Well I'm heading to sleep, but still have a lot on my mind. So many things I want to say, but I don't know if I should. I wish to say how I feel and what I need, but if I can't say it to then ill say it here, it's not like it's read anyways. None of it is your fault and I'm still confused on what you meant as "Together together" But I just wish- oh what does it matter what I want. I'm not gonna beg for some lovey messages or stuff like that because it feels whenever I do you don't want to do it and I won't make you feel that way. I don't want you to be like my past I want you to be different.. I can't do anything about a person, so why am I like this?.. My head is always in the clouds as my hopes are too high, maybe I should just get use to how things are now