The cycles restarted again... my parents are fighting and being petty to each other again.... I just wished they'd stop... that they finally fucking realize what they do to each other that's so toxic to do and say. Neither of them ever think of how to communicate and think about their actions or of compromises... it's always about it being their fault or that they do everything or had to hard of a fucking day to do some simple task everyone has to fucking do and they don't get bitchy about it. I just want to no longer be in the middle of a clearly broken relationship and be told everything about it is a normal marriage. I fuckin know it's not, you two are just too stubborn and abused to think that change is bad and you have to be stuck this way. It fucking sucks to be as little as 8 and just wishing your parents separate because you're tired of pretending you don't hear the bullshit through thin walls. I don't care how hard it is to have parents apart, they choose not to fix themselves or each other and just bitch and be petty instead so then nothing gets resolved and issues build up and suddenly you're at the start of the fucking cycle again... it was going good for 2 years just about, not perfect but better and then... it just suddenly stopped... I'm tired of them... tired of being ranted to... tired of trying to tell them to fucking talk like civil people instead of thinking of just themselves or the past! I don't wanna be here no more... I don't wanna be in this awful middle... I don't wanna be in this house anymore... I don't wanna cry anymore... I don't wanna be scared anymore...