I'm going to rant because if I don't I might cry and break things.

I hate STANDARDIZED testing. Especially bubble answers. I used to think it's great because bubbling in answers is like the easiest thing on Earth, right? and theres like a 20-25% chance you'll get it right. Piece of piss, yeah? HAH

So I study my ass off in this class (Religions of the World). I know more about religions that I know about myself because thats how much I study. I bet I could recite this fucking textbook in front of a crowd of people no problem.

My mom legit rarely ever gives a damn about how exhausted I am from school. Usually she gets all pissy cause I don't do enough around the house bc all I do is study. Well this time, she let me sleep 12 hours after my test. She said, "I would have woken you up, but you've studied your ass off" and its true.

I studied all day, all night, had to say no to so many fun things... I studied the day after my grandfather died, studied while family was visiting, studied the night before the funeral, studied as soon as we got back from the funeral, studied through tears, studied day in and day out (yes I slept so don't go trying to blame lack of sleep on anything). Study study study study study

WHY!?

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY

I COULD TELL YOU SO MUCH ABOUT HINDUISM, BUDDHISM, JAINISM AND SIKHISM. LITERALLY, I WALK AROUND THE HOUSE SPILLING RANDOM ASS FACTS ALL THE DAMN TIME. AND I GET A C?! I BET I WOULD HAVE GOTTEN AN A IF THIS WAS A FUCKING ESSAY.

Me, who can't seem to write an essay in less than 4 days, am 100% confident I could get an A if my exam was to write 1 essay per religion in under 3 hours, using only knowledge in my head--no sources whatsoever. But no. I have fucking multiple choice bullshit that's ruining everything.

I hate these tests. I hate them so much. I hate my professor for giving us these tests. I want to know what the fuck I got wrong. There were 50 questions and I was only unsure about 2 of them! What the fuck did I get wrong!?

Oh great now I'm crying over this. Gosh damn it. This class... I only get 4 grades.

If I get a C as my final grade, I can kiss my education good bye honestly. I can't financially afford to not have excellent grades.

damn it