Is it wrong, childishness, foolishness, or maturity to contain no hate, hold no grudges against anything in this world, despite what it has done to you and what you know it has done?

Is it simple idiocy to care about every single thing around you and what is not, basically caring about anything in general?

Is it childish to force yourself to not hate anything because you simply despise it and what it does to life? 

Is it wrong to not want the world to burn and to let all the humans die, even though they practically caused the ultimate destruction?

I hate myself for caring in general and wish I could actually stop caring about life for once because perhaps it's true idiocy for even bothering to like and care about anyone. All I gain is pain and heartbreak from my own personality. However, I still care about the faith of existence. About everything in general. And continue to love despite what it does to others. There's this nagging thought that I need to get a firmer grip of my words and myself. 

Would it be selfishness to just decide to simply toss away the aspect of me that holds a gigantic heart? But then it could mean that I'm throwing away weakness... 

I can't help that I still like fellow human beings and I don't want to see an apocalypse. I can't help but enjoy everything around me. Are people blind for not appreciating what they have handed to them and just focusing on the negative? Maybe this is why our generation looked down upon; we can't appreciate what we have in front of us, we are simply greedy (but then again, which generation wasn't?), we focus on the negative even though there's light if we look hard enough, and we have this tendency to veer away from what they expect of us. Perhaps the last thing is actually good, perhaps it isn't. Well actually, it depends on how you strayed away. 

But are my words even valid? I've been wrong in the past and those mistakes led to my downfalls. After all, I'm just a teenage girl who supposedly is an idiotic bitch who has a high rate of making horrible mistakes. 

Who even invented the concept of right and wrong?

I probably need to stop focusing on the what others say and wake up.