You hated emotions.

 You hated feelings. 

You hated it all. 

Why?

That's how your life always was.

That was your childhood.

It was how you were raised.

Your mom never taught you how to love, she had never set a good example for you.

 Your father was the same way, he never taught you how to feel, he never held your mom's hand despite being married. 

You were always lied to.

 So you just didn't show any feelings for anything or anyone.

As you grew up, people started calling you 'Robot' and 'Blank Face' cause you were emotionless. You didn't have any friends at school so you always sat in the back, listening to music while doing your work. 

Those people laughed at you when you told them you got into UA. They told you that they wouldn't accept someone who doesn't show any emotion to one of the best hero training academies in Japan. 

Nevertheless, you were accepted. 

 Your quirk was interesting, well unique as your aunt had called it before. You were able to have demon wings or angel wings. It was half-angel, half-demon. 

When you arrived on the campus of UA, you knew you were in for a ride, knowing what kind of kids went there. You found your class, Class 1-A and sat down at an empty desk, and put your headphones on. 

After 20 minutes, you spot a few people walk into the classroom chatting. They see you as you are putting your headphones away. None of them knew what to do or say, except for some boys. 

They walked over to you and tapped your shoulder. This shocked you and your demon wings appeared, which caused them to look at you amazed. Nobody had ever liked your quirk so you always hid it from everyone.

"That's your quirk?" a boy who looked like a human version of a Pikachu from Pokemon asked you. "Why yes it is Pikachu, it is one part of it, now go, Ash Ketchum is waiting for you," you reply, earning a few laughs from the other boys. "Ok, first off, rude, second off, what do you mean by one part?" he asked looking offended. You then show them your angel wings, making them look more amazed than they were when your demon wings appeared. They started complimenting you. You were confused, you never had people say good things about your quirk in your entire life. 

After that, a boy who looked like a red-haired version of Kazuichi Soda sat at the desk in front of you and turned to look at you. You felt a slight pain in your chest when his crimson red eyes looked at your e/c ones. You had pushed away that feeling, acting like it was nothing. 

~Time Skip~

It had been 4 months since you met your classmates, who are now your friends. You didn't tell them that you were emotionless, well that was until Mina asked you why you were always so distant from everyone. You explained to her your situation, which she understood.

She also noticed that something else was happening to her best friend. 

You were hanging out with her in her dorm. It was going all fine and dandy when she suddenly spoke up. "Hey Y/N?" she asked mischievously. "Yeah?" you replied. " I just noticed something," she said giggling. "What is it?" you ask. "You and Kirishima seem to be pretty close and I was wondering.... do you like him?" she asked. You began to blush, something that had never happened to you before. "I-I I do not know...." That's when Mina began to fangirl. "You two would make such a cute couple!" she squealed. You blushed even more before mumbling under your breath. "I guess I do like him...but what's the point..."

A few days passed since that conversation and all Mina tried to do was get you and her middle school best friend together. She shoved you into him all the time, she invited him to sit next to you at lunch, she made sure you two always were training together. 

One day though, after classes, you bolted off into the dorms in order  to avoid Mina's shenanigans. You grabbed your guitar from your dorm and started walking into the common room and sat down on the couch playing it and singing. 

https://youtu.be/-I1gy7S3SVs

Momma never told me how to love

Daddy never told me how to feel

Momma never told me how to touch

Daddy never showed me how to heal

Momma never set a good example

Daddy never held momma's hand

Momma found everything hard to handle

Daddy never stood up like a man

I've walked around broken

Emotionally frozen

Getting it on

Getting it wrong

How do you love someone

Without getting hurt?

How do you love someone

Without crawling in the dirt?

So far in my life

Clouds have blocked the sun

How do you love, how do you love someone?

How do you love, how do you love someone?

I was always the chosen child

The biggest scandal I became

They told me I'd never survive

But survival's my middle name

I've walked around hoping

Just barely coping

Getting it on

Getting it wrong

How do you love someone

Without getting hurt?

How do you love someone

Without crawling in the dirt?

So far in my life

Clouds have blocked the sun

How do you love, how do you love someone?

How do you love, how do you love someone?

It's hard to talk

To see what's deep inside

It's hard to tell the truth

When you've always lied

How do you love someone

Without getting hurt?

How do you love someone

Without crawling in the dirt?

So far in my life

Clouds have blocked the sun

How do you love, how do you love someone?

How do you love someone

And make it last?

How do you love someone 

(Love someone)

Without tripping on the past?

So far in my life

Clouds have blocked the sun

How do you love, how do you love someone?

How do you love, how do you love someone, someone

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After singing, you did not notice everyone staring at you with faces mixed with shock and concern. You run away crying from them and to the elevator that lead to your dorm room. 

As you pressed the button that opened the elevator doors you heard someone else's footsteps following yours. You run into the elevator and cover yourself with your angel wings so the person couldn't see your tears. Then you felt that person poke your wing, which tickled, causing you to giggle, moving the wings away from your face. You then notice that the person who had followed you was none other than your crush, Eijiro Kirishima. 

"Y/N, you alright? You ran off on us there," he asked. You didn't respond, you didn't want him to hear your tears. He then hugged you, that's when you broke. You sobbed into his shirt clutching it. He then carried you to your dorm and set you on your bed. He never let you go.

After a few minutes of tears and comfort, you were able to tell him everything about your life that you hid from everyone. After you were done, you realize he didn't walk away, like the others did. 

He then lifted up your head and wiped your tears away. "Those tears are clouding up your beautiful e/c eyes Y/N" he said with a gentle shark toothed smile, causing you to go red as his dyed hair. You then look at him in the eye, you wanted the truth of his feelings and why he was being so nice to you.

"Kiri...be honest with me....how do you feel about me?" you ask. He then picked you up off of your feet and looked down.

"I love you so much, and you don't even know it. Sometimes I get scared about showing it. It feels like when you come around me, my mouth locks tight, and the words I want to say are just stifled. My lips lock up because my love is so strong, and the words that I want to say just can't be expressed. Sometimes I want to open up and tell you how I feel, but I guess I'm just too scared. I know you love me, and you have feelings hidden inside, too. It seems like it isn't any easier for you to express yourself to me, than for me to express myself to you. I love you, so please know that I always will."

You tear up, and they weren't sad tears either, they were tears of...joy. You look at Kirishima and tell him that you have felt the same way about him. Then, he kissed you, holding your delicate form while you kissed back holding onto his strong frame.

You used to hate emotions.

You used to hate feelings.

You used to hate it all.

But now that changed.

Why?

All because of red haired boy that taught you how to feel.