how do i live with this

i mean,okay, my books aren't the best, I know, but is it bad enough that you want to ask me to kms?

ty i try.

how do i live knowing that my good friend of four years doesn't want to talk to me anymore because she is getting similar texts from people, just because she writes a book with me?

how do i live, knowing i am the reason why she doesn't want to write anymore?

how do i find the motivation to write anymore?

and why the fuck is my teacher trying to hard to make me fail in my exams?

what the fuck. i can't even comprehend the paper i had to witness today.

she still hasn't marked our assignments, and she asks us to write the differences between grammar and gives us 10 marks.

oh sure ok. piece of cake

but then i see the length of our answers, and i wanted to kill myself.

because how the fuck do i write one and a half pages about grammar when sHE FUCKING TAUGHT ME ONLY 3 POINTS.

i could write half of a page for that, but what about the remaining page? do i just bullshit in it and expect to pass?

how the fuck does she expect me to pass my exam when she includes four questions like this

do i really have to repeat a semester in college thanks to one fucking teacher?

why the fuck did she make us learn every single fucking phonetic symbol that exists when she didn't even ask a single shit of that in the paper?

what happened to context? she spent three weeks teaching us about context, where the fuck did questions on context disappear to?

why the fuck did i stay up for the last five days studying?

what's the point anymore?

whatever i'm doing is wrong.

i'm hurting my friends...

i'm hurting my family by being a disappointment and a burden. i'm ruining everything, how do i live with this.

why don't i ever make people happy...

what am i doing wrong, someone please tell me so i can stop doing that...