You know I never actually forgave you for what you did
when you begged me all those years ago

I haven't forgotten about you either

I can still recall the freckles on your nose, your cheeks

How you smiled at me when I said something funny,

The way you raised your hands to touch your face when you were frustrated during an argument.

Oh god, I wish I could forget you, forgive and move on

But all the decisions I made believing you were right, thinking you were wrong,

all the things I said in your defense, against you in spite are hard to take back.