I wish I could shut my brain off... I'm tired of having voices constantly talk to me, I'm tired of thinking every second wether it's how I'm breathing or repeating whatevers happening in front of me.
I can't sleep, I can't eat without thinking about starving myself, I'm scared of one day acting on thoughts like harming someone, I'm always going down rabbit holes, or even remembering traumas that not only make me cry but keep me up at night.
I'm just... tired... tired of it all... I'm tired of the voices that hate me, the voices that worry, the ones that stress over nothing, I'm even tired of the neutral ones that try to tell me it's okay cause I can't get ones that say anything better. But even the neutral are starting to make me feel like a void.
I want them gone, all them, every last one. I don't want a single thought. I wanna look in the mirror and just see me, I don't wanna think about how fuckin awful I look. I wanna listen and watch someone without micro analyzing them in fear of getting hurt. I want to walk down the street or in a store without any paranoia or the urge to punch anyone near me.
I wanna close my eyes and sleep, hearing nothing but the highway...