If you know me, then you probably know I idolize Reese Regan more than anyone in this world. I have never encountered anybody who I can genuinely relate with. I love the fact that she expresses her thoughts as honest as possible and seeing someone go through something similar with what's going on in your life is probably the best feeling in the world. Yes, it might not solve your problems but it does give you a sense of relief knowing that you're "not alone" and it eliminates even a tiny portion of loneliness we feel when we're in a horrible state.

Growing up I always felt like there was this uncomfortable weight on my shoulders and I never went through the day without feeling so anxious. Up until this point of my life I feel as if that weight is still there bothering me constantly. Some days I feel so amazing and other days I just feel so angry at myself. I don't know if it's exactly anger but it's just this annoying mix of frustration and anxiety. I seriously have no words how to describe it. All I know for sure is that this feeling has been this giant wall that keeps joy out of my life.

I don't want this to be a rant or something sad. I just wanted to spill that out there and move on to why I'm expressing this. In line with #projectreeset I am completely over this state of being I am in. I just want to start feeling good again and I find that keeping myself busy makes the bad feelings go away. I also want to start giving myself more credit because even if I filled my whole day with all these tasks I always feel as if I didn't do enough. I forget to give myself a pat on the back and say "good job!"

Sometimes I also just do things for the sake of aiming to feel that I did enough with my day, and this results to me not enjoying what I'm doing. I want to just calmly put myself in an environment where I'm not constantly stressed with the thoughts that I need to do stuff nonstop. Stopping really freaks me out but I just want to be comfortable with what I'm not comfortable with.

If you're like me who's "messed up" in some ways I totally recommend you subscribing to Reese Regan's YouTube channel and watch her videos. And to shine more light to what #projectreeset is, here's a link for you to watch

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I promise finding someone (even if they're not part of your family members or circle of friends) you can relate with genuinely is the best way to start feeling good. They might have experienced what you're enduring and give you quality advice to get through it, or they are currently working on it themselves which gives you the opportunity to travel along the journey with them. This is basically the start to killing off those bad feelings or thoughts.

I know everyone at some point have or will experience feeling down and I believe that's okay. I want to get through this and just soak in the slow journey of getting the good feels back.

Also, listening to empowering words gives this spark of hope and it literally makes the day less agonizing. Here are two videos I listen to almost everyday and they seriously helped me so much.

1.)  Morning Motivation

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2.) 6 Minutes to Start Your Day

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I freaking love the internet. I always believe that it's a blessing. It always comes down to how we use it to better our lives and it's not necessarily "evil" like most people I hear say. Imagine finding someone thousands of miles away from you that inspires you to be a better version of yourself. It's incredible! As long as we use our resources right, like using the internet to make the world a good environment for having better and happier experiences, we'll be just fine.

I know this was somewhat all over the place, but I also love Wattpad. It has been an amazing community that makes me forget about being sad or frustrated. Reading and writing has been one of the best ways to release some tension that I feel.

If I could leave you with anything, it would be give yourself credit. Say to yourself that you did well today because there's nothing more satisfying knowing that you made yourself proud. It's a good start to pick yourself up from a sad and lonely place.

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