Kirishima

I'm so worried about them. After Bakugou left,they lost it. Everyone are worried about them and are wondering where Bakugou went. Only I know where he is,were he went. I want to tell them where he is so badly but I can't. I promised Bakugou. I try to be a comfort for everyone somehow and mostly for them. Y/n is suffering. They are not the same even the teachers tried to convince them to go into therapy,talking with a school counsellor  but they declined the offer and if anyone mentioned him,y/n would always breakdown. They were so terrifying,when they would get mad. I thought Bakugou anger is concerning and could be scary sometimes but I and everyone else were so wrong. Y/n is the big deal. Everyone tries to avoid them or at least try not to set them off. Their appearance changed too. They don't even try to look hygiene. They look so dead,beaten up. I would call Bakugou not telling him everything that is going on here. I would tell him however to think about this decision of his,that it's affecting everyone and especially y/n. I would tell them,they are grieving for his leaving. He would always tell me,that they will get over me and that nothing is going to change his mind,then would always end up the call before I could say anything else.

I'm in their dorm and watching over y/n. They are currently losing it again. Loud crashing,agony screaming could be heard. They are destroying everything they can. Tears are running down from their once beautiful eyes. They once shine like stars in the sky are now filled with sorrow and look hollow now. Around them was surrounding all the destroyed pieces they caused reflecting their inner emotions. I'm myself crying over their broken state,it hurts me deeply. Watching them so broken and fragile in front of me is so sad,they didn't deserve this. I don't know what Bakugou told them but I know it must be something bad. He told me,he was going to say goodbye to you,never gave me the details but I want to know what he told them. Maybe that way,I could help them better out.

Bakugou I hope this better be worth it otherwise I won't forgive you for once,what you've done. What were you thinking leaving us like this. Leaving them like this. Whatever the reason is,it should be a really good one.

I thought. After a while the sobbing could be heard but they died down a bit. They were lying down in the middle of the destroyed room looking into nothing and starting to calm down out of exhaustion. I wiped my own tears away and calmed my nerves. I started to clean the dorm of them and once I was finished with the majority part of it,I went to them back. Looking at them and realised they have fallen asleep already. This would happen most of the parts,it was a part of their and mine routine. They having these breakdown moments and me taking care of them. I picked them up and started my way to their bedroom.

"How could you" they mumbled broken looking up to me. They would always wake up for a moment in my arms.

"How could he leave us,leave me. Kiri tell me. How could he do this ?" They said and I looked t their tearful eyes. Again new tears that has builed,were falling down from their eyes. I put them in their bed and wiped their tears away.

"I don't know y/n. I honestly don't know but we know him right ? I'm sure he had a good reason." I said not convinced on my own words. I tried to come up with a logical conclusion. I knew Bakugou for a while and so far he would only do reckless decisions only for a good reason behind it but then again this was something new. Even for Bakugou standards,this was to much.

"I thought I knew him." They mumbled out with their broken voice and fell asleep right after that.

I watched them a bit then got up leaving them alone so they can get some rest. I took their phone and unlocked it. I knew their password. I went to their voicemail messages. Some old and new ones. I was about to stop listening when the the voicemail said.

1 voicemail from my Bear.

It was from Bakugou. I knew it's him since you're the only one calling him that. You saved this voice message and I couldn't help but I needed to know what he said and once I did,I knew why y/n was like this. All I could think of was.

What have you done Bakugou.

I felt all sort of emotions. I closed the voice message and locked their phone. Tossing it on the couch and left their dorm. I needed to call him. He needs to come back but I knew telling him this over phone won't do nothing but still I needed to call him. I went to Mina asking her if she could keep an eye on them for a moment just in case and told her the reason was,I have to do something urgently. She gladly accepted and didn't thankfully asked what I had to do. I went to my dorm only to come shorty after out and leaving the school campus. I called him.

