I think I'll be going off wattpad again... I don't know, I still want to put a book up that has all my artwork in it. But I'm just a fuckin idiot, I can't post shit, can't talk to anyone, can't keep writing a simple story, can't even take a complement... I can't do anything and keep it going... not even having friends... I used to have so many, now I barely have any... maybe I'm just boring... or tiring... I lean on everyone for leadership, I don't know how to start a conversation, not one that'll last apparently... they always come to me to fix their problems but when I need the same... I've only had three listen to me my entire life... and two of which would actually do the same back. I doubt they remember, mine are just as small yet overwhelmingly stressful as theirs but, I'm naive enough most times for a few sentences to really help for the time being. Guess mine would be like that, I've never had a lot of people think they're helping when they're really just degrading.
I wanna rant so bad but I don't have anything to rant about... I want to scream but I don't have a voice to... I want to cry so bad and I am right now and I hate it so much... I'm so conflicted and tired and sick.... today was going so well and then everything just went downhill... now I'm confused and a crying mess and very, very cold... I just want to understand what's going on and do something to stop it... I can't handle this feeling, like I lost a friend...
And I have no one to talk to... I'm just talking to myself in something no one will ever read and no one really has...
Should I even bother posting anymore at all?...
Does anyone even read this? no, who would... I'm just another person posting about their problems...