at all. I thought that I had to carry you to the hospital which I can't because I have an important meeting. "

I ignored his rude comment. If I am a burden for him and he has important things to do then why should I waste his precious time.

His house was exactly what I expected to be.

He likes a secluded area. The mansion was in the middle of nowhere, more like in the middle of one of his properties. Where did he find this place in New York?

It was a huge French-style mansion with navy blue rooftop. The exterior of the house was magnificent. There was a fountain at the entrance.

He parked the car at the entrance and I stepped out. He continued driving, I guess he went to keep his car in his showroom.

Before I could open the door, an old lady, who looked like she was in her mid-forties, opened it.

"Mr DeAngelis-" She paused when she saw me. "Oh I am sorry but Mr DeAngelis is not home and he told me not to allow any girl here." Wait she didn't know that I was going to come here.

"Uhm I am Aubrey Clinton?" I said as I wasn't sure how to answer her question. "Soon to be DeAngelis." I heard his voice from behind.

"Oh my gosh!! I am so sorry!! You are the girl. Come inside Honey." She said as she showed me the way.

The hall itself was so beautiful. There was a huge chandelier in the centre. The hall is so big that anyone could hold a ball party here.

"My job here is done. I will take my leave, Mr DeAngelis." She said giving Xavier a cheeky smile and Xavier just nodded showing no emotions.

"I will show you your room."He said and went upstairs. Since I am ignoring him, I went in the opposite direction.

I clicked my heels on the marble and walked towards the piano which was kept that at the corner of the room.

I use to play the piano since my third grade, but after I went to college, I never really got time to play it. I had a piano back to my parent's house. 

"Hello? I didn't you hear what I said?" I continued walking.

"Fine!! I have relevant things to do. Don't come running back to me asking me where your room is. Do whatever the fuck you want. I don't care."

"Oh, I know that you don't," I finally said. Well, I didn't say anything wrong. After I no longer heard the noise of his footsteps, I turned around.

I went upstairs slowly and took the first room on the right, I will find my room later. I didn't even bother to see how many rooms were there on the floor.

The room which I stepped in already had my belongings.  I opened a door which was just adjacent to the door and saw that it was a closet and my clothes were already placed inside it.

He didn't even tell me that he had already kept my clothes.  Asshole.

My office bag along with my laptop was on the side timetable.

The room was pretty good. It was similar to mine. I can't believe that I am inside his house and I agreed on living with him. I mentally noted that I have to go back home tomorrow to see what all things are there at my house. I remembered that I haven't told Ivy that I have shifted.

I unlocked my phone to find a message from her itself.

Ivy:  Hey Aubrey! Xavier had already told me that you are moving in with him. I have told the trusted maids to clean the house every day so that if you want to visit your house then you can go there. I hope it is okay with you?

Me: It's totally fine. And since I am not going to be there at my house every day you can have a small vacation to Italy to visit your daughter, if you want to.

I texted her back. I really don't trust people that easily, especially inside my house. Back at my house, I have my mini office where I keep my important files and documents. I am going to keep my things there because I don't want them to get lost due to shifting. 

I decided to take a look at the closet inside.

The clothes were very systematically arranged. My business clothes were together, and they were according to the seasons. My gala dresses were neatly hanged, and my comfortable clothes were neatly folded. Wow whoever organised my closet did a very good job

There was a big mirror in the centre and I stick note was pasted on it.

Loverboy asked me to arrange your clothes. Your welcome.
-ML

I saw the familiar handwriting and the famous sign of the famous Madeline Lewis. I grinned. That's why the arrangement of my clothes was so proper and neat and so Maddie styled.

I changed into my comfy sweatshirt and track pants and decided to work for a bit.

I put on my glasses and sat on the bed with my laptop.  I was so busy working on my upcoming project that I didn't even realize that it was 9:30 p.m. I decided to go down and make something for myself.

I went downstairs to find Xavier cooking his famous pasta.  As much as I would love to have it, I m not going to eat it. Who knows whether he has poisoned it or not.

" Order something for yourself." What? I mean he should have at least offered it.

"I was going to make something for myself anyways."

"And burn down my kitchen? Sorry princess but you can't cook in my kitchen. Not after what you did last time." he froze when he released what he HD just said. I froze in my spot.

Flashback:

Xavier was outside and I had nothing to do. Maddie and Leo were on a date. And Adrian is busy.

And I am hungry and no one is there to cook for me. I can't wait for another hour or the food to come.