"Hey shitty hair,thus better be important. You know I can't talk much" He said and his familiar voice echoing in my ears.

"Hey dude. How are you doing ?" I tried to sound as the usual but he could probably tell something was wrong.

"Kirishima,you don't call me casually ever. Get to the point what is it." He said and I knew it.

"I need to meet you now and no you can't talk yourself out of it Bakugou it's important. To important that I can't talk with you over the phone." I told him truthfully and with a sterm voice. Everything was silent. I could hear him breathing but nothing else. He was so usually quiet. He was thinking and before I could say anything else,he said something first.

"Alright tomorrow-

"No. Now." I cut him out firmly not letting him finish his sentence.

"Listen shitty hair you can't just walk up to me-

"It can't wait until tomorrow dude. I have to say it now." I cut him off again frustrated and desperate. I heard his groan of frustration.

"It's the worst Bakugou honestly I don't even know if there will be a tomorrow at this point. Please I'm actually begging you,I have to meet you now." I added. He and I both knew I had never begged before. He sighed out but agreed.

"Fine. This better be worth it. I send you my location. Meet me there." I heard his voice from the other line speaking again defeated but still firm then hug up.

I was standing in front of the location were he would be. I looked around wondering where he is until I heard his recognisable voice. I looked up and he was in front of the rooftop.

"Take the lift and come up here shitty hair." He called out for me. I ran inside the building and did as he said. After the lift gave the 'bing' noise,I ran out to him. Now Standing in front of him,catching my breath. I could feel Bakugou gaze at me,waiting for me to spill out whatever was so important for this meeting. I calmed down quickly looking up at him and could tell he's not looking good himself. He was still looking fine,better the y/n but still you could tell he was beaten up himself. It looked like he was in a fight not to long ago.

Just what are you hiding Bakugou.

I questioned myself but got back to reality,shaking the thought of and before Bakugou could ask me anything,I started the conversation.

"You have to come back dude." I said blunty out of nowhere. Just like that,I said it. He looked taking off guard for a moment because I blunted out just like that but got himself again and he looked pissed,distressed again.

"Just go back Kirishima." He just said cold and staring into my eyes piercing through my soul for a moment and then looked away. Walking away from me.

"You know I can't-

"I don't care at this point anymore. I don't even know how much y/n can take this before ending up killing themselves at this point Bakugou. You have to come back. Whatever your reasoning is." I cut him off not letting him talk. I was rambling everything out and ended up screaming at him at the last part out of frustration.

He turned his face in shock.

Bakugou

I stared at him stunned. A loud ringing in my ears were heard.

Did he just say they have become suicidal?

I asked myself in my mind. This overwhelming feeling turned into anger however quickly. I grabbed him by the collar and pressed him against the wall.

"The hell is that supposed to mean now ? I told you to look after them. You want me to believe,that they have become suicidal? The fuck Kirishima." I spat at him.

"Fuck off dude. I'm telling you the truth. I'm done Bakugou,I can't take it anymore. I backed you up even if I don't know your reason doing this but I still covered you up. Whatever you said,I did but I can't anymore. Y/n emotional breakdowns are ringing I my ear even now and is playing on loop in my head. I can't get it out Bakugou. They are suffering constantly and already look dead. I'm done patching them up after they cut themselves. I'm done carrying them to bed after their emotional breakdown,when they have fallen asleep on the ground out of exhaustion. I'm done answering their question 'why did he leave us,why did he leave me. How could he do this to me Kirishima ?' Because I don't know what answer I should give them ! Everytime someone mentions only your name they complete loose themselves. Always and up hurting someone,the majority of our friends even distanced themselves from y/n. They are terrified of y/n. All of them are either avoiding y/n or trying not to mention you around them. All teachers tried to convince them to get therapy but they refuse and isolate themselves in their dorm room. Bakugou they given up on themselves. I wanted to know why and then I heard the voice message. Dude that was to much and I'm done trying to figure also out why you're doing it. I tried to understand your actions but you know what I don't care Bakugou. They need you,you have to come back. They need you,their bear." He spat back and ended up crying in front me.

