I just... can't shake this feeling off... feeling like a nuisance to the world, like I'm just meant to be everyone's third wheel... I don't want to be like this anymore... I wanna be important too, I want people to start conversations with me again, instead of me having to always start one and then for everyone to just leave me hanging there, ignoring me yet looking my way for that one moment and do nothing but show me how meaningless I am when they don't have a problem they need to talk to about... I'm not some tool to use... I'm an actual person... and I feel like I only have one person in my life who doesn't make me feel that way... everyone else just confuses me...
I wish I could change it... but I guess I just can't change me no matter how hard I'm trying...