Is it petty to say you're tired in the middle of all this? Here stuck depressed at home with painting and playing games being the only thing holding me together everyday? Parents are dicks saying it's cause I do nothing, what is there to fucking do? I'm hardly allowed to go out and my phones pretty much a burden at this time... nothing but a screen telling me I have no friends to talk to, they're all busy talking to others or doing something else... lucky them... I've never felt so jealous over someone having a life they can still go to... I've been so depressed lately, I feel like I'm back in middle school all over again, my cringy mentally emo self. Yeah that's an awkward feeling to be so connected to. And feel so careless about, not a damn in the world about it, just that I want it gone... but have nothing to get rid of it... no place or someone to go to to just hide away from it... I've cried so many nights that I can't even cry anymore... when will this all go away and leave me alone?...