Hey babies.
Since this is that last chapter I figured i would double update so that i leave a good memory for me in your hearts 😭😂

Dramatic much ?
No but seriously i am emotional that this is the Good bye chapter.

I started writing this novel in 2015 and i published it here in 2017 and now we're 2021... I've learned so much, most importantly i learned that i should update regularly😂😂
Four years in 80 chapters and 10 author notes are very long period of time 😂😂😂. Sorry?

Enjoy the last chapter of this delightful journey 💗

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My heart beats pick up and my heart is fighting all nature laws and wants to break free from my chest while my lungs are being stubborn and refuse to let me breathe properly.

I must be dreaming.

For four month and a half I've been dreaming of the moment we will finally face each other, back then my imaginations weren't exactly the best because well I was trying to hate him but now after knowing everything, I think I might faint from how fast my heart is going.

I want to turn around, I want to see him yet I'm afraid.

I'm ashamed, I hurt him so much.

I was selfish.

I took a deep breath and slowly turned to face him.

The moment I saw him, everything stopped.

Every single thing around us stilled.

Time stops.

The streets, the passers-by people from between us in Washington's busy streets, even the lights and the cars passing by. Everything stilled around me the moment my blue eyes collided with his brown ones.

I'm struggling to breathe or even stand still, everything within me is trembling.

My hands are shaking, my knees can't carry me and my breath is coming out short and fast.

My eyes took him in, focusing on every detail in the man they worship.

He changed.

He's more muscular now as if he has been exercising the pain away. His facial hair is grown more than I'm used to, not the light hair he had before which was 70% of the time shaved, his hair is short now, very short almost not their and now his mustache and beard are obvious and heavy giving his face a more serious look. Under his eyes are obvious dark circles. He's wearing dark grey perfectly tailoring suit and light dark dress shirt which is tight as well and losing the tie with first 3 buttons open The whole outfit showed his huge muscular figure perfectly as if telling me, look what you've been missing.

It looks as if he just came out of a meeting or something, yes he always wears formal but if he has something. If he's free he wears casual formal.

I want nothing in this whole world right now but to hug him so bad, to run into his arms are make him hug me into his huge arms, I want to feel safe again.

He's my home.

I'm ready to go back home, if he accepts me.

For max's talk I think Williams is pretty mad at me.

Wait! how did he come now? Is it a coincidence?

He walks slowly to me and I did the same, his eyes didn't leave a part in me without going over it ones and twice and third. As if he's scanning me, making sure that I'm the same old me.

Then his eyes settled on my belly.

He placed his knotted hand on his mouth and his eyes glossed.

The hard face is now an emotional one.

My heart itched.

How could I ever think to take her away from him!

To take him away from her!!

How did I do this to him those past 4 month!

I really was selfish and I didn't think of him and what he might be going through.

We are face to face now, I'm breathing loudly.

I'm holding my tears by a miracle.

He's breathing loudly with glossy eyes, our eye contact is stronger than iron, no one can break this but us. I was stupid enough those past 4 month trying to break us apart.

I'm never doing that again.

Our eyes are speaking million words at ones.

"i-I... I really....ah" he kept searching for words looking between my eyes with shaky voice and one hand tugging his hair and the other behind his neck rubbing.

No need. I know what he wants to say.

"me too" I whispered with a sob, salty tears running freely down my face now, I couldn't hold them in anymore.

With no further words I burry myself deep into his arms.

His arms almost immediately warp themselves around me in an iron grip, pushing me into him the hardest way he can manage to.

The moment his arms warp themselves around me and mine his neck, it's as if both of us have been hit by a huge wave, we both inhaled loudly.

My soul finally came back to my body.

I warped my arms tighter around his neck burying my face harder into him, inhaling his scent.

I didn't realize until now how bad I missed him.

"I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so sorry" he kept whispering as his arm is warped around my waist and the other around my neck and caressing my hair.

"n-n-o I am...I'm so so sorry, I shouldn't have ever left" I apologized as well still hugging him and crying.

I now realize how bad I missed him throughout those months.

