⚠️angsty⚠️
Bakudeku
Pro hero au
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      "Where is he!" I shove my way through a team of doctors. They all step aside, glad to part for their number two hero. A few call out for autographs and pictures, but I push them off, even more than usual. I don't have time. I need him. I need Izuku

If it's gonna get violent tonight
Tell me you're gonna be alright
You're gonna be
It's an eye for an eye
And I don't know if I
Want you to fight

       That bastard! That stupid, shitty, heroic, beautiful bastard! Someone else could've handled it! Someone else should've handled it! I collapse onto my knees, in front of the hospital bed
"Deku..." I trace my hands through the hair of the unconscious boy in front of me "I am so sorry, babe. I told you it was safe. Now look at you... in a coma. With broken bones... heh, that hasn't happened in a bit" I bury my head in Izuku's chest, and I soon start to sob "come back to me, my love"

I'm losing my mind
Don't leave me behind
We need a bit more time

      The faint pinging from the heart rate monitor is the only noise that dares break through the fragile silence. The beeps are getting farther apart... not yet! Not yet! I don't speak. I can't move. I holds Izuku's hand in his own. He looks so small, in a hospital bed like this. So fragile

Cause I
Don't want the world to turn without you
And I
Don't want the sun to burn without you
Yeah I
Don't want the world to turn without you
And I
Don't want the sun to burn without you

        How does this happen? How did we get here? A month ago, we'd been waking up, side by side, in their bed. It was my birthday. Was that only a month ago? A few days later, it was a gala. We had danced for hours, hand in hand. Then I was down on one knee... he was saying yes... I was engaged to the love of my life. How had it only been a few weeks since then? Then, we were taking down villains together. We were unstoppable. We were a team. Then there was a villain. Nobody could stop him. No matter how hard they tried. But Izuku... that beautiful bastard, he thought he could

You don't have to be the brave one every time
I know you wanna make it right
You wanna make
It's a lie for a lie
And I'm getting tired
On the other side
On the other side

      He should've known! He should've known he wasn't strong enough! Everyone had told him! Everyone but me...
"Midoriya please!" That was Todoroki "think this through! You can't stop him alone!"
"Deku!" That had been Uraraka "it isn't safe! We need to wait for orders from the agency! Please, just wait!" I was the only one who didn't try to stop him
"You've got this, my love. Good luck" were... were those my last words to Izuku? No final 'I love you'?

I'm losing my mind
Don't leave me behind
We need a bit more time
Can you hear my cry?
An old lullaby
Drifting through the sky

       This is all my fault. All my fault... if I had just tried to stop him! Izuku always listens to me! If I had just told him it wasn't safe! Why hadn't I just told him! Why hadn't I said 'I love you'! Just one more time...
"I love you, Izuku!" I sob, trying to get my lover to hear me. But I know it won't work. How could I speak to him? He isn't awake. He can't wake up. He's in a fucking coma, and it's all my fault! He could die! And it's all. My. Fault.

Cause I
Don't want the world to turn
Without you
And I
Don't want the sun to burn
Without you
Yeah I
Don't want the world to turn
Without you
And I
Don't want the sun to burn
Without you

"Izuku..." what do I say? The doctors said it would help if I talked to him. Make his last moments easier. But what can I say? I can't say I'm sorry. I never could. I still can't "my Izuku..."
'why are you crying! So fucking weak! Grow a fucking spine already! How can you be sad about losing him?! You bullied him for years! You told him to kill himself! You have no fucking right to be sad! Pathetic! Useless! After he saved you from those villains as a kid, this is how you repay him?!' I wrap arms around Izuku's unconscious body, and bury my face into his chest "Izuku..."

Hold me now
Hold me like I never did anything
To hurt you
Don't let go
Give me another minute
To lay here in your echo

I can't stop crying. No matter how hard I try, I can't force myself to stop sobbing. How do I stop crying? How do I push this down, like I always do? How do I forget... I start by pulling the ring off of my finger. Two stones, one amber and the other green, interlock. But not anymore. I'm not his anymore. He isn't mine. We are nobody's. We are alone. We are everybody's. We are together. We are everything but each other's.

I
Don't want the world to turn
Without you
And I
Don't want the sun to burn
Without you
Yeah I
Don't want the world to turn
Without you
And I
Don't want the sun to burn
Without you

       I can't be yours. Not if you are like this. I can't be anybody's. If I'm not yours, I am nobody's. Your hand is limp in mine. Is that the hand I'll be holding forever? Is this really the boy who held me through every nightmare, every panic attack, every screaming fit. Is this really the boy who was always there. Who always loved me. Is this really the boy who stood in front of me in our last year at UA. Who looked me in the eyes and said those words... those words I'll never be able to say again
"Kacchan" you had said "I love you". I will never say that again. I will never hear that again. Not without you.

I
Don't wanna live a life
Without you

     I will never be loved like I was with you. I will never love like I did with you. I will never be who I was with you. I'll never hear your laugh again. Beep... beep... beep... the space between each beep is longer, until there are none at all. There are doctors rushing in. I don't hear a word they say. They are trying their best. But even doctors can't bring back the dead. Nobody can. I look at your face one more time, before you're gone. Your beautiful face. I'll kill him. The man who did this to you. I'll kill everyone who hurt you. I won't be able love. I won't be able to live. After all, whats life, without the one you love? There's no purpose in being here. Not without you

I
Will watch the world burn
Without you

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