Part 1 out of 2
TW: emotional abuse, violence, suicide attempt, suicidal thinking)
sorry this is rushed and for spelling-errors uwu

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it was the day after we took our midterms. I'm not that nervous about my results but I'm supposed to keep my persona up.

"Are you guys excited?!" I yelled as I opened the door to the home room seeing everyone sitting down already. "Sit down (y/n)! You're disrupting class!" iida yelled at me and I stuck out my tongue at him and quickly went to sit down.

I pulled out my items I needed for class, while trying to avoid the glares I was receiving. "you okay (y/n)? You seem louder than usual" tsuyu asked me as she turned to me, worryingly.

"Pfft! Don't worry about me! I know I aced those midterms!" I said with anger in my voice. "Quiet in the back!" MY teacher yelled as she was handing out test scores already. Tsuyu nodded but still looked worried.

My stomach started to hurt as I remembered the people's names before it got to my turn. I saw ojiro her up and get his paper and I got up knowing I was next.

"You! Sit down! We're going to have a talk after I finish passing these out" my teacher snarled looking at my direction.

"Huh?" I asked, surprised by this action. I was about to snarl at her back but then the whole class began to snicker lowly. "Sit down ya loser!" I heard someone yell behind me.

"You wanna repeat that!?" I asked already getting mad. As you can tell I have really bad anger issues. I turned around balling my fists and was met with an angry bakugo.

"I said sit down you turd!" He repeated and stood up from his chair angrily. Oh now it's on. "I ain't scared of ya! Come at me you bitch boy!" I yelled as I was walking towards him, pushing peoples desks by accident.

He got up and had a big smirk on his face and that's when the fight happened. I lunged myself at him and started to punch him as hard as I could.

He kicked my legs trying to get off the floor but I put myself between his legs and started to bruise up his stomach and legs. "Go bakugo gO bakugo!" I heard people chanting and I could hear my teacher yelling for security.

"Get off pussy!" Bakugo snarled as he started to choke me from my neck. I didn't really mind it so as he was choking me I threw blows at his face and nose.

I was running out of air and I threw my elbows towards his chest making him let go really fast. I got up and started to step on his arms and stuff. "I hate this school! I hate you! I hate all of you! I hope you all rot in hell!" I yelled as I kept kicking him and he started to cover with his arms.

Not long ago, security came and pulled us apart and were escorting us to the principals office. We kept throwing remarks at each other while arriving there.

We were taken separately to tell about the incident that happened and all. I was finally told I was suspended for a week and bakugo as well. I was screaming on my way out of the school as I packed my bag. Knowing my mom is already going to beat my ass but this is not the time.

I saw bakugo getting picked up by his parents and already hearing his mother yelling frantically in the car. We met our eyes and I flipped the middle finger to him and ran across the street before he can say anything. I started to walk home that takes twenty minutes.

I finally reached home and got the hidden key under a rock since I keep losing my personal one. I unlocked it and was greeted by my mom and her female friend that were chatting amongst themselves.

"What happened to you?! Why are you all beaten up?!-" before she could ask me other questions I yelled at her. "Why do you care?! You only care when the authorities are involved! You never ask me how I'm feeling do you?!" I said angry tears coming out from my eye sockets. She was going to make herself look like the good cop in front of her friend but I left to my room.

I locked my door and sat on the blanket I had on the floor and fucked up pillow. My room only consisted of a broken table, a calendar that marks off my finals days being in this earth, a kitchen knife for self defense and my made up bed. I threw my backpack to a corner ignoring the papers falling out of it and laid down to sleep.

I didn't eat the whole day but I wasn't going to eat since I don't deserve to. The whole night consisted of my stomach growling really loudly, making me punch myself in the gut, right where bruises were already present.

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"So you got suspended for a week huh?! Since you wanna act all tough why don't you open this door huh?!" My mother yelled and started banging on my door. I got up not knowing what time it was but checking my phone. It was ten in the morning and I saw missed calls from some friends at school.

I opened the door and got lunged to the floor with a huge force. "Oof!" I huffed loudly as my mother sat o me and started to scratch, bruise and pull my hair.

"Get off!" I yelled and kicker her stomach making her fly not that far. "Get oUt aNd never come back you maniac!" She yelled crying herself to a ball making herself look like the victim. "Fine then! I'm going to kill myself either way!" I yelled grabbing my phone and the knife and emptied my backpack.

I ran downstairs and went to the fridge quickly and got food I can eat for a few days before I die. I left the house slamming the door making it shake on it's hinges.

"Stupid mom. Only thinks of herself" I said mad and started to walk aimlessly.

I walked to the nearest park but then saw police cars and too many citizens there. Shit. I saw an alleyway so I'm gonna sleep behind the dumpsters and stuff or inside it. I headed there without trying to bring attention to myself.

I got to the alleyway and sat down and looked for water in my bag. I got it out but then heard laughing coming into the alley. Fuck fuck fuck fuck.

I shoved the bottle back in and tried to see who it was from behind the dumpster. I saw bakugos group of friends and him too. I didn't have this planned.