I stayed away thinking that this way we both will be better.

I was actually torturing both of us.

I hurt us both and caused us more pain without meaning to.

I was a fool.

"oh my god! how I missed you" he whispered into my neck pulling me even more to him.

I warp my arms tighter around his neck and burry my head more into him.

"I missed you so much Williams. I'm so sorry. No matter how many times I apologize, it will never be enough" I cried into his chest and he moved his head backwards and looks into mine with his glossy ones.

His stare is the same old one I'm used to, Full with care, Adoration and absolute pure love.

How did I ever have the heart to walk away from that!

How did I possibly doubt that love!!

"Rosabella, now is our time. Let the past be just that." He told me and I nodded biting my lip.

He stares at my lip and inhales sharply.

"fuck it! If I wanna kiss you, I will fucking do it" he said through his teeth and in a split of a second his lips were on mine.

The moment out lips touch we both inhale loudly. My hands tug at his chestnut roots and his hands around my waist pull me in as we kiss urgently as if it's the end of the world, As if there's no tomorrow.

He kissed me with the same passion he did when we first kissed.

As if tasting some pleasure that was forbidden for the first time.

My sweet torture.

All the time he is been kissing me, his hands were palming my face.

He broke the kiss for us to breath.

Our foreheads still touching and our eyes are closed still trying to catch our breath.

I took a grip of his hands in mine then place them both my swollen belly.

He opened his eyes and a very weird emotion past by them, almost as if he can't believe it.

He took two steps away from me and stares at my belly.

He's not touching me, just staring at my belly.

His cheeks are red and his nose and I witnessed the most moving thing I've ever seen.

He placed his hands on his mouth and free salty tears ran down his cheeks.

Oh my god.

I couldn't not help but cry as well.

"oh my god" he whispered still crying as he came my way and place both of his palms flat against my belly and right at the moment she kicks lightly.

Oh my god that's the first time for her to move!

His eyes went wide and he looked at me then back at my belly. This made me laugh while crying.

"your baby just said hello to daddy"  I told him softly and he laughed lightly while crying.

Another strong kick made me yelp in surprise and he laughed loudly still bending down at my belly's height with both of his hands on my belly.

"excited to see daddy aren't we?" I asked her while laughing lightly and sniffling away my tears as I place my hands on top of his.

Moving things from afar took my attention and I think I saw paparazzi taking pictures while standing far away, I also notice people snapping pictures with their phones.

I got used to this whenever I'm with Williams, I mean at least they're not next to us or bothering us, they're standing from a distance.

"you love your daddy?" he asked her lowly and to my surprise she kicks again.

This made us both laugh and stare into each other's eyes.

"I think she does love her daddy" I told him smiling and his face lights up.

"it's a girl?" he asked me hopeful.

Yeah I remember him telling me how he always wanted a babygirl.

I wanted the baby boy.

"it's a girl" I repeated nodding and he laughs out loud.

Seeing him this happy made me happy.

Then he stood up and stares into my eyes.

"have you named her already?" he asked me looking at the ground.

Poor baby.

"how can i? i knew that this can never be over, what we have can never end. I wanted us to name her together." I told him and he smiled widely.

"I always knew that no matter how mad you were and how long you stay away, you'll eventually come home to me." He told me and I nodded.

"Honestly I knew this too. After max clarified everything to me, I figured that that's it, I need to come back and I prayed that you'd take me back" I told him looking at the ground and feel his hand on my chin making me look upwards to him.

"you never left me one moment. You were always there, in reality and dreams. You haunted me everywhere I went." He confessed and my eyes tear again.

I can't help but feel bad for hurting us both like this.

"no no don't cry baby please" he told me holding my face with both of his hands.

"I just.... I was really hurt, I doubted everything.. I needed to get away for some time and I planned to get back again after I calm down. Seeing the T.V made me mad that's why I said that I will never come back. But even that was a lie. I couldn't stay away from you. I love you" I told him the truth, while I was speaking he was caressing my hair and staring deeply into my eyes.

"I love you too flower" he told me and he kissed again but this time slower and quickly, then moved back and looks at the ground.

