My heart ache from the pain I've cus people and the hurt I brought apon them I never should have done the things I did I was being selfish and careless and I lost many friends cause of it so I think it's best that don't find love cause all I'll do is screw it up like always by asking for pics or forcing them to do things they shouldn't hell I shouldn't be here look at what I've sence ive been back all ive done is cause more pain then it's worth part believes I didn't deserve this second chance but according to god I do no I sit here wonder what's my purpose why did u give me a second chance why should any give me any chances when again all I do is hurt people because I'm to dumb an selfish for my own good. And I know u probably won't read this or if u do it won't make sence. I wanna start new and fresh and new but ik damn well I can't let go of my past it clearly shows.

I believe God sent me here to help people but how am I doing that when all I do is ask for pics or videos or make them slaves all that dose is destroy people. How can u move forward if ur stuck in the past and tring find ways to fill the void in ur heart