"I can't watch them so broken anymore. Just please come back." He was begging and bawling his eyes out. I let go of him and he grabbed my shirt burying his face into my chest.

I couldn't do or say anything. I dissociate and stared empty I front of the brick wall. Started crying myself silently.

Did I broke them so much ? I knew it would but I thought with Kirishima around and everyone else they could eventually move on. Like everyone else would after a break up but then why not y/n. Kirishima is not a liar,I don't want to believe him but I know as much as I don't want to admit it,that he's telling the truth. They are broken. Suffercating because of me. Damn it.

I gritted my teeth and thought to myself. I hugged him and let him cry onto me before I could stop myself,I ended up opening up to him.

"Secret mission. The hero commission asked me to go on a secret mission. Kirishima,I want to cone back,I want to be told them but I can't. I was told strictly not to mention about this to anyone 'cause of the enemies activities. They are everywhere eardropping and could use anything and everything against me. They are ready to do everything and anything in order to destroy you. I couldn't risk y/n into this. I had to be the asshole here and I don't know for once if I'm able to come back again. That's why I wanted you to look after them." I said letting my guard down and the wall that I build just to protect myself from emotional harm crushing down. I lowered my head,my hands holding him by the shoulders and pushing him against the wall and resting now my head on his shoulder. Now he was the one standing tall in front of me while I lowered myself.

"These knew villains are still unknown but they already caused so many harm. I'm the only suited for this mission and in order for me to take them down,I had to train like no one else before." I continued. Kirishima grip hardened around me. Trying to give me some sort of comfort.

"Why not hawks ? Why not any other pro hero ? Bakugou this is sick,the war happened against the league not to long ago. We had to fight against all kinds of villains not to long ago. We are second year students for fucks sake. You can't be serious with this,the hero commission can't be serious with this." Kirishima cries out. We hugged each other and I told him all about it and why it's me.

"Screw all of this. You,us aren't pros yet,we shouldn't be the one dealing with all this. Bakugou just come back please. I'm genuinely scared,that they are going to end themselves." He said and told me what I've missed. My heart aches so much knowing they are suffercating deeply,every second without me. I wanted so badly run to their dorms and hug them. Holding them close to me,telling them,that I'm right here and that I'm not going anywhere but I couldn't. I'm stuck.

Don't go please.
I'm right here teddybear,I'm not going anywhere and when you wake up,I'm the first thing you'll see.
Bakugou stop,I can't breath.
Then say better sorry or else I keep on tickling you.
Okay,okay,you little shit I'm sorry.
Hey! Don't call my boyfriend weak you freak,your quirk is called copy,look who's really useless here. It's a shame that you have to copy other elses quirk in order to be useful and feeling proud of themselves. Yet you have the audacity calling my boyfriend weak excuse yourself.
That's my partner I fallen for. (Whisper in their ear)
Oh shush please (they blushed)

Memories of y/n and mine are floating in my mind none stop. All kinds of memories we spent together. Even the little fight of how careless we take care of ourselves. Them falling asleep on me. Them building me up and pushing my ego of becoming the greatest hero. I wanted to scream so badly for telling them in that damn voicemail,how they hold me back from archiving my goals. It was a lie. I just had to say it in order to hurt them,pushing them away from me,keeping them save from myself but it backfired. I wanted to cry out in agony for hurting them because of me they are in pain. They are depressed and given up on living. I broke down on Kirishima,I couldn't take this anymore. I miss my teddybear to much,I just want to be with them and nothing else.