"this is not the place to do it probably but I feel that I need to do this now." He said looking nervously.

"what? Do what?" I asked him frowning in confusion.

What's going on?

I stopped breathing the moment he went down on one knee.

I gasped out loud placing my one free hand on my mouth and he's holding the other.

Oh my god.

Oh.my.god.

People gathered around us in a heartbeat making a circle now, some cameras started flashing around and all are cheering.

All the paparazzi that were far away are here now but they turn out a whole lot then I thought they were, they're around us now snapping multiple shots.

I also saw max behind him smirking holding his phone out.

So all this time I was calling max Williams was next to him!

This little devil!

"it's both of your families on facetime" max shouts to me still filming us or showing us to the family. I really don't understand anything.

The paparazzi are a lot as if they all are waiting for what about to happen more than me.

I also notice lucas, dante and rikki standing outside of the restaurant now looking at us.

Lucas has a blank face while rikki and dante are grinning.

"Rosabella, I can never fit with any other woman but you. You mean everything to me. I was the luckiest man alive for having you, and then you brought me the news that made me the happiest man in the world. You made me a father, but I fucked up real bad." He told me and I'm a crying mess, my heart beats are racing and I'm sobbing like a baby.

" Let me fix this, let me make you happy forever. Just us and our baby. Let me show you both that I'm worthy having you in my life" he told me with glossy eyes.

"Williams" I whispered while crying.

He got out a black velvet box from his pants pocket and opened it.

Inside was a very very classy and ridiculously expensive looking diamond ring, it has on huge square diamond in the center.

Oh my god.

I can't breathe anymore.

I want to say so many things, I want to tell him that no one deserve us but him, that we have no one but him.

"I've been carrying this around for five month now..." he said and laughed nervously.

Oh my god! he was about to propose before I left!

My heart itched more.

How stupid was I !

"Rosabella John Marry Hunter, will you spend the rest of your life with me? Will you marry me?" he asked me and this was it. I started crying loudly.

I walked two steps to the back and bed down placing my hands on my knees.

I can't stop crying and the pregnancy hormones are not helping at all.

My poor child must be really mad at me and very bored, I mean imagine that since I got pregnant I do nothing but cry, when happy and sad. I'm scared that my baby will be a very emotional one who cries on everything, I mean look at her mother.

"o-oh my god, Williams.." I can't even speak.

This is the happiest day of my life.

"is that a yes?" he asked nervously.

"SAY YES BITCH " max shouted from the back and I laughed loudly while crying.

"si, yes, yes, of course yes, a million times yes" I told him shaking and he laughs loudly and place the ring into my finger then he hugs me tightly spinning me around.

We both are laughing loudly as if we can't believe that we are this happy.

Sometimes second chances are so important; they might be the barrier between us and our happiness. Not everyone deserves this chance. The moment you start asking yourself should you or should you not give this person a second chance, that's when you start doing a comparison in your head between the good he did and the bad he caused.

If the bad wins then you must walk away and close any door for second chances because they deserve none.

But if the good wins then they do deserve a second chance.

What if they're equal?

Well, in this case you have to follow your heart and listen to what he as to say.

I followed my heart and my logic. Williams never did anything bad to me, it was only this lie and it was what made me doubt everything.

we human beings give ourselves reasons to justify what we think, what we do and what we believe to be true.

So, instead of admitting that yes we made a mistake, we start to justify what we did. We give ourselves reasons to what we've done and to why we've done it, just to make ourselves feel better, To see ourselves better.

I tried to justify to myself that what I did was true, I tried to hate him even though deep down I knew that I might be doing the wrong thing, instead of facing him I ran away, I was a coward.

I ran away and this caused me more pain in my life then I ever experienced.

Even when I was away I gave myself reasons to try and hate him, I wanted to proof to myself that he deserved what I did and that I was right.

But oh was I wrong!

Now I can say that my happiness is finally back.

This is my home.

He's my home.

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(seven years later)

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" Elena come inside already, it's bed time" I called loudly for my six and a half year old whose playing in the front yard with her little brother Isacc.

