One day I'm so in love with you,
I wish you knew the things I do,
I have love for two.

I want to give you the stars and the moon,
on a simple afternoon,
nothing can be too soon,
heartbreak, to that I'm immune.

The next day I'm terrified,
it's like I already died,
everything in my mind seems to collide,
when I said I am fine, I lied.

It's like the thought of losing you leads to suicide
it's like my heart chooses to divide,
I'm so afraid of being denied.

I have a tendency to become a little dramatic,
it's because my feelings are everything but static,
I know it's problematic,
for me it can be a bit traumatic.

I'm crying,
please know,
I'm trying,
but my problems are overlying.

Sometimes I explode,
then I reload,
only so I can implode.

I need you to hold me tight,
even when I fight,
everything seems black and white,
show me the light,
don't hold me "because", hold me "despite"
despite that I'm impolite, lose my appetite,
and become dynamite,
hold onto my inner light,
don't let it burn out.

When this fear kicks in,
it is you who I need,
my demons you should not feed,
otherwise they will make me bleed.

I hope you can see past those moments,
when I become so broken,
I know you are not my opponent,
but my fear is exponent.

I hope you don't lose love,
I hope you see what's above,
I hope you can empathize,
I hope you will see it in my eyes,

that the ugly parts are just a disguise.

Because sometimes my love for you makes me the strongest person on the planet.

And other times it'sthe thing that terrifies me more than the thought of dying.