Thanks to my asshole Dad who took my phone away I missed Alec's post and therefore missed my last chance to talk to him.

I miss him so much. I feel so empty and alone and I can't move on, I can't fall out of love with him and it's torturous but I'm happy with it.

I'm madly in love with Alec and that will never end. Thank you so much, all of you that have tried to help me move on but I can't.

I've tried to move on but I'm finding it hard to. To think about someone else in Alec's place. But when he came into my life the future seemed so much brighter and I had a reason to live.

He showed me what it meant to live and opened my eyes and I will forever be grateful for that.

Thank you so much Alec.

I swear that this will not be the last time I will say this to you. I love you.
You will hear that again, if not from me but someone better, someone who will love you better than me.

Thank you so much again Alec.
I owe you so much;
My life
My happiness even if it only lasted when you were around
Opening my eyes
Showing me that love is real.

For that last time I suppose

Joyeux noël Alec
Your Kitty Kat Xoxo 😽🎄

P.S. I love you