I am so sleep deprived that I had legitimate hallucinations going on yesterday.

Like...

I had been thinking all day that spiders were crawling on me.  I mean, yeah I see a lot of spiders, but that doesn't mean I get spiders on me.

Anywhores.

I opened the door to let my dog outside, and I swear to God it felt like I stuck my hand through a web.  I immediately examined my hand and my bracelets (5 rubber & 1 raw leather) and I SWEAR my hand and bracelets were covered in funnel web.

I freaked out so bad.  I shoved my bracelets off so hard that I hurt my hand doing it.  I let them drop to the floor and shook my hand around as I ran across the room from them.  Somehow I ended up internally hurting my wrist in the process.  I kept thinking there were spiders on tbe floor, so I refused to leave the couch.  I was crying and shaking so hard. 

Like, I'm not even afraid of spiders but that was the scariest thing ever.  I was having a full blown meltdown over this - and let me tell you, my meltdowns are horrendous.  (sometimes dangerous)

I ended up calling my mom and telling her about it and she got me to calm down.  While I was talking to her, I went back to my bracelets so I could get the web off of them, but there was nothing on them.  NOTHING.  There wasn't any sign of spiderweb on them.

The more I thought about it, the more I realized that there is no way that I could have stuck my hand in a spider web by opening a door.  It was a fucking hallucination.  Guys.  I saw the spiderweb on me.  I felt the spiderweb on me.  I hurt my wrist trying to get it off of me, and it wasn't even real.

#InsaneInTheMembrane

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