Most of the time I tried writing on here, whatever I typed turn out to be depressing towards the end or in the middle. Finals have been stressing me out, and they're extremely important for my grade. Basketball keeps on colliding with my schoolwork and has been a source of my stress too (there's a feeling of negativity that I sense whenever we have practice). Overall, I kind of just lost my motivation to do anything and allowed myself to sink into a bubble of hopelessness and nonexistence. I didn't want to tell anyone about how I was feeling inside because I feel like I would worry them and it'd be a waste of time. Also, I prefer to keep to myself (which is also because there's a minor fear lurking in the corners of my heart that people would leave me if they think something was very wrong with me. The fear mainly is focused on my family and some of my school friends. Perhaps this is being irrational, but I'll let you decide on what you think.

The good news is, finals are next week so I'll be less stressed once they're over. I'll be able to have time to update too, which I'm extremely excited to do.