this is ~rushed~ also angst and dark themes warnings.

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(3rd POV (flashback))

"hey deku! What are you doing?" A little chubby boy asked the smaller one on the ground. The one on the floor was poking at a certain object with a stick, mumbling to himself.

"deku?" The chubby boy asked him again. He got closer as to see what the other boy was so intrigued by and saw a small thing there.

"Deku get away from that!" The chubby boy exclaimed when he noticed deku was poking at a small lifeless bird, mindlessly.

"But I'm not hurting anyone am I?" The boy named deku replied looking back at the chubby boy with an innocent face. The chubby boy was shaken by the scene that he ran home to tell his parents of what happened.

After the incident, deku was put into therapy and his mother tried to find what was wrong with him, without losing hope. "I know he'll get better" she would say when she would come over and cry to the chubby boys mom.

One day, deku came to school. It was a normal day in middle school when deku invited the other boy to his house. "Oh sure thing deku!" The boy replied trying to push his negative thoughts away. Deku smiled and told him he'll be waiting for him.

After the school day was finished, he headed to dekus home to be greeted by his mother. "Oh (y/n) you're here! I'm so glad!" She said with a weak smile. She looks like she hasn't been getting enough sleep and her hair looks thinner than before.

"How are you ms. Midoriya?" (Y/n) asked politely as he tucked in his shoes in the cubbies next to the front door. "Oh, okay as always!" She said nervously chuckling and went to the kitchen to find something to do.

(Y/n) gulped nervously as he walked up the stairs as he looked to the room that was named 'deku' as he nervously knocked with his shaking fist.

"Oh you're here!" Deku opened the door and flashed a big smile. It calmed the other boys nerves and he let out a sigh that he didn't know he was holding onto for so long.

"Come in. I wanna show you something" deku said as he opened the door more wider, letting the other male get inside and he shut the door. (Y/n) stood in the room observing the room. It looked like a normal teenage boys room should look like.

Deku had a lot of boxes around his room with keyholes and a lot of candles. (Y/n) looked around and saw a box of chalk with white chalks. He thought it was weird but brushed it off.

"I want us to do something together" deku said as he took some books and boxes out and sat in the middle of the room. "Oh are we playing a game?" (Y/n) obliviously said as he sat down across from deku. Deku looked up and smiled weakly as he opened the box and shoved the box towards (y/n) and smiled.

"Look at them. Being oh so happily! Let's be like them, yeah?" Deku said as he wrapped his arms around himself as he talked nonstop and his cheeks flared up.

(Y/n) looked inside the box and was taken aback. It was two birds with their wings stitched together. They were formed in a heart shape to symbolize a message. "What the fuck?!" (Y/n) yelled as he dropped the box and stood up scared out of his mind. He looked towards deku and was met with a deadly face he has never seen before.

(End of flashback)
I loudly gasped as I shot up from my bed. I frantically looked around as I saw my alarm clock. It read 3:02 in the morning. "Fuck man" I sighed as I wiped my sweaty face with the front of my shirt.

I got another nightmare with deku. It's been some years since I've last seen him and I don't know why I've been getting them around this time.

I rubbed my temple and tried to go back to sleep. Supposedly, today was dekus birthday. His mother lost faith in him some time ago and we haven't seen him either.

It was rumored he was a villain but I doubt it. He was so excited to join UA and be a hero so why would he go against his words and pride.

I closed my eyes a little and just couldn't go back to sleep. "Fuck it then" I got up and headed to the bathroom. I took a shower and brushed my teeth. I sat in my bed and pulled over my hair with my fingers. I didn't have much planned for today. I was just going to go grocery shopping.

I got the note out with my stuff and revised it trying to see if I forgot something. "New toothpaste" I said as I looked around for a pencil to jot it down. I revised it for some time until it was time the grocery store opened up.

"Guess I'll go there early" I said as I got up and finally started to get ready. I would've bought flowers to dekus mom but she didn't want to do anything involving her own son. She wants to stay alone for some time.

I sighed as I pulled over my shirt over my head. I patted down my clothes and got my essentials and headed for my door. I locked it and made sure and headed down the road.

"There's not a lot of people huh?" I asked. I saw people walking out their dogs and stuff. I saw kids trying to get ready for their school and kids with quirks that took physical shape. I was born quirkless so I'm just a normal adult. I'm not jealous of them I just don't like the stigma that if you don't have one, you're remotely below them.