"Give me one day shitty hair. Just only one day. Keep an eye on them and I'm so fucking sorry. I fucking mean it,I didn't mean for all of this to happen but I just need one more day. Just give me that time and watch over them. I'm grateful,that you take care of them. You did a great job,I'm asking you for doing it one more day. I'm going to talk with the commission and contact you afterwards,how it's going from then on and I'm going to explain everything to them." I said with broken voice. I couldn't stay strong for the moment.

"What if they do it Bakugou,they are at the edge of doing it." Kirishima broken voice echoing through my ears. I took out my old phone and handed it to him.

"Tell them to listen to this voicemail on this phone and if they can't then you have to play it for them to hear it. I'm coming back soon. I promise if they won't let me go tomorrow know that I'm coming back soon." I said my voice still shaking a bit.

"Got it. I hope you come back tomorrow. Are those villains still all out there." Kirishima asked with hesitation.

"I've got the most of them but not all of them yet,that's the issue. I turned anotger 20 people in today. They're a fucking organisation." I grunted out exhausted.

"That explains why you look like shit." He joked a bit chuckling.

"You brat" I spat chuckling myself half hearted. We both stayed like this for a while in silence until Kirishimas phone rang. I pulled back and rested myself against the wall beside him. Kirishima answered the phone and turned the speaker on.

"Hey Mina. Is something wrong ?" Kirishima covered perfectly his real emotions sounding like his usual self is. He sounded cheerful but also caring.

"Kirishima whereever you went please come back right now." Mina voice sounded extremely worried over the phone.

"What's wrong? Is it y/n ?" Kirishima asked concerned now.

"Yes. They set a fucking fire in their own dorm. They are fine thankfully but I think they need someone right now and honestly Kirishima,I'm so exhausted. I need a break from all of this,this is to much to handle,seeing them so fucking hurt. The teachers and principle Nezu are actually considering kicking them out from school for a while and bringing them into a facility. I successfully convicted all of them to not do it yet but I'm sure they will end up sending y/n away soon,if nothing is going to change for the greater good soon." Mina cried. I wanted to cry and just explode everything around me when I heard this. Kirishima looked pale,being speechless and looking at me then in front of him,admiring the evening sky view. It's about to go dark outside soon.

"I'm on my way Mina and thank you for everything. I'll be there soon,just don't let them alone. I send you a list after the call of what you should do until I come back okay ?" Kirishima told her.

"Okay see you soon then." Mina said then hug up the phone. He did send everything to Mina and then faced me.

I just turned around facing the beauty colors of the evening sky giving us. I screamed my heart out,all of my pain,agony,suffering,bitterness,frustration and so much for then let my hands sparkle up for a moment,only to blow up the brick wall beside me. I breathed out heavily. I hate only thr thought of them hurting but hearing now first hand,they did tried to kill themselves,is nagging me.

"It's so my fault and I'll take the full responsibility for it. I know." I said beaten up.

"Just come back soon. Do whatever you have to Bakugou. That's all I'm asking you for. I missed you too. Not only they are suffercating but me too. I miss my best friend too." He said not hiding his emotions. I nodded at him we both gazed at the view until we both calmed down.

"I need to go for now" Kirishima announced after some time passed. I nodded at him understanding.

"Thank you for doing this and just for everything so far Kirishima." I truthfully told him my gratitude with that we said our goodbyes and he left.

I'm coming back soon y/n just wait a little longer for me please.... hang on your bear will hold you once again and then never let you go again....

I thought to myself.

Kirishima

I was sitting beside them,watching them sleeping peacefully now.

I love being a hero but sometimes there are things that pisses me off. Such as what happens right now. The hero commission came here and suggested taken y/n off for a few days would be a great idea. I interfered and told them,how dangerous this will end up if they do it. Thankfully Aizawa agreed and said he's taking full responsibility and is going to take care of y/n. He also put me in full charge of watching over them,meaning I got a hideous from any other classes and hero job. Honestly I miss it but I'm glad that the same time because being there for y/n and doing the hero classes at the same time was a real challenge for me.

I thought to myself.

