TW:LOW KEY TRANSPHOBIA AND JUST DEPRESSION PLEASE DON'T READ

I feel like I cant go anywhere
$&%;#>÷&# dad is dieing
$&÷&÷>×&=; is depressed
$,=&÷&÷&÷; getting over and eating disorder
#&$&$&#& has is own promblems with his mom
$&=;$;$$;#* also has family problems and I dont wanma throw my shit at her

I have no where to go

I just wanna be normal and be a normal cis girl, and like guys, and not be like this, this sad, this.... like this.

I dont know what I want, I cant find out anything. I'm probably just being an overly emotional teen and I hate it. I wanna die so it's over but I cant because I still have hope itll get better.

I see what she means but what the fuck I'm sensitive she can fuck off I dont wanna hear it I dont wanna be told off for the things I like I dont wanma know how I'm "making myself different" by using they/then pronouns, I dont wanna be told how I'm "singling out stright people" or "making them evil" when I'm not I'm fucking down I got lucky that she doesn't care but it's the same problem that she doesn't care

I'm fucking done.

I shouldnt be posting this, my friends are gonna worry if they read but I guess fuck me, I'm already messed up and sobbing why not.

    I'm posting this telling myself that I'm just ranting when I know im doing it for attention. I know my friends will probably call me after this and be worried, yet here I am. Its messed up. I'm messed up.

    There are so many better things I could be doing, from actually working out my problems, to actully trying to kill myself. Yet I'm doing this fucking bullshit.

     Why? I don't know.