It's already 9 pm and she have school and a long day ahead of her tomorrow.

"bring them inside danny please" I told their baby sitter who nodded and went outside to get them.

I've been happily married for six years and a couple of month now, after he proposed, we attended eric and elli's wedding which was supposed to be in June but after I left they postponed it which was another shock to me when I knew, eric told me that they knew that I'd come back now or later and they wanted to wait for me after elli knew the reason into why I left.

To know that they postponed their wedding just for me was very huge to me. Eric is the brother I've never had.

After their wedding with a month we did ours and we went on the best honeymoon ever!

He took me to Greece, then the Maldives then Paris and morocco then finally Dubai!!

Our honey moon was two months long, I was in heaven.

Yes it was hard due to my pregnancy and we couldn't do all the sex positions we were used on doing but he made sure to make up for all this time after I gave birth and gain my health.

Every year he takes me to renew our honeymoon memories to every three countries or islands I choose.

I gave birth to Elena my eldest daughter, a small cute Leo fireball, just like her Aries mother, she looks just like Williams but with my blue eyes, my mother names her and Italian Spanish name which means bright shining light , saying that elena will be the light of our upcoming days.

Two years ago I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy, the moment lizy saw him she said he looks exactly like Isacc, that's when I decided to call him Isacc after him, this made them all cry and Williams was so happy. Isacc is two years old now; he has all Williams's genes just like Elena, but light brown hair like Isacc and light brown eyes and well, the dimples.

My kids are traitors all looking like their daddy.

"madre, altri cinque minuti. Per favore" lena begged me with her mini voice and puppy eyes.

(mother, five more minutes. please)

"no bambolina, it's a school night" I told her softly while I pull her brown hair into a high pony tail.

"if my girl wanna stay up late she will" Williams voice spoke from behind and I roll my eyes and turn around.

He just returned from a dinner meeting.

" papaaaaa" she squealed and ran into his arms as he hug her and spin her around.

If possible he's way hotter than before, the early thirties so fit him.

"da da da da" Isacc kept calling for him as he does this cute butt dance, he's sitting on the ground playing with his socks and it made me laugh.

Williams puts lena down and lifts Isacc up and hugged him, isacc's tiny arms warp around Williams in a loose baby hug and started doing baby conversations that we understand absolutely nothing from.

I laughed loudly.

"all of this happened?" Williams asked him and Isacc continued his very serious looking argument.

"well, I'll kick all of their asses for making you this mad" Williams told him and Isacc laughed which made us laugh as well.

Then he babbled again kissing his dada.

"I missed you too baby" Williams told him laughing.

"okay chatty Kathy we know you love dada more" I told him rolling my eyes and laughing.

Williams turned out to be one hell of a great, wise, and absolutely kind hearted father.

It makes me fall in love with him even more.

"yes he does" Williams told him in a funny voice as he started to tickle him and Isacc started to laugh baby laughs loudly.

"daddy, per favore. Let me stay awake a little longer and watch Disney" lena begged him and I already know where this is heading.

This man can't say no to his daughter.

"per favore mama, let lena stay awake, solo per un po' di tempo" he told me acting cute and I huffed rolling my eyes.

(just for a little time)

She needs to sleep.

Oh and by now Williams speaks Italian pretty well and understands

it.

And of course by now you all figured out whose the bad guy in this family.

Yup it's me.

But I have a good reason though, tomorrow is a big day and she has school and the whole family will be here, her grandparents from my and Williams side, even blue and Eric and their kids. Max too who's married by the way now to a beautiful girl called Jacqueline from France, her and Emma had become so close which made me so happy.

Emma is the single rich auntie who travels the world and buy everything she desires.

As for lucas, we became good friends, him and Williams as well. Lucas is finally fine with the idea that I love Williams and that he's just a brother, he moved on and he is engaged!! Can you believe it!

His fiancée is so beautiful, her name is Katherine but we call her Katy. I made him the godfather of elena seeing that he was always there when I was pregnant and Williams had no problem.