"Bakugou..." they whispered. I took his phone out and was thinking about what he told me. Should I or shouldn't I tell them now. I looked at it thoughtfully and then at them.

"You don't wanna live or fight without him right ?" I asked out loud more to myself then actually asking them but they answered anyways.

"I told him no to get close to me not after what happened to me. I told him Kirishima. I told him,what happened to him and that I can't risk to be this close to anybody again. He still insisted and now look at me. It happened again. I can't loose anymore people Kiri. Just why did he do this?" They cried out broken speaking with numbness to me. It's like they are here but at the same time not. I decided to play the audio,that bakugou told me about. I gave them the phone and they looked confused,exhausted and with lost eyes into mine.

"Just listen and then decide whatever you want to do with it. Y/n please know that I genuinely didn't know about everything until recently and I promise everything will be explained to you once you listen to this audio. You can hate me too,I will completely understand." I told them looking with sad but comfort eyes to them,giving them a bit of my warmth. They teared up but took the phone and pressed the play audio. Their eyes widen in shocked after hearing Bakugous voice starting to speak out of the phone.

"Hey Teddybear,I know I'm the last person you want to hear right now and I understand it completely. Please before you decide to delete this audio or even yet to destroy this phone. I need you to listen to me,one last time. I know you miss me,hate me and are just lost,searching for answer of why I'm gone. I'm so fucking sorry but I had to do so. Teddybear believe me when I say I never wanted to do this and Please don't hate shitty hair for what I'm about to say. As you heard my goodbye audio before leaving you,I told you Kirishima will be there for you,the reason is,he's the only one who knew what I was about to do. No he didn't know why,he just knew I was going to do this,he was as lost as you until now. I can't tell you yet and neither can he,don't plush it out of him,I beg you. I'm going to tell you everything once I'm coming back. I promise. I made this audio before Kirishima met me today. He called me,telling me he needs to tell me something important,it's about you. He kept me updated every once I a while,how you did and it was the only time he was allowed to contact me,since I'm tensed all the time. I'm stuck Teddybear,I'm stuck in a uncomfortable situation and I needed you to be safe while I was leaving. I lied to you,just to make it easier for me to do this. Today however was different after hearing Kirishima it's about you,everything I my body stiffened. I knew him,he wouldn't insist if it wasn't necessary and he actually begged to met me on your behalf. That's when i knew it's serious. Which is why I'm taking this audio while Kirishima is on his way meeting me. Listen to me and listen to me well. You're gonna be okay,live for me,breath for me,don't give up on yourself. Your big bear is literally begging you right now. Whatever you've going through,don't give up on yourself. I'll be there soon to cuddle you and be there for you but until then my strong Teddybear,I fucking need you to keep on fighting. Damn it,I couldn't live peacefully without you. I lied when I said you're holding me back,when you and I both know,that you're the only one who pushed me to my full potential. It's not me who saved you,it's you who saved me from my worst self because of this now,it's my turn to safe you. Let me be your superhero. Your dynamight. Once I'm back everything will be answered,I never stopped loving you and thank you for keeping up with this explosive guy,thank you for sticking with me. Thanks you for making me a better men and a hero and Kirishima there is a lot for you to know about but I'm just going to say this. I'm glad that we've met and what you're doing is not taking lightly. You didn't have to do this even if I asked you. You red hair loser need to give yourself more credit and need to stop talking shit about yourself. You always talk of wanting to be a great hero just like crimson riot but don't realise that you already are the greatest hero already you red hair idiot. You're count as being a few people who can keep up with me. The fact my temper doesn't faze you says already something. You're an amazing friend. I swear if you say anyone this,I'm gonna kick your ass,kill you then everyone else and then myself. I can't imagen what I left behind and you have to deal with all of it but know that I'm sorry to let all of this burden being on your shoulders. I'll take all of this burden away from you soon. That's a promise I will keep. You two be there for each other and keep the gang together as much as you can. This suffering will end soon. I'm never stopping thinking about you all,especially my partner and you shitty hair,I can't stop thinking about you two ever. Stay safe both of you and Teddybear I love you."

