Levi's POV

"Please let me stay the night Levi I will be gone before you wake up I promise!"

I chuckle and nod, "okay okay you can stay."

I can't help but smile as he jumps up and down in my bedroom. I want him to stay. He keeps my nightmares away.

We get dressed for bed and just for my sanity I ask to borrow Eren's shirt for the night he gladly gives it to me. I slip it on and find it too big. With a sigh of relief I curl up in my queen size bed and Eren slips in behind me. He pulls the navy blue comforter over us and I wiggle a little. His strong arms wrap around me and I let out a relaxed sigh before falling asleep.

Eren's POV

The sun shines in my eyes waking me from a light sleep. I look down to find Levi nestled in my arms with his thigh on my hip and his head in my chest. I kiss the top of his head and carefully scoot away from him. I Did promise to be gone before he woke up.

He mumbles in his sleep but before I have time to make out anything they turn into screams.

"No! WAIT STOP!" his eyes shoot open they are full of fear and unshed tears.

I pull him against me tightly and cradle him in my arms rocking up slowly. I don't see him like this often but when I do I never find the right words. Levi buries his face in my chest and begins to cry...

Levi's POV

The nightmare felt so damn real just like it always does. I wish I couldn't remember it at all but I do... My body is numb again and all I can think about is that night...3 years now...3 long agonizing years. I cling to Eren like he's a life line. God he Is my life line...

He kisses my forehead and chuckles weakly, "sorry I wasn't gone before you woke up."

I scowl and wipe my eyes, "I'm glad you weren't."

He smiles down at me and I get up slowly, "I need a shower."

Eren flashes me a sweet smile and nods. I grabs fresh clothes and my every day routine begins again. It's always the same; bathroom, brush teeth, shower, get out, dry off, get dressed. Sometimes I eat breakfast sometimes I don't. Instead of going back to my room I go to the kitchen to find Eren setting a plate of pancakes on the table.

"Eren you spoil me you know..."

He shrugs it off, "Anything to make you happy."

Eren puts peanut butter on our pancakes and covers them with blueberry syrup before holding out a bite for me.

I damn near loose my shit, "oh you are Feeding me now? Would you like to change my diapers too?"

Eren glares and me and for a moment I think he's mad.....until he bursts into laughter. I can't help but laugh too. Everything about this beautiful boy is infectious.

Eren's POV

I offer to wash the dishes and surprisingly my clean freak boyfriend doesn't mind, though I can feel his piercing gaze on me as I clean up my mess. I get dressed to go to town for flowers with Levi and I pause at our cars.

"Levi do you wan-"

"I'm not driving." He tosses me the keys to his Charger.

I nod and open the passenger door for him. I knew he wouldn't want to drive. After making sure he is in i close the door and hop into the driver seat. The radio is off when I start the car up and I figure it's best to keep it that way even though Levi's CD is A Fever You Can't Sweat Out. I drive to the flower arrangement shop a few miles from Levi's house and go in. Levi never follows.

The lady at pick up smiles at me, "What's the name on your order Sir?"

"Levi. Levi Ackerman."

She walks into the cooler and brings out a doze white roses. I hand her the receipt of payment wish her a good day before heading back out to the car. Levi is staring blankly ahead out of the windshield.

"Honey here they are," I smile.

"Oh they're beautiful as ever," he holds them on the car ride back to his house.

Levi's POV

At home I get out and set the roses in the seat, "see you later okay Eren?"

He nods' "I love you Levi."

"I love you too."

I walk back inside as Eren backs out of the driveway again. Closing the front door, I walk up to my room and sit on my bed with my face in my hands.

Why did I live?..
Why was it just me?..
I should have died with them..

I open the bottom drawer of my nightstand and lift up the false-bottom. There it is. My razor blade...

Third Person POV

Eren pulls into the cemetery he has been to so often and parks the car grabbing the roses out of the passenger seat.

Levi sits alone in his room with a towel under his arm. Holding his blade tightly he looks over the old scars on his wrists.

Eren walks up to the first grave he needs to visit with a rose in hand.

Eld.....

Levi drags the blade across his skin blood pooling on his wrist.

Eren walks to another grave.

Oluo....

Tears well up in Levi's eyes as he makes his second cut.

Eren brushes some dead grass off the next and places the rose on the headstone with care.

Gunther...

Levi doesn't feel the the stinging in his wrist as the razor bites his skin a third time.

Eren gently sets the 4th rose down and kisses the marble stone.

Petra.........

Levi grits his teeth as tears flow down his cheeks the last cut he makes is a vertical line right down the middle of his wrist. Oh what the hell. Another self-loathing vertical slash to match on his other wrist.

Eren wipes his eyes and gets back in the car driving to Levi's house.

Levi holds his wrists up to stare at the fresh wounds. He is numb. He doesn't feel the pain. Ever so slowly between his eyes, clouded with tears, and the black creeping into his vision the cuts on his arms turn into blurred lines.

*yep so there's chapter 2 feel free to leave comments about what you think and if I should continue this story*