"Mum!" I called out as I returned from a sleep over at Kyle's house.

I had bought her a few of her best snack because I knew she was going to be supper mad I didn't come home last night.

"Mum!" I yelled as I entered our small cabin which sits at a secluded place in the pack land.

"Guess what I got you" I yelled as I checked the sitting room for her she wasn't there.

There was an awkward silence that filled the whole house. Yes, the house is always quiet but this one is a little strange, a little frightening if you'll say.

"Mom!" I called in an unstable tone as I made my way up the stairs, then to her room. She wasn't there but I could smell her scent close by so I checked the bathroom.

"Mom!" I yelled in horror as the package of snack I was carrying came crashing to the ground. I jolted to her side as she laid stiff on the ground, her body felt cold and the second time in my life I was scared, the type of scared that could leave you hopeless forever.

I had managed to get myself together and I mind linked Azriel who miraculously managed to process the gibberish I was saying and sent for help. In a few minutes help arrived and I could only cry and beg my mom to come back to life during that time. She was rushed to the pack's hospital and luckily for us, we have a pack doctor, pack doctors are really scare and only the strong packs had on. My pack is no where near strong but still we are fortunate enough to have one.

She was hospitalized for days and during those days I had skipped school. I would either be crying my eyes on Kyle's shoulder when he was around or starring at my mom's lifeless figure. It was a critical state because her wolf had not resurfaced since my father had died.

Luckily,she had scaled through and when I asked her why she did it she said she was afraid I had gone like my father and she was too afraid to face the reality. Since then I have never returned later then 9, until now.

I ran through a short cut that had thorn bushes on its part but I couldn't care less as I dashed through it. All that was on my mind was the lifeless figure of my mom lying on the bathroom tiles. I wouldn't forgive mgslef if anything happens to her.

"Mom!" I yelled as I broke into the first door.

"Blyana?" Mother appeared from the kitchen looking puzzled.

Mom!" I sighted in relief as I ran to hug her. I tried to calm myself as I sniffed her, she always smells like home, and vanilla too.

She probably lost track of time and forgot that the time was fast spend.

"You're late!" She accused

Or maybe not.

"I'm sorry, I was out with Azriel and...."

"Is he still disturbing you about it?" She asked sternly as she turned me to face her.

"No!" I replied after hesitating a bit.

"Good, because of he is..." She began

"I said he's not!" I cut her short raising my voice than I intended as she widened her eyes in shook. I have never raised my voice at her...until now. I was the perfect daughter she wanted, it's not like I have a choice anyway, she is has changed since Father's death and the only thing keeping her at bay is me. I can't afford to misbehave.

"I'm sorry mom!" I apologized

"It's okay!" She replied sharply.

"What's smelling so good!" I asked while walking into our small but decent kitchen.

"I made dinner!" Mother answered as she came in after me.

"You did?" I asked surprised. Mom hasn't made any meal since Father's incident. I have always done the cooking and when I couldn't, we order stuff.

"Yay!" I squeaked in excitement jumping up a bit.

"I'm going to take a shower first" I informed as I made my way up the stairs but not before giving her a peek to her cheek.

I made my way to down the hallway. Our house was really small. It had a sitting room, a really small dining room that stood in between the sitting room and the kitchen and on the upper part of the house they were two rooms and bathrooms. One for me and the other for mom. I used to share a room with her till I moved out a few months ago.

I stripped and got ran cold shower down my body. I have always love the feeling it gives. I closed my eyes as I allowed the water to run down my body as my mind flashed to my earlier discussion with Azriel.

"You can't stop living your life for her Yana!" He had said as we prepared the packhouse for the guests arriving tomorrow from another pack.

"You don't understand Azriel! I can't" I had told him as we arranged the furnitures in the hallway of the packhouse. Everything must be perfect so we had to do it ourselves.

"This has been your dream since I can remember... Well, until 2 years ago!" He continued.

"You know thing have changed since then!" I yelled as I slammed the table I was moving on the ground making a loud sound.

"Drop it!" I had warned as we continued in silence.

Mother had simply forbidden me to take up Ariel's offer as his beta. Damn, it was my right. My father had been the beta before he died. Actually, he died while defending the pack from rouges.

Mother had not taken well, we moved out of the pack house and she limited all contact with pack members. She blames the alpha for his dead. She has never said that but it's really not hat hard to see her hatred towards the alpha.

Her wolf was ripped apart after the incidence and went has never showed up since. I missed playing tag with her wolf.

She had also forbidden me from getting involve in any fighting activities which includes training. I'm a wolf, what's a wolf that has no fighting ability? Azriel trains me sometimes, though it's just basic move.

"Blyana!" Mother called as I flinged my eyes opened to reveal my mom right in front of me causing me to flinch.

"Mom!" I exclaimed

"What? I have been yelling your name since" she defended. Mother can't mind link because her wolf isn't active.

"Your food is getting cold" she informed before leaving.

I got dressed and made my way down for dinner. It was simply delicious and mother watched me eat it all.

I made my way to bed anticipated for tomorrow. We are hosting one of the pack doctors and a few warriors of the biggest pack in the world. One of our pack member suffers from a very rare disease and he needed the help of expert doctors. It had taken our alpha 8 months and some expenses before we could land this gig so yes, it's a big deal for our pack.

Azriel had asked me to stand with him as his future beta and I think I would. If I would ever be a beta I would have to let mom start letting mom see me as one and maybe accept the fact that I was meant to be one.

I closed my eyes letting sleep take control as I anticipated tomorrow.