Does anyone read these?... I really need someone to talk to... I don't care what its about, I don't care if you just want to talk and have me listen... I don't care if its philosophical or about games or some sort of fan base, roleplay? just please... I need someone and I'm probably super crazy asking people who I don't know and don't know me this but at this point... I just need it...
My friends were the only escape from my cursed reality... they're so important to me... but I guess I'm just... I don't know, put on hold? A very... very long hold...
I'm so alone... and now it's all I can think about... very book reminds me of it... every video.... every picture... all the birds outside... my own two dogs even have fucking friends to be around everyday....
Nothing's helping anymore, it's just tearing me down even though I've already crumbled...
Even writing this... I'm not tricking myself as much as I'd hope for... no one reads these... I'm reminded of that every time I start a new page...
At this point... I have no doubts of anyone not caring about me... it's not like they should in the first place... I'm worthless to them anyway...