I sighed as I passed an alleyway and saw some hair sticking out. I stopped in my tracks and went back to look. There was a person laying there. "Oh they might need help!" I said to myself and headed to the person but keeping a distance.

I heard a soft giggle as I approached the body. I stopped trying to reach my phone to get help. "Huh?" I said as I tried to see the persons face.

"(Y/n)! How I'm so glad to see you!" I heard the person say as they turned and got up and flashed a bright smile. I was about to yell as he immediately pinned me to the floor.

"D-deku!" I yelled as I tried to struggle and get him off of me. He smiled as he sat harshly onto my pelvis. I hissed and he started to gush over me. "Oh how wonderful to see you're here! We can finally die together like we promised!" He said as he took out an object from his pocket.

"Deku what are you saying?-deku! Put that knife down!" I yelled at him as I tried to look around for someone to come and help me. Deku snarled and aimed the knife towards my neck. "Please don't fight this (y/n)!" He said inching close to me.

I turned my face to the other side as he licked my ear and cheek. He pulled away and started to blush and shake uncontrollably. "You taste sweet (y/n)! Too bad I couldn't spend time with you!" He said frowning for a second but then smiled right back up.

"Let me kill you first then I'll follow you baby!" Deku said as he threw his knife up and tried to bring it down. I pulled my arm that was under him and pulled it up to cover my chest. The knife pierced to my arm harshly and I saw the dissatisfaction plastered in dekus face.

"AHHHH FUCK MAN!" I angrily yelled at him as the blood started gushing down to my shirt and face. "Why did you do that huh?!" Deku yelled at me as he tried to pull the knife out from my arm.

"Get off Deku please!" I yelled at him and tried to shift his weight off of me. He ignored me and still tried to pull it out. I got tired of this and finally pushed him off. He got pushed off to the side and in the process the knife got out of my arm.

I got up as I tried to cover my arm and to stop it from bleeding even more. I looked over and saw Deku getting up and dusting himself off from the floor. "I better get help-" I said getting up and started to walk out the alleyway when a sharp sting came from my back.

I looked behind me and saw the knife planted onto my back. "Is this how I'm going to go out?" I said to myself as I fell onto the floor. The amount of pain I was in was too much for me and I was close to either dying or fainting but I couldn't tell.

"Finally!" Deku yelled huffing loudly as he dug in his pockets and I saw him take out a bottle. He quickly unscrewed the cap and chugged the whole thing. I was going to ask him what he was doing but I didn't have the energy to.

"Finally we'll be together my little (y/n)" Deku cooed as he kneeled to me and laid my head onto his lap. As I felt the life leave my body, I felt Deku playing with my hair and arm.

"I have always loved you (y/n), so I hope we can die together!" He said as he pulled my face up to him and kissed my cold blue lips. He started to blush as he dropped my head harshly to his lap.

"That was my first kiss ah! It felt so good-..." Deku rambled about irrelevant things as I slowly closed my eyes and felt a bright light onto my eyesight. Why did it have to be like this? What did I do wrong? Whatever I did, I'm sorry Deku.

"I'm....sorry.....izuku" I slowly said as I finally let out my last breath. "Huh?" Deku said stopping his rant and looked towards your lifeless body. "What do you mean sorry?! You didn't do anything wrong!" He said frantically opening your eyelids to see if you were still there with him.

"Fuck I fucked up! Oh shit oh fuck!" He started to yell as he saw people finally seeing what has happened and contacting the proper authorities.

"No wait!" He tried to grasp onto you but you were dead already. He shook your body as he started to cough as well. "My lungs hurt " he said to himself as he coughed harshly and blood spew out from his nose.

He grasped your body against him as he started to cry as he was slowly dying. "It's okay izuku it's okay. He'll be waiting for you" Deku said to himself as his body weakly fell upon yours.

"I.....love.....you" Deku said as he hitched his breath and died. The story fell upon the newspaper and the tv. Your mother heard about the stories and quickly called izukus mother as they both cried on the phone horrified of the story.

"....this story was involved around unrequited love and its horrors. If you are in one of these similar situations, seek help immediately so you don't end up dead. Thank you. This is news channel 6 and we'll see you tomorrow. Goodnight japan...." the tv slowly died down in the background.

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I'm sorry this took a long time :(