After williams noticed that luca treats me as a sister and that's it and that during the months I stayed with him he didn't actually try anything with me, he respected him and by time they became good friends.

So tomorrow I'm gathering all of them here to see our new mansion Williams just bought, well it's more of a palace.

Did I mention that we all settled in LA?

Well we did, after two years of living in Seattle Williams needed to handle the LA company branch with Eric and open a new one for himself there and his parents  main residence is there anyway so we moved along with my mother and Sonia. Williams bought then a villa in Beverly hills next to out place.

I still call my collage friends and whenever I'm at Washington DC or Seattle I'd see tom and Rebecca because well they're the ones who are left.

Lucas is now living in Italy with his fiancée so whenever he comes to America we would meet, he face times us to see lena and Isacc, last summer we went to Italy for a vacation with my family and we met him there too.

"okay, only for another 10 minutes, no arguing. Uncle Eric is coming tomorrow after school with Barb and Adam and so does auntie blue with Hailey and Natalie. You need to sleep well baby " I closed the topic and she squealed when she heard that her favorite uncle and his kids and wife are coming, she kissed us both and ran to her room to open the TV.

"please put him to bed danny" Williams told danny and gave her Isacc after we kissed him.

I stood up from the sofa and walked to him.

"I missed you flower" he told me and hugged me.

"I missed you too hubby" I kissed his cheek.

"how was your dinner?" I asked him warping my arms around his waist as he does the same.

"very boring" he said closing my eyes and I chuckled.

"but but but.. there was this woman who harassed me, she kissed me and I told her, hey I'm married and I love my wife but she said fuck your wife and kissed me by force" he told me acting shocked and I laughed out loud, him too.

"oh really, and you let her?" I asked him still laughing.

"well.. I was weak, sorry bella" he said acting broken and I laughed louder and he joined.

By now I'm used on his scenarios of women harassing him, rapping him or kissing him by force because he's oh so called DILF.

Him and his huge ego!

I always advise him to join acting club.

"There's a very important thing that I need to show you in our bedroom" he told me giving me that look and I laughed but it was cut with a squeal because suddenly he carried me bridal style and walk towards our bedroom.

All the way up he was biting my cheeks and nose and ears making me laugh loudly.

I love this man so much, to the point where I know that my whole existence is linked to his mere existence.

There's no Rosabella without Williams.

There's no life without Williams.

Who criticize marriage or frame it under a specific negative image are actually not married and I don't mean literally, I mean it metaphorically.

The concept of being with someone has many conditions.

You just can't be with whoever is there.

Or simply you can't just follow your heart blindly.

If you see a red flag, take it into consideration.

They are called red flags for a reason!

We have to choose our life partner according to many things, understanding is one of them, love comes last. During my marriage I've noticed that yes love is important, yet I came to realization that love alone is never enough, love alone won't make it work.

You need loyalty, understanding, caring, honesty, and trust, all mixed with love to have a healthy and good relationship not just marriage.

So don't judge any relationship/friendship according to someone else's concept. Live it through yourself.

Don't read someone else's book and live it.

Write your own book with your own experiences.

I did that.

I wrote what I want to live and experience and I can gladly say that I'm living my best life with my kids, family, friends and the love of my life.

As soon as you accept the concept that life has the good equals to the bad you'll have what I have too.

I wish for everyone in this life the ultimate satisfaction of what they owe and what they do.

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I guess that's it guys.

It was very bless full to share this experience with you.

Blue Roses is the first novel i ever write and you have always been part of every achievement I've done. Hopefully it won't be the last and i will continue writing Diavolo Spitato and a lot more.

I guess this will be the end here to our loves, williams Brown and Rosabella Huntet. 

I hope you guys enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing it.

Thank you all for being patient with me, through every late update and double update and month of no update at all. Thank you for always bearing with me and being there and being supportive with your messages, your comments, and your voting and for everyone followed me and who added my novel to their reading list.

Thank you guys so much this means a lot to me.

I hope  Blue Roses was worthy your time💙.

I love you all 💗

Dazerose 🌸

Goodbye ...