I opened the pantry to find it empty, only bacon and eggs were there. I groaned. Xavier. it was his turn to buy the grocery. Okay, I can boil the egg and cook the bacon.

I took a pan and put some oil on it. I placed the bacon and turned on the flame of the stove.

Wait I have to click a picture of this. Shit! My phone is in the bedroom. I will quickly go and get it. I walked-sprinted towards our bedroom and got my phone. I picked it up and it was vibrating. My friend Natasha was calling.

"Hey, Natasha!" "Hey, girl! I really need your help." "Shoot." We talked for around 15 minutes and then I saw smoke entering the room, and something beeping. Shit.

"I will call you back in five," I said and ended the call and sprinted towards the kitchen. My bacon!!! I filled a glass of water and poured it. Luckily there wasn't any fire, they just burnt.

The fire alarm was on, and it was beeping continuously because of the smoke and just to my luck, the doorbell rang. Oh Boy, I am in deep trouble.

I opened the door to find a very worried Xavier standing outside.

"Are you okay? What the hell happened? I got a notification that said that the fire alarm has been activated. Is there a fire in the house?" I watched him as he continued his rambling. He looked so cute when he is worried.

"Why are smiling? I was worried about you and you are here smiling?" I couldn't help but hug him. He instantly wrapped his arms around me.

After a minute a pulled away. "Nothing happened. Just... I tried to cook bacon." I said. He chuckled.

"I am sorry," I said as I gave him my puppy dog eyes. "It's okay princess you don't have to say sorry. Just be careful okay?" He nodded and we went inside towards the kitchen.

"You know on second thought, you are not allowed in the kitchen." "What why?" I whined. "You have me, your personal chef." I grinned.

"Now where is my kiss."

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"I can cook mac and cheese," I said, breaking the pregnant silence, with confidence and pretended that he didn't say that. 

" Do whatever you want but don't burn it or my kitchen." I glared at him and turned around towards the counter. After five minutes I took all the essentials out and saw that Xavier was no longer around.

Shocker.

Okay, wait how to make mac and cheese again? 

I saw a youtube video and after just one try of completely soaked pasta going waste and one pan going waste, after thirty minutes, I finally made it.

It was perfect. I clicked a pic and send to Adrian and Maddie. They bully me all the time saying that I am a spoiled princess because I can't cook.

Idiot Writer Martini: Aww don't lie to us sunshine I know that my idiot grumpy ex made you that.

Leo's gf:  I agree.

Me: Whattttt Noooooo. I mean I didn't make it in the first attempt but I still made it. You both are mean. I am going bye.

I let my phone aside and ate my delicious mac and cheese. 

I looked around to find that Xavier is not there anywhere in the sight. He wasn't there in the kitchen too when I was cooking. He must have gone somewhere. I finished my dinner and washed the dishes.

I went upstairs and went directly inside my room. I checked the emails which Hailee had sent me and after thirty minutes closed my laptop.

I kept my laptop and my phone on the side table and drift off to sleep immediately after lying on the soft bed.

After a few hours.

"Aw, Is the little girl crying?"

"What shall we do to you?" "Please... Leave me alone." I begged, tears still rolling down my cheeks.

"Not until we get our 50 million dollars."  "You know I have a better idea. Since you are begging for your mommy and daddy since the last few days. Why don't we get them here?"

"Are you actually going to bring my mommy and daddy?" My innocent six-year self asked that old man.

"Let's bring your mommy and daddy then." He said as he slammed the door and left me there all alone in the dark.

I heard the bang of the door and I screamed. Are they here?

"GET AWAY FROM ME!!!" I screamed and wrapped my arms around my body with my eyes closed.

"Hey. I am not going to hurt you." I don't know why but I felt safe when I heard that voice.

"Andrea." I heard the same voice, now at a closer distance but I was too shocked and in fear to respond. My body was numb, I wasn't able to open my eyes, I felt that if I did, those kidnappers would kill my parents right in front of my eyes and I won't be able to do anything.

"Andrea. I am here. It's okay." I heard the voice again and felt warm arms wrapped around my sweaty body. My body was still shaking with fear.

"Shh. It's okay. I am here." I heard the peaceful voice again and my body felt calm.

"I am here." I heard the calming voice drift off to sleep.

Author's Note:

At this point, I have written Andrea so many times that I have almost forgotten that her first name is Aubrey. 

Anyways...

So this chapter had many things. Tell me what you guys think about this chapter.

I will update the next chapter next Saturday or This week.

Until then,

Stay Tuned!!!!!