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Mirror Mirror On The Wall

It has been a while since my last post. I've been caught up with life and stuff. But I pick up my pen now, to give some encouragement since I just got inspired by someone.

We are talking about seeing ourselves, a bit heavy talk in the middle of the night I may say, but it's kinda refreshing a bit.

This friend of mine told me that he stopped seeing himself long time ago and I told him that he needs to start looking again before he loose it forever. Then he gave me this narrative.

When you are small, you often see the mirror or check how tall you grow by measuring at a beam or wall? Back then you look excited everyday but as you grow your face doesnt change anymore, you don't grow taller. Perhaps you thought there is nothing to see anymore. Thus you are stopping to see yourself without something new to see the next day. Nothing to excites you. It become a long and dull painful life. Probably...I guess that is the reason of stopped seeing yourself.

I can tell you, I'm a bit insensitive when I told him this,
"I never stop seeing myself,
I saw what ive been, what I've become,
and try to picture what I want me to become.
I saw my past, my mistakes, and try not to do that again in the future.
I begin to understand my weaknesses at the same time finding out my own strength. And then, I promise myself that I would become a better person than I saw myself today."

I don't know if he will listen to what I said or just ignored it since I told many people before but only a few took my opinion. But still I put my faith in him, because I believe one day, he will see himself beneath all this heavy life problems. I wish him to open his eyes one day, and see at the mirror, the man I see him today. And then he could give himself some credits he deserves.

Sometimes, life gives you things you don't want to come into your life. It gives you sorrow, pain, problems, sickness, hatred, and many other things. And sometimes you wish you can numb them off; wish you can numb your feelings; wish you won't feel the heat, the pain and the sorrow; wish you'd never know your heart can be break; wish you'd never know someone is able to take you up yet drag you down.

But again, what is life, really?
You want it to be plain and simple? Well, you're going to die at the age of 30 because of boredom.

What I'm saying is that, sometimes we need to feel pain to appreciate happiness. We need to meet jerks to know which is The One.
We need to lost something to appreciate what we have. And we need to be hurt, to know that we're capable of stand up in our own feet, to know that WE'RE STRONG.

✌🏻