They saw me peeking and are starting to walk to my direction. I quickly sat down and tried to cover myself that I even was here but my backpack was too big.

"(Y/n)? Why are you here?" Kirishimas voice ranged out from the alley. I didn't answer and tried to look st something else.

"Did you run away from home? Bruh that's sick!" Denki tried to assure me but it didn't help in my case. "What did you say you little twerp? Me?! Running away from home?im no pussy!" I yelled getting up on my feet. He quickly went behind kirishima for cover.

"You guys go on ahead, I'll settle this" bakugo said glaring right at me. I glared back and balled my fists once again for round 2.

"But bakugo-" sero tried to protest but bakugo shook his head and they left without bakugo.

"Tch!" I snarled and sat back down. Bakugo dat across from me dusting off his bottom before sitting down.

We sat there, only hearing me munch on some oranges and drinking some water. Time passed without any of us saying anything.

"Look I don't do good with stuff like this but why'd you run away?" Bakugo said scratching his neck looking as if he was nervous. Didn't I beat his ass a day ago, why is he acting nice?

"Why do you care? Didn't I beat ur ass some time ago?" I said not minding that he would get pissed. "Huh?! I destroyed you! Don't you dare say I lost!" He said sounding angry. "I know damn well I didn't lose either!" I snarled back glaring darts at him.

"Fuck you then!" He said and started to get up. "I did" I simply said putting all my stuff away and dumping the orange peels into the dumpster.

"why?" He said coming back and sitting down but avoiding eye contact. "Fuck my mom, fuck my life and fuck my persona" I said signaling my three fingers as I was counting.

"wait what persona?" He said intrigued. I sighed knowing I have to explain my situation or else I'll end up dead in this dumpster itself. "Look, I'm all angry and shit all right! But my moms fucked up making me suicidal! These are my last days here!" I said but mostly yelled out of frustration.

I always had hard time expressing my feelings other than anger itself. Showing sympathy as well. So I was only known as the kid with anger issues my whole life. I played with a rock while he tried to understand.

"Wait are you going to end your life over your mom?" He said asking me. I know this tone of voice. I can already hear the laughing but I got up quickly. "I know haha, well I don't give a fuck! I'm gonna die so beat it!" I said telling him to leave. He sat there and I expected him to get angry or even laugh at me but he sat there staring at me.

"Hello? I said leave!" I stomped my foot and he flinched. That's the first time I ever saw his neutral face. No emotions were on his face. He got up and left without a word.

I sighed happily and sat back down drawing my knife out and trying to figure out how am I going to end it without doing too much.

A few seconds passes and heard running footsteps towards my direction. Fuck I placed it back and tried to seem like I was already leaving. "Look officers I'm on my way home!" I yelled with my back towards the people.

I felt arms around me and turned around. I had hugs from sero, kirishima, Mina and even denki. I didn't know them well so I started to yell at them. "You fuckers! Let go of me! I have a knife with me ima stab your arms out!" I yelled pulling their arms away in disgust.

"Don't hug strangers like that you fucking idiots!" I said wiping off their imaginary dust. "(Y/n)! We're headed to the arcade! Wanna come?" Denki said trying to pull my hand. I scoffed and pulled it back.

"As if! I don't wanna hang out with you guys! I have better stuff to do!" I said loudly and started to walk away. I heard them asking bakugo what to do next. I felt a hand touch my shoulder.

"How many times do I have to tell you! I said n-" I was going to yell at Denki but was met with bakugo glaring at me. "If you don't come with us, I'm reporting you to the police for running away and being mentally unstable" he whispered to my ear so the other couldn't hear.

I tried to not sound surprised but smacked my lips hard as I could sounding mad. "Fuckkkk youuu alll!" I said pushing bakugo away and turned to walk towards the arcade.

"Hurry the FUCK up before I change my mind!" I said fuming with rage as we began to walk towards our destination.

I kept kicking the floor, wanting to go back and sit the warm spot I had next to the dumpster. We finally arrived and I already hated it. "This is where you guys have fun?!" I asked and started to laugh but no one joined in. "Geez it's a joke dumbass " I said and headed inside to see the games.

Boring, boring , super boring, what even is that?

All these games looked like big ol jokes. I sighed boringly not wanting to be here. "Let's go get tokens!" Mina said and pulled my hand. "Hey fucker my hand still hurts!" I said seeing my bruises started to swell up yellow.

I did have other injuries severely around my body but I was wearing a hoodie and skinny black jeans after all.

"Here (y/n)!" She said and gave me a cup full of some tokens in there. "Fuck am I supposed to do with this?" I asked confused as to why were they giving out money. "You use those to play the games" kirishima said smiling at me and I pulled out a disgusted face. "Ugh this is so boring! Why did I even agree to come!" I said again and went to look around at a game I can entertain myself.

I was never brought into an arcade since my mother never had time for me so I don't recognize the games at all.

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sorry this is going to be a two part story! Thank you for reading and I'm sorry this is so all over the place! I'm trying my best úwù.