They were crying and laughing at the same time. They had a complete emotional breakdown again but thos time it was me too,who stared blankly in front of me.

He guessed something was wrong and dud this audio to lift the both of us up. I can't believe it. He planned everything and wanted to tell me from the start what was wrong here. He only trusted me enough. Bakugou,god I can't believe you men. Thank you for having so much faith in me and don't worry I'm not gonna fail you. I promise you as your friend and as a hero,being red riot,I'm gonna carry your burden until you come back again. I'm gonna be there for y/n too. You can count on me.

I thought but got dragged out of once y/n spoke up.

"Fuck you katsuki bakugou. Fuck you so much my bear. Fuck myself fir being so emotional bonded with you. I'm gonna kick your sorry ass once you dare to come back. You left me broken and lost on the dark and dare now to speak up about the real reason for doing this to me. How dare you ? I miss you,you asshole. Just come back and hug me already so I can push you away,just so I can scream to not to touch me. Right now I have only for you a hatelove feelings but how would you know,you're not here." Y/n choked out between tears.

"Y/n please,he has a reason. Please don't hate him,don't despise me please." I spoke with low voice,scared they mind scream at me. They jump into my chest and hugged me.

"I don't despise you but I'm in pain and angry at you so fucking much Kirishima for keeping this a secret from me. You knew I was devastated after he did this to me and you never said anything to me." They said filled with anger and between sobs.

"Y/n I've would've if I could. I swear,I didn't mean to." I said resting my head on their shoulder feeling ashamed for being silent and keeping it a secret but I had no other choice.

"I know that's why I don't hate you,so don't worry about it,I'm just hurt by all of this." They said their voice being muffled while speaking into my chest.

"I know y/n. I know,try to get some rest,who knows tomorrow maybe things will change into better circumstances." I whispered into their ear and it didn't take 5 min for then to fall asleep on me out of exhaustion. I put them in bed and laid besides them. Keeping eye on them.

Damn I can't wait telling my future partner about this and maybe my kids some day. This is crazy. No one would ever believe me this.

I thought to myself chuckling a bit.

"These people don't pay me enough for this crap of what is happening here. It's like we're in some sick kind of romance movie or show." Aizawa voice was heard out of nowhere. I stood up seeing Aizawa in front of the door. Leaning on the entrance. I chuckled nervously.

"Me either Mr.Aizawa. it's really crazy but I guess crazy is our normal in u.a right? " I said nervously chuckling a bit trying to lift the tensed atmosphere by my joke.

"I guess so. Nothing surprises me at this point. You guys know how to get in trouble all the time,I guess it's your second nature then again after what happened not to long ago,it's no wonder that everyone is going crazy once a while. The villian vs hero war is still fresh stucked into our mind." Aizawa said and looking at the sleeping face of y/n.

"Go to your dorm Kirishima and it's not a request. You need some rest and I insist. I'll keep an eye on them for you. You are my students after all,which means this is my responsibility." He said now Standing in front of me and his hand was resting on my shoulder. I wanted to protest but gave in then glanced one last time to y/n,after that I took my leave.

Aizawa

This reminds me of the older days in my youth. Hey Kayama is this watch you meant by taking care of kids ? What you did when they needed motivation and I joked about it. I understand now the hard work you did. Rest in peace at least you don't have to deal with the crazy problem children anymore. I can't believe I need to deal with them all alone now. At these moments I still can't help but miss you. Give me patient and some strength I will need it.

I thought and watching y/n sleeping peacefully.

"I thought Midoriya was my problem child all along side with bakugou now I got you too. You guys know how to keep me busy can't you." I said more to myself then to them and shook my head exhausted and tired of all of this drama.